My name is Rachel. I'm 25 and on October 3rd 2014 I married the love of my life. He was my first love, my high school sweetheart, my prom date and I love that he upgraded to my husband. We live in a cute little house in Jonesville NC with our little chihuahua Lilly. We are currently working on our family and hopefully our time will come soon. In the meantime we devote our time spoiling our nephew Carson, our honorary nephews Sylas and Jerry, and our Godson Waylon. At the moment we work at Papa Johns. he's a manager. and I'm a soon to be manager. We love making pizzas and working on perfecting our dough slapping skills. We have dreams to one day open our own pizza restaurant. I have noticed that this description was suppose to be about me, but instead I wrote about us. That's because he's the part of me I treasure the most. I treasure our past present future and our marriage. I have another important person in my life, and that's my best friend/sister Sylvia. We were high school bffs and had a falling out. It was so bad it lasted about 4 years but we were young and dumb and reconnected ams it was like it never happened. She was the Maid of Honor at my wedding, and I wish I could of been hers. (she got married during our falling out) She has given birth to 2 wonderful boys who I adore (Sylas and Jerry) We probably know each other better than our husbands. We are so different but it works. I just love her more than she will ever understand. Back to me! I'm an award winning published photographer. Its a passion I've fallen away from unfortunately right now because my mom is battleing leukemia. My life is a bit stressful right now. Anyway I'm one of those cliche shy till you get to know me types. Apparently I'm funny but I think My husband and bff just tell me that to make me feel good haha. I really don't know much to say about my self. I'm just a pretty chill normal wife that can't wait to start a family. Until then I'll live and cherish those around me. Word of advice people: Appreciate and love your parents. they don't last forever. Make sure they know you love them. I follow back!
i wish there was more talk on tumblr about hypersexuality as a response to trauma, tbh. i see a lot of talk about asexuality and sex-repulsion due to trauma, but i rarely see people talk about the opposite. idk, its a difficult subject i suppose
Hypersexuality as a result of trauma can happen because you start believing you’re not good for anything else but sex. Because you believe you can’t expect love without it. Because you believe sex is the only way anyone could possibly connect to others. Because sex is the only kind of intimacy you’re “any good at”. Because you don’t know how else to get attention. Because it’s easier to get sex than love. Because cuddling after sex is the only way you know how to get nonsexual physical touch. Because you’re high/drunk all the time. Because you have no libido/desire/attraction anymore and keep hoping that having sex will kickstart it. Because you’re good at sex and it’s the only way to get recognition and respect. Because you were told that you’re “bad at sex” and you feel ashamed and are trying to “get better at it.” Because you have flashbacks if you abstain from sex. Because you feel wordlessly desperate/scared/anxious if you don’t have sex for a certain period of time. Because you associate sex with danger and you don’t believe you’re allowed to be safe. Because you feel so bad so much of the time that sex/orgasm is the only way to calm down or feel good anymore. Because you’ve been re-targeted by other abusers/perpetrators who can tell you don’t know how to say no. Because you’re still with your abuser/rapist/perpetrator and the only way to prevent “worse” violence is to initiate sex. Because sex is physically or emotionally painful for you and you’re using sex to self-harm.
Hypersexuality after trauma is way more common than anyone wants to believe, and it can happen for so, so many different reasons. These are just a few.
This makes sense to me. My husband left and I want him back. Sometimes he's super cold towards me and I feel like the only way to get love and affection from him is through sex. Its heart breaking. I just want him to love me again. 💔
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