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Its so beautiful that cats have their own special weed. Mother nature rewarding them for being the best animal

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How deep does it run?

How deep does it run?

that self-loathing of yours.

Is it a puddle you can splash in on a rainy day? (The dew drops in the mornings )

Is it's the ripples of a rock hopping across a still lake? (stick to the tree leaves and the spider webs)

Is it a river rushing down towards the open mouth of the ocean? (After a stormy night)

Is it the raging waves of the seven seas, forcing itself into your lungs until your cries for help have faded into nothing but a gurgle, until you can no longer keep your head above the water, until you are dragged down into its water depths? (renewal and new beginnings await you in the morning)

Answer my question.

How deep does your self-loathing fall?

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My oldest companion

Numbness

My old friend

How I forgot you existed

Only appearing

In my darkest hours of need

How I loath you

You who forbid me

My childhood happiness

You who forbid me

My joyful youth

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Forgive me for my feelings

I was right to be nervous

I was right to panic

It was the worst case scenario

Anxiety was right

I grieve what we had

And what we could have had

At least we're still friends

At least your not gone

Not completely, at least

Forgive me if I take some time

Forgive me if I need some distance

The year and a quarter

It took to feel the way I do

You seduced me

With your clever mind

And charming wit

With your ways with words

And passionate gaze

These feelings

They won't fade just because it ended

They won't fade just because you want them to

They won't fade just because I want them to

I understand you don't feel the same

You need time to figure out your feelings

But forgive me for being selfish

In thinking that

You should have spared me

And forgive me for being selfish

In thinking that

You should have figured it out before

And forgive me for being selfish

In thinking that

You should have told me sooner

And forgive me for being selfish

For thinking that

My feelings should matter too

And forgive me for being selfish

In distancing myself

From you

Forgive me for being selfish

In needing some time

Forgive me, my friend

(Not lover),

For what I'm about to do

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Life

If I had a penny

For every time I had to uproot my life

And pack it into tiny boxes

Seeing how little space I take up

In this limitless world

Seeing how fleeting time is

In this never ending universe

We are but a speck

A moment

A lifetime for us

But infinitesimal compared to everything else

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Talk about what

You make me nervous

When you say we need to talk

I tell you as such

And you say you are too

Anxiety thinks of the worst case scenario

You know I have it

I know you have it too

You make me nervous

When you won't tell me

What we need to talk about

It could be nothing

I've checked our forecasts for today

And they say there's a storm approaching

It doesn't ease my worries