HERE IS WHY SHIRLULU IS LEGITIMATE SHIP -PART 5
Warning: I'm not a writer and English is not my native language. So kindly bare it or DM me about it. Criticism is welcomed not hate.
LELOUCH BEING BOYFRIEND CODED -
4. Lelouch's fear of losing Shirley -
Lelouch, as a child, was abandoned by his homeland and family after a traumatic event (mom's death), leaving him to take care of himself and his disabled sister.
This is why his fear of losing people or getting abandoned is greater and is one of the reasons why he always on guard and is detached.
He never revealed anything to Shirley , Fearing she might hate him and change her behavior.
Lelouch doesn't want his friends to know about him being the prince of England because he fears that they might abandon him and would distance themselves from him because he belongs to the royal family, and they might also hate him for keeping it a secret all these years
Lelouch's famous bathroom angst
This guy killed his half brother (Clovis) without battling an eyelid, but got very disturbed knowing he was the reason for her father's death.
The reason behind his angst; if she came to know the truth, she would hate him, and if he hid it, he would have to live with burden, and their relationship wouldn't be the same anymore.
PS - In epi 13 outro - he was so disturbed that he considered leaving the stage (as zero) and return to his normal student life.
Lelouch's realization of his feelings for Shirley came after erasing her memory. The sense of loss turned into frustration, and he lashed out at CC.
P.S - In the series, Lelouch has lost his cool and lashed out only when it comes to Shirley or Nunnally. Frankly, when I watched CG for the first time, I didn't expect him to lash out, especially at CC (I thought he would be sad for a while and move on).
Another trauma for Lelouch, even after being so protective of her, he lost her at the end , in a unexpected and tragic way.
Lelouch used his geass over and over in hope and desperation. A lot of his human side is shown when it comes to Shirley.
He couldn't utter a word, let alone his feelings, because he was struggling to come to terms with Shirley dying. He was shocked when she closes her eyes and even shakes her desperately, hoping for signs of life in her. Reality of death sinks into his mind making him scream in agony.
Lelouch had gone rogue after her death. It's like a dam broke, and there is nothing holding back Lelouch.
He originally planned to use the Geass order, but because of Shirley's death, they had to face the brunt of his emotions (sadness and hatred).
He destroyed a phenomenon called Geass because it was reason for Shirley's death and that was the "least" he could do for her.
He wanted to destroy Britannia for his mother's murder and Nunnally's condition, and he destroyed Geass order for Shirley.
He did not destory the Geass order because he felt "grateful" for Shirley's friendship, nor his "guilt" about her death. He destroyed it because he is someone who takes revenge for his loved ones.
I have seen him laugh like a maniac, but this sinister look from Lelouch is rare.
Imo Lelouch is grateful to Rolo for sacrificing himsel to save his life. (despite knowing he hated him), but he never forgave Rolo for killing Shirley; that's why he never mourned over him like he did with other characters.
Clovis and Rolo death had the least impact on him.
He stopped going to Ashford after Shirley's death and became full-time Zero. He doesn't care about his identity being exposed.
It seems like Ashford without Shirley is meaningless to him, and he also didn't want his other friends to die a tragic death (Rolo's psychotic jealousy).
This reckless move on destroying Geass order and revealing himself as Zero made the emperor use Nunnally, as Trump card, and the Black Knights started doubting him after the massacre. All events led to Zero Requiem.
Shirley's death initiated the path of Zero requiem.
Lelouch's original plan was to quietly defeat Britannia and bring peace to the world (without revealing his identity). He wanted to live in a peaceful world with Shirley. (There is a short story about Lelouch's ideal world that he dreamed of).
P.S - This is such a classic one used by a male anime protagonist for his girl ( for ignoring them due to important stuff).
In Code Geass series, both Lelouch and Shirley are dead, and I hope they are reborn again and live in the peaceful world that Lelouch created.
Honestly, I haven't watched the movies, and I don't feel like watching (the clips didn't help), and I really don't understand why they kept Shirley alive (shove her in the corner) and why did they make Shirlulu date if Cclulu was the end game.