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i wonder if i still cross your mind at random points of the day. i wonder if certain things you see or do remind you of me or the things we used to talk about. i wonder if you ever miss talking to me, or feel the urge to. i wonder if you ever will again.

c / i don’t expect you to

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wishing-for-deathx

“Maybe you are just a symptom of my illness. Maybe if I loved myself I would never have loved you.”

— But I do I do I do

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sunflowerletters

“Perhaps the saddest thing of all, Is that I think of you all the time, I think about your face, and your smile, I think about how your hair has gotten longer now, and how it would feel to run my fingers through it, I think about how nice it would have been, to meet your friends, and see your room, and what it would have been like to see you when you just woke up. I think about the future we could have had, and the dreams that never came to be, But most of all, I think about how you don’t think about me at all, not even a little.”

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But that’s okay, I’m learning to be okay with it

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write, Perhaps the Saddest Thing

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shmwrites

the hardest thing i had to do this year was not to remember you as the person who loved me in ways no one else ever had before but to remember you as the person who left me broken in ways i didn’t think i could break.

it doesn’t matter how you loved me, it matters how you left me.

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