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i’m tired || they/him/her || non-binary and vaguely unlabeled everywhere else || yt (if i’m an idiot lmk in asks) || carpe diem <3

[lav3ndaze]

sup m8s

name: lav :)

pronouns: they/him/her

language: english

wtf do i post: random shit. i am not organized. this blog is just whatever im currently hyperfixating on lmao

i think DNI lists are DUMB so we aren’t doing that. you can interact with me if you want lmao this is the internet and i’m not ur parent. just don’t get shocked if i block you bc, once again, this is the internet

sometimes i post spoilers for things. sometimes i tag them. view at your discretion i suppose

this post changes (sometimes). OP holds punk/leftist ideals, so don’t get jumpscared by political shit. asks are on, so feel free to ask stuff! also i do not censor myself so like don’t be shocked if random nsft shit pops up

[blog-but-its-only-bloodymary]

One last bloodymary before I self destruct

[manuciruja]

awww the like button turns into a rainbow when you press it! that's so cute...hey staff what's with all the trans women you keep nuking?

[manuciruja]

i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users

[smadsel]

would be remiss not to mention that the rainbow notably straight up just removed the trans flag colors from it. like they’re gone. it’s the progress flag minus the trans flag colors.

[smadsel]

that’s not the whole flag, now is it

[manuciruja]

hey staff what the fuck

[villainessbian]

hey staff don't you think you're being too on-the-nose

[shrodingers-catgirl]

HEY STAFF DONT YOU THINK YOU'RE BEING TOO ON-THE-NOSE

[scarymonsters-andsupercreeps]

I’ve had enough

[kittypeb]

me in the shower: have you seen this? someone put a video of your speech online. my speech? people started sharing it, i guess, and now connor is- your speech is everywhere. this morning, the connor project page, it only had FIFTY six people following it. how many does it have now? fou- 16,239! i don’t understand, w-what happened? AHG! you did! there’s a PLACE where we don’t have to feel unKNOOWNNNNN

my mom: what the fuck

[lav3ndaze]

me when i’m in a “haunting the narrative except who i truly was/am only seen once or twice by the audience and the rest of the time i am seen through the eyes of those who claimed to care for me” competition and my opponents are connor murphy, thjazi fang, gabriel goodman, claudia de lioncourt, and lucy gray biard

(i am going to lose)

[kinuko]

[realest-slenderman]

please

[toonnationfemoct]

MARK FLYING INTO RYAN GOSLINGS ARMS

[shewhowillrise]

Creator of Iron Lung knows

[soft-butch-cassidy]

everyone yelling "hide the yaoi" about fictional character shipping as if mark hasn't been put through the youtuber rpf trenches for years. he didn't survive septiplier only to be shocked by bloodymary

[ell-does-stuff]

shadow quiz is about to go crazy

[dasiesanddarkness]

the way Superboy and The Invisible Girl is Natalie literally begging her parents to see her pain and give her the support and love she needs but both of them dismiss it because in their eyes Diana is doing worse and requires more support

and in I’m Alive when Dan says “it isnt always about your comfort, it’s about helping your mother” and Natalie says “as always” because it has never been about her comfort, it has always been about helping Diana and she has always been left to figure it out on her own

and then in Song of Forgetting when Natalie hugs Dan, initiating contact with someone other than Henry for the first (and i think only) time in the show because she’s in so much pain because her mother forgot who she was and he hugs her back until Diana starts to remember when they met and then he pulls away and once again doesn’t offer her the support she needs because he’s too focused on Diana

and how throughout the show Natalie still acts as her mother’s protector (“that’s bullshit, she trusts you!” right before Didn’t I See This Movie, yelling at her dad when he breaks the music box, and driving her to the hospital during I’m Alive reprise) because she still cares about her so much and wishes she would get better so she can have a good relationship with her

and at the end right after I Am The One reprise when she walks in and Dan starts sobbing and she becomes the one that takes care of him by reassuring him and turning on the lights because she knows that he needs it and she’s so used to putting her own pain on hold

the way Natalie struggles the entire fucking show and it’s always second to her parents’ struggles

[starry-eyed-psychopomp]

Gabriel in Next to Normal is not a parasitic demon! He is not deliberately malicious for everyone! He is grief manifest!! He is present in each character’s life, and how he interacts with them is representative of how they handle their grief, but he is not a single sentient character. When he latches onto Dan at the end, that’s not Dan ~becoming like Diana~ because ~a parasite needs a host~ or whatever, because acknowledging Gabe’s presence is something he NEEDED to do! Diana was unable to let go of her grief for years, and it destroyed her relationships and mental health. She had to let go of Gabe. Dan, however, repressed his grief, and let it fester for years. Finally acknowledging his son’s existence is the first step towards healing for Dan, the same way leaving was for Diana

[angstyastro]

These miis getting diagnosed today

[procrastinationaccount]

[akkpipitphattana]

one of the details in next to normal that genuinely makes me insane is the fact that diana isn’t just imagining a perfect son when she imagines gabe. yes, he’s her “superboy,” but in the very first part of the musical, when she’s “waiting up for him,” she imagines him coming home late like any other teenager. she complains and calls him a loser and a brat and a little shit. she’s not imagining a reality that never would have happened where gabe grew up to be the perfect child that never causes her any problems or stress. she imagines him as a real teenager, someone that could have been. diana doesn’t want the perfect son. she wants her son.

[radicalcrashout]

''take your meds'' said the people in the fridge