My close friend decided it was time to write another letter to the reader. This time the subject is bullying. She recently saw an article about a young 9 year old boy who committed suicide due to bullying after only a few weeks at his new school. I have also read it, and it is a most heartbreaking story. Bullying is a serious issue, especially with social media and the internet available which means that bullies can find new victims to bring down or even find previous victims and continue to bully them. Feb 20 2017 Dear Reader,I sometimes wonder what would have been different had I not been bullied at school. A lot of the older generation, like my parents, perpetuate the stereotype that if a boy bullies you then that means he likes you and I have personal, irrefutable proof that that is not true in the slightest. I don’t know why people perpetuate this stereotype but it is so very wrong. I’m not sure how it works if it’s the opposite…if a girl bullies a boy, do parents tell their sons that it’s because she likes him just like they would their daughters? If the answer is yes, then please stop. If the answer is no, then why do they insist on doing it with their daughters? It’s something I am aware they learnt at their own parents’ knees when growing up, but wouldn’t they have noticed how damaging it is to tell their own kids if they experienced the same? Sometimes the relationship between bully and victim can be genuine; a kid looking for attention from the other, even negative but most of the time it’s another reason, like jealousy or the like. Personally, I was bullied at school for as long as I can remember; starting with primary and ending in high school when I was in fourth or fifth form (year 10 or 11) because I learnt how to ignore the majority of it by then which was mostly minimal teasing words. It just sort of tapered off, I suppose and I think that had to do with the fact I didn’t give the bullies the time of day and the fact I had friends to back me up. Bullied children need support, need friends and most of all they need their parents to believe them and listen to them when they mention being bullied. Bullying is the number one cause of suicide among school aged children and when they commit suicide, they leave broken hearts and broken families while the reason the child committed suicide, the bullies, basically walk free with very few consequences and move onto their next victim. For some bullies, their victims committing suicide, is a turning point that they use and take advantage of; it becomes an opportunity for them to turn their life around and to become better people. I’m willing to bet that a majority of my own bullies have forgotten I even exist, especially those from primary and intermediate school since I’ve had very little interaction with them since. There is one in particular that I absolutely despise, yet will probably always remember even if he doesn’t remember me. Intermediate was a particularly bad two years for me. While second year there wasn’t quite as bad, first year was the shittiest school year I have ever experienced; it’s probably for that reason, that I remember it more than the others. It was a breaking point for me and even now, I still bear the scars. Year seven, or form one, I had bullies that consisted of most of the class. There was one young man in particular who was rather aptly named, though I won’t actually name him here for privacy’s sake, who led the class. By American standards, he’d be your typical jock; attractive (even at that age), athletic, popular, above average in intelligence and loved gaming. I’m pretty sure the majority of the girls in the class had a crush on him at some point, and yes that included me. It was rather unfortunate that I had a crush on him, as it only made the bullying and final put down he gave me rather hard and extra hurtful. What made it even worse was the fact that our teacher was a newbie meaning she either didn’t notice or didn’t know how to deal with the rampant bullying in her classroom. There are three particular moments that I remember the best and I’m still not sure if that is unfortunate or not. The first incident of the remembered three was when either he or one of his clique pulled the chair out from under me just as I had been about to sit down. Normally this wouldn’t have been so bad but there was quite a distance between the height I was about to sit at and the floor which had thin carpet over concrete; this meant that I ended up damaging my tailbone (or coccyx for those more medically minded) as gravity pulled me down. It was so sudden that I had no time to slow my descent. Even now, the effects still linger and unlike other people I cannot remain seated for more than an hour to an hour and a half tops unless there is a lot of padding in the seat; and I mean a lot of padding. I get a really sore bottom where my tailbone is if I try to remain seated for longer than that. The second incident wasn’t really a bullying thing. It was a turn of face. I turned up to school in about the middle of the week having had an accident over the weekend and needing the first two days to recover. I was super shy, more so than normal because I had dried blood covering half my face from the accident that wouldn’t come off (we tried), about facing my classmates, a majority of whom usually bullied me. I had fully expected the bullying to get a lot worse than it was but to my utter shock and surprise everyone was concerned, polite and nice to me. I remember one girl asking me if it was chocolate that was dried on my face which pulled a shy, nervous laugh out of me before I shook my head and whispered the fact that it was blood. My mother, who’d been there at the time, briefly explained that I’d been in an accident over the weekend and could everyone please be nice to me and help me if I needed it. Of course, as it was a parent who asked, and the teacher agreed, they obliged. I knew from the offset though that it would never last and I was right. As soon as I was recovered enough, about a week and a half, they went back to bullying me. I’ve always been on fairly good terms with my parents and pretty open with them, so I usually told them about being bullied and asked for advice. They gave it but more often than not it didn’t work. The third incident was bullying in the form of humiliation and embarrassment. I’m not sure about the time frame but I think it was either close to the second half of the year. We were in the new gymnasium which had been built recently for P.E. or Phys. Ed. I believe we’d been playing dodgeball, maybe. I can’t remember exactly. All I remember is that he somehow found out about my crush on him. I’m not sure if someone pointed out that I kept looking at him or if they’d known previously but when he approached me I remember blushing heavily and getting really nervous with my heart speeding up a little bit; what girl wouldn’t feel like that when their crush approached them? I remember the tears dripping down my face, the sobs tearing out of my mouth and the pain of heartbreak in my chest when he stated clearly “I don’t like you.” I ran off to the changing rooms and remained there for the rest of the lesson, sobbing my little heart out as he walked off to join his friends who were all laughing and jeering. Even now, my heart hurts thinking about it. That’s one of the worst memories I have of intermediate. However, you mustn’t let age fool you when it comes to bullying. Bullies can come in all shapes and sizes. The biggest memory of bullying I had in the second year of intermediate was when my own teacher, who’d just come back from teaching in Britain a few months previous, called me stupid in my hearing when in discussion in with another classmate. You can believe I told my mother about that and she definitely had a go at the woman. So yes, teachers can also be bullies. If your child ever comes to you about being bullied, for their sake, for their continued mental and physical health please believe them and at least look into it. Very rarely do children lie, especially about something as severe as bullying. If your child is usually an open, bubbly, social person and suddenly starts keeping things to themselves then it’s a sign of something wrong. Listen to them, let them come to you but don’t ever, ever go snooping through their things because if they catch you, and it’s likely they will, then not only will they continue to keep more things to themselves but you will also lose their trust. Don’t push your child away. It doesn’t matter if you’re tired or upset or whatever, you had children and they are your responsibility; you need to listen to them. Don’t let them fade away and withdraw into themselves because I can guarantee you’re probably going to regret not doing so later. No parent wants to bury their child, whether that is due to illness or something like suicide due to bullying. Take care of your children, they’re the future. Take care,
Ceejay x So overall, keep an eye on your child/children and their mental and physical health. The happier they are, the healthier they are especially mentally; and mental health is very important. Love,
Kyrena x