you may or may not know me as the author of the hlp series. you know, the one who disappeared into the void four months ago?
...long time, no see š¬
first of all: i'm not even done reading all the ao3 comments that have accumulated in my absence, and i'm already on the verge of tears with love and adoration for you guys. you are all so wonderful and i'm sorry i worried you with my absence. rest assured, i'm fine. nothing big or terrible happened to me. i was struggling with some mental health issues and, honestly, i just needed a break. i didn't leave you guys hanging out of the blue to be cruel, i promise. i just had to put myself first for once and take care of some things.
most of you have probably figured out by now that i will not be continuing the happy little pill series.
maybe some day in the future i'll share a much longer, much more detailed explanation for why i left - it wasn't because i was sick of hlp, or of you guys, or anything like that. for now, you'll just have to take me at my word: writing this series and watching it grow into an entire fandom of its own has been one of the best, most rewarding experiences of my life, and leaving was one of the hardest decisions i have ever made. i will never be able to repay you all for everything you've given me. you are all SO amazing. thank you, thank you, thank you.
you'll also have to take me at my word when i tell you that disappearing for 4 months was the best decision i could have made for myself at the time, and i don't regret it.
i can't promise you guys i'll be fully active on tumblr again, either, but i'll probably be around.
i will continue to write fanfiction on ao3!
i will not be continuing hlp, but i will be writing more fic in the future for voltron/langst/klance and other fandoms. it just won't be hlp or related to hlp in any way. i'm actually considering making a whole new ao3 account so i don't have to go back to that mental place every time i see my hlp content. i'll keep you guys posted if/when i do that so you can join me under my new username.
i know this is probably not the triumphant return a lot of you were hoping for, and i'm sorry. but, without going into too much detail, please believe me when i say this really is the best choice for me at this point in my life.
there were so many points in the past few months, especially recently, where i wanted so badly to pick back up where i left off with hlp. but picking back up on hlp would also mean picking back up on unhealthy habits i was clinging to while writing this series. i feel like i can't accept hlp back into my life anymore without dragging a darker part of myself back along with it. i can't go back there anymore. that darker part of me has healed. she no longer exists - and she, unfortunately, also held the key to hlp.
hlp and the issues i was going through at the time are way too mentally intertwined now for me to ever untangle them. i must ask you all to respect that, to respect my decision, and to refrain from asking me to continue hlp in the future. the answer has to be a solid no. sorry, and i love you, but no.
if you have any more questions, please feel free to send them to me! oh, and...
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