I want to be perfect

CW 206 SW 246 GW 200 GW 180 GW 160 GW 150 UGW 118 5'8 18+

[laurnafreddy]

How do I get my foot to heal fast so I can do the stair master daily. I feel so fat

[laurnafreddy]

Had a shitty few days. Hurt my foot. Hopefully it's better soon so I can get back to the stair master. My goal is to get up to an hour on the stair master daily. I'm also going to do ab, chest, and back workouts daily. A high fiber diet is helping as long as I stick to it. I eat once maybe twice a day. I just need to move more

[laurnafreddy]

I hate limerence. I just want to stop thinking of him. If I'm not thinking about losing weight it's thoughts of him

[laurnafreddy]

Started eating black beans in the morning with a carb right tortilla. Over 130% of my daily fiber so I often won't eat much for dinner. Have also started including the stair climber but I got my period so I waiting to go back to the gym. If I just do breakfast and the stair climber I'd bet 0 daily.

[laurnafreddy]

I already lost 4 pounds but my roommate is making me eat. They are visibly concerned. So I am eating for them I guess. I still don't feel like eating a lot though. I just don't want them stressed out.

[laurnafreddy]

My mom picked her abuser over me. On the bright side I'll probably lose that 20 pounds. I'm not eating again. I'd rather die. It takes about 60 days. If I change my mind I'll eat but I was living for her...so now I'm confused why I'm even here.

[laurnafreddy]

Do you think the calories on a can of peaches includes the juice/syrup in the can? Am I eating 350 calories or less cause I don't drink the juice?

[laurnafreddy]

Skipping dinner tonight. My anxiety is bad. I want to cry.

[laurnafreddy]

Going to challenge myself in April to lose 20 pounds. I'm working up a plan for it but so far it's going to be going to the gym 3 days a week and hiking two days of the week. 900 calories a day. I'm thinking of doing it in two meals a day cause breakfast is easily burned off throughout the day.

[laurnafreddy]

I had to be on a steroid and gained 10 pounds but I've lost it (mostly water weight). I'm also back on my 🐂 💩 so today I had a protein shake, a fried pickle, some fried chicken and a biscuit which should have me around 650. Trying to lose 30 pounds by May 10th. I need to work out more though.

[laurnafreddy]

I need to weigh myself but I also don't think I lost anything cause I've had a birthday every week since December and my calories are out of whack. I need to start going to the gym or something after work but I'm too tired. I'm always tired. Always cleaning. Always working. Always hungry. Today my friend might be getting us lunch at work. I just want to starve

[florial]

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[laurnafreddy]

I had to go to a birthday dinner but I didn't eat much yesterday. Still over 1000 though. Did some exercise. Trying to at least do body weight exercises to build lean muscle. I got into a smaller pair of pants today. Now I just need them to be lose on me.

Today I'm going to do more exercises. Squats, push up, sit ups. It's Valentine's Day so I have a date and will again be eating a high calorie meal. I'm going to try and keep the rest of the day low though.

[laurnafreddy]

Took a mental health day from work but being at home makes me want to bing. Haven't eaten yet but it's only 8am so I'm not starting off strong.....

[laurnafreddy]

My moods in the trash lately. It's not even hormonal. I want to cray all the time. I will be fine one second and then crash the next. I've tried eating and that doesn't help so I know it's not food. I am trying.... every day to just feel okay and I can't. I don't know what is wrong. Nothing has happened. I am supposed to be doing better and I have no one. I'm so tired of feeling this way.

[laurnafreddy]

Someone at work said something about me looking like I lost weight. It's the first time they noticed and it's only cause I lifted my hoodie to adjust my pants. It does make me want to weigh myself which I'm still avoiding. While I know I've lost weight I made up something about how I don't weigh myself and I'm just trying to eat healthier. More people are noticing and I feel like at some point I can't play dumb anymore.

Had a pot luck at work. Made a small plate with mostly lettuce but still guessing around 600. Having asparagus for dinner. 500? I forgot to weigh it out but it is a lot.

My other coworker was talking about how they lost 80 pounds. He big mistake was giving me numbers. I'm motivated now. Not only to out lose but also just to get smaller. These little bosts have always been good for a sudden drop in weight. I hate being like this. I feel like a bitch when I can't just be happy for someone. I'm probably just a bitch...