"Message To My Dad"
Life was just so magical until I finally experience the real heartaches. Was able to claim that 2018 will be my year but it turns out to be a nightmare. I have always been so sentimental with my feelings especially those who are so close to me. I lose someone who is so dear to me. I can't even imagine my life without him. My heart is crying with pain. My eyes is full of agony. My mind is on a real distress. And I lost a part of me. I'm not a whole person anymore. Something ain't right. Something is missing.
The man I dislike before when I was a lil kid is gone. I hated his rules. His policy. Him being so strict to me. His attitude when he is not in the good mood is scary. Me and my siblings are trembling to death if we did something wrong. He maybe someone that we are scared of but he has full of sense of humor. He has a good side as well. A soft side that few people knows. The man that a father to everyone. The man who has a principle in life. The man who have great intentions to his children. The man who fought to his country. The man who serve well to his leader. And the man who love his wife.
Daddy. You left us. You left us without telling us that you are not okay. You left us unprepared. You left us in pain. But I'm not blaming you that you left us early. I'm blaming myself not telling you how much you mean to me,to us. I'm not good with words and actions when it comes to you but God knows how much i love you. I always try my best to show you how grateful I am to have you as my father. Not just my father but my best buddy. Tay, our memories we shared as father & daughter is written in my solitude heart. We have our own bond that no one will know. We have our own conversation that we both understand but not them. A small memories but full of happiness. But the happiness we shared is now slowly breaking. It is now blurry. It covers with mourn.
We need to share our last goodbye. And I don't want to say goodbye. I can't. But I guess I have to right? I have to say this word. The word goodbye. 😥😥
Daddy, you maybe not with us anymore but
your memory will always be with us. We wont forget the advice and word of wisdom you had given to us. It may hurt us alot right now but I know in time, pain will heal. I'm gonna miss your tight hugs. Sweet kisses. The way you treat me as a real princess. Your laugh and our roadtrips. Tay, I'm hurting as I wrote these rn. But I'm gonna surpass this for sure. You maybe gone but will never be forgotten. I love you! 😭
