I haven't had the motivation to finish or even start a proper drawing in a year now and im slowly loosing my mind.
Every time i try it looks awful compared to what i used to do.
I dont even have the motivation to write fanfic or drafts.
send help.

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I haven't had the motivation to finish or even start a proper drawing in a year now and im slowly loosing my mind.
Every time i try it looks awful compared to what i used to do.
I dont even have the motivation to write fanfic or drafts.
send help.
Im pretty sure something along the lines of 'voidbound syndrome' is a pretty common hc in the nullscape community but im going to explain my take on it anyways!!!!!
The main premise of Voidbound Syndrome is that it is the result of spending too long / going too deep into the nullscape. It is present in nearly all delvers (players) in small increments, and is what prevents most from going anywhere past 25.
In less concerning severities, Voidbound syndrome has symtoms primarily including agitation, dizziness, migraines, fatigue, muscle weakness or sudden strength, slight vision loss, slurred speech, and on rare occasions, memory loss and 'voidcalling,' a distinct need or urge to continue the expedition / go deeper into the nullscape. These symptoms are regarded to as a benchmark to end the expedition and return to safezones (lobbies) to avoid further progression.
If allowed to progress and no attempts at return are made, these symptoms get signifigantly worse around level 50, especially the voidcalling and fatigue. At any point beyond the Celestial, affected delvers will refuse to and even fight to avoid leaving if the suggestion is given. During this, some physical changes might show up. These are incredibly varied and usually very subtle, but related it to the differences between Guardians and VBGs.
Another small note of this stage is that the affected may begin to seem less stressed or even blissful despite how close they get to dying.
From then on, most delvers are no longer found. While what happens to them tends to vary, there is a common staple. At some point, they will end up throwing themself willingly off of the pathways, directly into the void, and do not respawn.
Patient 0: Breaker / VoidBreaker.
Morals and mortality (MPAU)
as stated in previous posts, Shedletsky didn't take to the 'myth' lifestyle right away. In fact, he fought it for a very long time, up until he simply couldn't anymore, and lost control.
1x1 had repeatedly warned Shedletsky that if he continued refusing to 'feed' himself, there would be consequences. On many occasions, 1x1 had dragged him along in hopes that the instincts Shedletsky should have would kick in atleast once, concidering that he couldn't force a feed, and they needed to learn how.
Despite the opportunities, Shedletsky had hard-set morals in his head, as well as certain rules enforced through his time with the admins. He was meant to be a protector of robloxians, not something to be feared. Never something to run from. So, he sat and fought the growing hunger for atleast a year before it truly kicked in.
By the time 1x1 had pulled him along for another one of their hunts, Shedletsky was hardly 'himself.' It wasn't instant. However seeing the other hunt and feed, a role model in his instinct, it ended up drowning him out for a bit.
Shedletsky didn't attack or harm anyone the first time around, he simply joined in on the leftovers. He didn't speak or act, he simply put himself in the scenario so that the victim would be wary of him. Feed him. Shedletsky can appear quite unnerving when he isnt smiling.
Afterwards, 1x1 was rather relieved glad Shedletsky had finally eaten something, even if he wasn't very talkative afterwards. Since he'd finally done something for himself, his body should be able to push for the rest in short time. 1x1 has met many other Myths, none of them last long without fuel.
To 1x1, this was a step towards healing for the other.
To Shedletsky, he'd just broken an oath he'd swore to uphold, even if it did make his chest stop hurting so badly.
'siblings, counterparts, something in-between.' ( MPAU )
1x1 doesn't necessarily hate, nor even despise Shedletsky. They simply do not care for his attempted choice at lifestyle, and value their own life enough to give him a 'kind' push in a different direct.
being two 'halves' of the same 'soul' or 'presence,' Shedletsky and 1x1 mostly rely off of the same stockpile of 'belief' to remain immortal and powerful. 1x1's own contribution to this stockpile was quite enough for the both of them due to his infamy in early years, however it began to run out once 1x1 began mellowing out from the initial anger of the split.
1x1 simply wasn't going to deal with a freeloader who wanted to waltz around proclaiming themself as an 'admin.'
There definitely wasn't any form of concern or worry felt when he saw his opposition beginning to grow dull from supressed hunger. His anger towards the actual admins was because they were causing problems with their own survival, not because they were neglecting the needs of him in hopes of something they know isn't true.
