about me.
tiramisu / adult / tme / sapphic / she or it pronouns as a default¹ but strangers (the girl reading this) have to use neutral they. i don't know you like that. tme. white. switch vers by circumstance² but a sub bottom by perference. now happily engaged to a perfect butch sadist with very indulged npd superiority over me and endlessly fucking smug about that. working up to a tpe lifestyle one not very safe, insane, and consensually non-consensual step at a time. (if i had my way we'd be there already, but i face less risks for all that i want to be the one walking around with the livestock ear clipping³.) this is a sideblog and my main / pic sb / text post sb / etc are all pretty obvious once you know what to look for.
¹ specifically for the purpose of force(fem) misgendering in a gender roles abuse setting. irl i'm some flavour of nonbinary genderfluid for plural reasons but for kink my boys are good little girls (she), my girls are walking sex toys (it), and any parts outside of the binary are overconfident wombs (she/it).
² circumstance here meaning "if you have self confidence and know what you want people who shouldn't be allowed to have sex will violently typecast you as a top until the only way you're getting any of your sexual needs met in that relationship is if you preface asking for them with Mommy Is Telling You To" which as you can imagine sucked. thank god my girl got me out of there
³ stop trying to get your dom literally put on death row because you think it would be hot if they gave you a traffiking tattoo as part of a kidnapping rapeplay scene!! (← REAL EXAMPLE I SAW ON DISCORD) it's easy to teehee about hard play when all your risks are on the same level as a specialty piercing or a football game and all of your partners risks involve restraining orders and transquilizers and being outed on fox news and the electric chair!!! holy shit
boundaries.
following. i'm not "proship" because i don't ship things. i am however very very into brotherfucking torture cannibalism murder agegap grooming abuse rapeplay (no commas because that's one scene) and i love many many bitches who are full on diaperfurs in their private lives. i don't care if you think adults playing pretend to get off is a sin in the eyes of god icky and gross and problematic. if you send me anon hate i'll squirt on it.
always. i like it when someone cracks under scene and admits that they like what is happening to them, i love "first times" because i love when someone is shocked by how good it feels, and i think your dom should be bananas in love with you.
never. disrespectful or cruel language, degradation of the mgtow variety, standard ryona faire where women are disposable trash and they aren't even horny about it.
kink ranking.
♡ my babies and my best beloveds:
tpe: ♡♡♡ obviously!! i love MY domme i love being property to him i love not getting to decide what i want unless he wants me to i love her knowing me well enough to be able to tell me to do things that won't make me miserable and i love her knowing me well enough to tell me to make myself miserable anyway if she thinks it would be hot at the time because i'm all hers to coddle or torment or do laundry and taxes with forever
hypno / mind control: ♡♡ love inductions love all of the bits of bambi sleep that don't involve imagining myself skinny love mind control - hate hate hate instant loss apps - love changing the world around someone while they get confused and dizzy and can't keep their mind in their own control anymore. neutral to ew on the body control / roboslave stuff because i want it from the pov of someone realizing they don't know their own name any more after their new owner took it away
intox: ♡ super for alcohol middling for weed on its own really really dripping down my thighs bad for research chemicals. do things to me that rewire the way i see colours and fuck me the whole way through so i can't seperate my ego death from your fingers down my throat and your boot in my guts and your cock deforming my cervix and your spit on my face
rapeplay: ♡♡ ten thousand percent yes i read "the fake safeword" a year ago and immediately changed my entire life around it. i love being chased by someone who can keep up and i love being caught by someone just that bit better than me and i love them taking what's theirs now while i cry and scream and beg and wheedle and bargain and fight and cry
tentacles: ♡ they have to be sexlessly smooth and not super buggy or else i get scared but i really really love seedbed / fleshwalls / parasitism That Isn't A Creepy Crawly. double that with hentai aphrodisiac intox and you have me locked the fuck in. my fave tentacles are either full body horror mod stuff like kuribayashi chris's snuff pieces or anal/parasite focused like ishimura's vore series. ← both kinks i'm not into on their own but can go insane for if done well in something i already like.
brainfucking: ♡♡♡♡ please oh my god she is my girl every time. hard guro is fine and so is superlight "a tendril thru your ear" shit but for me it's about cumming so hard you go blind while bits of your awareness literally shut down and reset. if they live at the end but they have cum for brains now that's the kind of shit that has me dripping even typing this.
incest: ♡♡♡♡♡ don't worry i'm one of those uwu ontologically pure good victims!! lmao no but seriously i love it i love the closeness i love the perversion i love the genderplay i read that utena essay (the palace perspective) with my hitachi setting on "shred pork for tacos" the whole time. big brother shit is my absolute niche, siscest is fine in theory, i don't like parental stuff unless it's standout good in another kink of mine and anything beyond that is barely incest to me. also i hate adoption fakeouts and i'm not ashamed to say it. make them blood!!!
