I want the thing itself

23 | they/she | scrapbook sideblog | mainly exploring theatre, feminism, & personal pursuit of bravery

[lassiluetas]

tag guide

general:

#library - written works

#gallery - visual works

#stereo - auditory works

#workshop - posts to return to for practices, forms, methodologies, etc.

themed:

#iw - a project I’m actively working on, host of subtags: #irreverence principle, #integration principle, #theatricality principle

#liberation - posts regarding feminism & other liberatory ideologies

#on love - as it sounds

#nature held me close - butchness/queer masculinity

#the absent presence - eroticism

#asters & goldenrod - joy/beauty in the world

#spooks - I love Halloween!

#tell me about the big bang - surviving/enduring/growing/becoming

#slide ruler - the expansiveness of the mind into incoherence/madness/dissolution of language/something like that

#technolust - cyborg notions & the internet user experience

ideas in the works:

Something about death & life & other such existential concepts

food & the sensory memory

[rearte2]

by Mark Rothko, 1969

[lilcowgirl7-deactivated20210223]

You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

[sumrot]

Now I know something you don’t

[theoptia]

Simone de Beauvoir, from Diary of a Philosophy Student: Volume 1, 1926-27

Text ID: I observe how much I have matured since last year despite my belief that I was losing myself, how something strong was born from the painful experiences survived and from the numerous minutes that I believed were wasted.

[antigonickpdf]

our longing for inconvenience by hanif abdurraqib (id in alt)

[miamaimania]

Love letter from 1913 that opens up to form a miniature art gallery — handwritten correspondence and tiny framed paintings on folded paper

[fairycosmos]

apparently youre supposed to perform. they love it when you perform. but it has to be authentic. they hate it when it's not authentic. but you have to perform.

[neoyorzapoteca]

“The idea that you’re going to arrive at a perfect routine that will serve you forever is a fantasy. I’m a person who is drawn to routines, is drawn to ritual as a way of conjuring the emotions that I need to do my best work. But I also recognize that we have phases of life, that there’s seasonality, particularly as I deal with long-term chronic illness. I can’t necessarily depend on routine to be exactly the same for the long-term. I think I’m in a constant act of reassessment where I’m considering, okay, this is what I’ve been doing. What about this serves me? What about this is holding me back? It’s a dance between ritual and experimentation, and also a healthy element of play–because I think we have to be careful that ritual doesn’t get in the way of our capacity to play.”

— Illustrator and designer Joelle Arawjo on learning to do a lot with very little – The Creative Independent

[charl0ttan]

being myself performatively

[ceruleanheaven]

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life

[fillianore-moved]

so metropolitan museum of art has a register of books they’ve published that are out of print and that you can download for free! they’re mostly books on art, archeology, architecture, fashion and history and i just think that’s super useful and interesting so i wanted to share! you can find all of the books available here!

[weltenwellen]

Joanna Klink, from "Two Trees"

[typewriter-worries]

[ Text ID:

Some days I'm nothing more than hearsay,

a story read back to me that makes no sense. ]

[ewaneneollav]

last night i did a drawing of a game state in hangman. i wasn’t playing hangman, i was just drawing a moment in the game, like a still life. my friend tried to guess a letter & i had to tell her, no, we’re not playing it, it’s just a drawing of hangman, you’re losing the distinction between reality & fiction

[ahead]

[gelphienation]

I do feel that the most fun way to look at media is to examine how someone is working against the constraints put on them like absolutely everyone is doing that. The most conceptual figures in a medium are working against the medium itself (like stan brakhage taping moths to a roll of celluloid film and having that be a movie) or comme des garconnes trying to reexamine what a garment is. and that’s often paired with budget and equipment constraints that people work against to create new techniques like the jump cut. more popular works in a medium are usually working against constraints of the genre and what’s considered “profitable” or “family friendly” or “having broad appeal.”

I think understanding that is the key to actually enjoying a broad range of genres. Like an indie movie will push boundaries a big movie can’t but it might look ugly or be difficult to find or watch because it has a smaller budget. A blockbuster movie is very limited in what it can say because it has so many stakeholders involved and so it’s creativity will usually from how it interjects subtext or skilled craft into something that’s supposed to be very flashy, fast moving and plot heavy.

You really start to enjoy a large variety of stuff when you are able to see things as a sort of universal experience of creative problem solving in response to constraints. Genre divides and high/low culture debates are basically terms people use to describe what problems people are solving around. But anywhere on that spectrum people can approach the constraints of their medium and audience in an innovative and skillful way or in a stupid one. And a lot of what makes media analysis fun for me is experiencing something and working backwards to figure out what problem they were trying to solve and how they did it. #myopinion

[blubalum]

Pretty crazy how wind is invisible yet sporadically says hello through moving objects