Lesson One (MISPRINT au)
this just in, Shedletsky can't pay attention even if it was about his requirements to continue on as an immortal and now properly labelled "myth"
( it took a grand total of 7 hours for 1x1x1x1 to get their point across. How patient. )
Myth in training / 1x1x1x1 + Shed concept
i've been pretty stuck on an idea for my own little story between Shedletsky and 1x1x1x1. It's not too well thought out quite yet, but I'd be curious on anyone's opinion of it!
Essentially, its using the common basis of 'Telamon gives up divinity and demotes themself,' but a little different. Upon coming to the conclusion that they were in fact NOT perfect, Telamon decided that the best course of action was to completely rid themself of 'imputities.' Henceforth and so on theres the whole dramatic ritual you've heard this part before.
The result of the ritual is 1x1x1x1 and Shedletsky. It was INTENDED for Telamon to survive as a somewhat weakened but 'purified' version of himself. The actual result was two extremely unstable halves. 1x1 was the 'removed' half ( negativity, hate, etc ) and shedletsky was the more wanted end of it ( excitement, ego. )
Fairly early into the creation of these two, labels are put down ( the ritual was supervised by Builderman as extra precaution. )
A small thing to note in this verse, 'Myths' and 'hackers' are of same relativity to 'Admins' and 'moderators,' the difference being defined by intent, appearance, and occionally origin. Telamon was a Myth by technicality, however preferred being around the Admins to the point his classification was overlooked.
Both Myths and Admins feed off of belief and percieved influence, however myths feed more off of fears and anxieties while Admins feed off of trust.
Shedletsky was still unconcious around this time ( he hadn't inherited the resiliance that came with anger, ) but 1x1 was rather fast to start fighting with Builderman. It wasn't a long lasting or overly important fight, as 1x1 was still too fresh to be of any power, but it resulted in them deciding to leave off on their own to avoid dealing with the aftermath of the split. (( Shedletsky was taken in by Builderman, since he was still OUT. ))
Things go decent from there, mostly.
Shedletsky, as he starts growing into the HQ, is a little freak of a person. Bad staring habits, unintentionally following people around, creeping up on people. Never intentional, just instinct, of course! Instinct is easily corrected, so they did. Builderman encouraged more social habits and made sure he worked to fix the bad ones ( Builderman was rather anxious of anything going wrong. ) It wasn't easy for Shedletsky to change, but he eventually managed to blend in rather well.
The only downside to this was that it was incredibly draining for him, and unknowingly physically draining as well. Due to the 'belief' that came with being labelled an 'admin' brough, his needs were somewhat satisfied, but never enough. That was alright in his book, but not so much so for the one he still shared a soul with, apparently.
1x1x1x1, despite getting as far away from the Admins as possible, could still very much feel the tether he had to Shedletsky, and the starvation he was radiating was rather annoying. Surely the man would be able to hunt by now, right?
The increasingly pathetic bond said otherwise, so 1x1 ended up leaving their own abode to see why the hell the man wasn't feeding. They spent a few months hanging out in the darker corners of cities to keep an eye on Admin activity, where it eventually became clear that Shed simply hadn't made an effort at all, trying to conform to Admin morals.
That simply wasnt going to do. As much as 1x1 regarded Shedletsky as a pathetic excuse for a counterpart, they were practically siblings, and they couldn't stand to have their own image slandered amoung the other myths by having their opposite parading around as some self-righteous helper.
Long story short from there, big fight happens as 1x1 goes to 'retrieve' Shedletsky for 'proper education on existing' and the Admins don't take well to that. Too bad for them, Shedletsky is awful at following instruction to stay put. After a somewhat sad struggle ( 1x1x1x1 is objectively stronger due to the uneven split but there was still a fight put up,) Shedletsky ends up essentially chained down to a raggedy sofa with a broken chalkboard infront of him and an extremely annoyed 1x1 ranting to him about how stupid he is, and how he's going to have to 'stop acting like a discord myth and actually start doing his job.' Whatever that meant.
You guys can use your imagination from there, but thats basically the premise, thank you for coming to my TED Talk. If this is a decent concept, I wouldn't mind hearing thoughts or ideas? (( im also unsure if I'd like to make a comic, fic or mayB an askblog of them later on. ))