iq loss: ♡♡♡ semi tied to brainfucking and hypno and i do have a hard line at the lower end when it gets into infantilization but everything above that be it hucow or bimbo or dnd stats or mindflayers or (and i cannot emphasize this enough) asanagi draph hornbreaking doujins?? i'm on my hands and knees mouth open begging someone to do that to me in real life
exhibitionism: ♡ specifically the kind thats like oh i'm cuddling up with you during family movie night oh i'm not doing anything too outwardly weird nobody's going to catch us nobody's going to be able to tell that i put my hand up your skirt if you don't give it away by panting or moaning. yum
forced orgasm: ♡♡ in hentai as a treat because i have a ptsd puzzle box of a vagina and a shy little clit and in real life because i fantasize about being strapped down industrially and forced to feel something i flinch away from every time during loving normal vanilla bdsm. i'm tired of choosing because i never choose the right thing (cumming myself stupid)
breeding: ♡ cishet quiverfull stuff weirds me right the fuck out and honestly i'm quite probably tokophobic (sp?) on several levels. unfortunately i love the idea of being pumped full and plugged up and marked all over as someone's property patriarchy style now that the someone is my fianceé? oops
milking: ♡♡ sorry everyones favourite princess is right back here at hucow central just begging to be pinned down and plumped up and pierced through the nipple and led around by it while my brain goes soft and sweet and milky
corruption: ♡ also the best type of nonstandard mind control and virginity breaking and gender tf and body modification and etc etc. i'm not talking instant loss of female destiny shit i want someone to genuinely wear themselves away on pleasure until there's nothing left in the world that matters to them as much as the pure simple uncomplicated high of six hours cumming
free use: ♡♡ this one has so much potential to me and unfortunately just as much potential to the kind of guys on my NO section. also i'm yandere monogamous so gangbang stuff is only hot to me as a dirtytalk threat from my wife midway through using me freely. but within our sick pervert two person polycule i am so so so down for being taken at random.
chastity: ♡ i go back and forth on this because i cannot stand being actually uncomfortable (like, itchy nose uncomfortable) and i have "it's not... not adhd" issues that mean if a situation goes too long i will just space out of experiencing it? so to me the best chastity play is erectile dysfunction / edging / something involving having my hands slapped away mid-act.
masochism: ♡♡ i mean duh if you're this far down but i do want to specify that this includes physical stuff like chaining and whipping and branding and piercing and impact play. i'm talking broken bones and snuffbait shit quite frankly. i want someone to do that to me and i want it to be out of love
misgendering: ♡ disclaimer that i'm basically a cis woman so all of my misgend kink involves me on the other end of someone about to pin me down by the throat and breed me while making fun of me for thinking they/them pronouns exist. the bioessentialism is kind of a backseat driver to dual wield breeding kink (you are the thing i put a baby into) and tpe stuff (i get to decide what you are and what you are is the thing i put a baby into).
♤ absolutely will not post or will ignore:
→ disclaimer!! ← if this is your kink i believe it can be hot in hands that already have good sex and like their partners. i'm not going to be like "ok now these are morally wrong and if you like it you're touched in the head" with zero self awareness. mutuals who like this you are my angels and i adore you. thank you for working so hard every day. mwah
age reg: ♤ okay listen i love teen-ish agereg because i feel debilitatingly stunted thanks to ptsdisms but i haaaaate babyreg i'm sorry everyone i just cannot stand it something about the play and the prep just hits me hard in my own "i should be teeny tiny" dysmorphia and icks me senseless.
pet play: ♤ this is like the cardinal sin of trans kinkblr i know and i even get the appeal on paper it's just. not for me. again it's the size thing i think?? i get autsitically literal about the dog bit of petplay and then i'm just back with 200 bad exes who wanted to play pretend that i was skinny and short instead of titted to the gills and fat around the torso and i hit the eject button hard.
unsanitary: ♤♤ love the holding part of omo would rather die than see pee or puke or scat or smegma. i list those but smegma's really the issue because so many otherwise good dommy situations involve that bit and it absolutely drives me off my meal for the rest of the day. warn for that shit!!
patriarchy: ♤♤♤ sorry i know i know but this one genuinely yonkers me. there's so much genuinely bad porn being churned out of the industrial misogyny factory that i can't get off to good doms or hot bitches saying shit about women being disposable etc because i get whore flashbacks to the amount of clients i had irl who wanted dry bareback anal for free, just because, you know. they're old men with cars and i'm not. if you're playing with anything that irl oppression re-inforces i need to trust that you're, like, sentient in there about those out of scene issues and for this kink set i have too much firsthand experience of that not being even vaguely true.
feet stuff: 🚫🚫🚫 i was never into it before i got married. now i am married, and it upsets my baby for personal reasons. bye!
