Reptile as a metaphor for feeling difficult to be loved/unworthy of the love that you crave, and being so disgusted with yourself that it feels as if you’re actively contaminating or degrading whoever you want so desperately to love you— even if it’s not really love at all, but a distorted facsimile.
YES. yes yes yes. and perhaps projecting your own horrible self-hatred onto that person. demonizing them. because, you think, how could they possibly want to be in the presence of something like you without being just as bad— or even worse? they must be wretched, too.
or perhaps assuming automatically that whatever they feel for you can’t be love at all, can’t be anything other than a mutilated recreation of it or an attempt to manipulate you, because there’s no way they could possibly love something like you. they must be trying to drag you down further into the depths.
your point also brings to mind closer…"you let me VIOLATE you…you let me DESECRATE you" as if he believes the act of sex with him in particular to be an inherently degrading act for the other person, a way of bringing them down to his level
