Levi - | Trusting & Letting Go |
It's been a while since I last posted some observations, and since I am so hooked up about the latest chapter... Might do some with my RM brainrot.
Warning: This post is Levi-centric and would mostly focus on RivaMika. I know right now I may be delusional, but I won't remove my shipping goggles here. Lololol so fuck off
Choice with No Regrets: Chapter 7
I will start here. Aside from the death of his mother, the deaths of Furlan and Isabel affected him in a way that made him realized a few things.
Levi: "I heard you already! I can do it by myself! Trust me!"
This line is very important because it had shown the past Levi attitude. He usually does things alone, afraid to ask help from others because he wanted to keep his comrades safe, and as I could see it here... He trusts Isabel and Furlan (The night before the three of them went on their first expedition; Furlan and Isabel asking him to trust them) but at the same time hesitant over trusting them (When Levi decided to kill Erwin alone.)
Levi: I'm going to end up letting everyone die. My choice... was the wrong one.
And starting that, he doesn't interfere with the choices his comrades made... living a life with no regrets. It was stated when Eren apologized for the first Levi's squad deaths.
Next important death on Levi's life: Kenny Ackerman.
Levi: "You've had the time and energy before this to inject yourself. Why didn't you?"
Moving on, (this shit is already going in a different direction) I personally believe that Levi knew death so well. But as much as he knew that everyone he loves would die in some shitty point, there is always a silver lining in every word he would say.
Levi: "...There's no way you'd sit around and want to die. Don't you have a better excuse?"
Because as much as he accepts reality, he still would hope for someone important to live. But notice how he let go and accept its fate...
Levi: "Erwin... I'll trust your judgement."
Because going back at the first statement, Levi does not want to interfere with the choices his comrades make.
And I think the decision of letting Erwin go was something hard for him to accept especially that Erwin Smith was not just any other comrade but Erwin was his liege.
Again, Levi is unpredictable.
Levi: "Give up on your dreams and die for us. Lead the recruits (crying children) straight to hell."
Because he just literally told Erwin to die, yet still had a petty argument when Eren and Mikasa asked him to hand over the syringe... And when he realized that Erwin already had enough hell,
Levi: "Can't we just... Let him go?"
Third major important death: Hange Zoe.
Levi: "Devote... Your heart."
I think this is very needless to explain. That letting Hange go the same way he did with Erwin but this time... There was no time to bargain. (Of course, one factor is the fucking Rumbling)
But I think we are getting the gist of the development of him accepting that someday he needs to let everyone important go...
No words. No goodbyes. Just pure pain in his eyes. Yes I know, he knew everyone was already at death's door but I think this is one good example of him still preventing death:
Levi (at Chapter 136): "If we don't get out of here, we all die like dogs!"
It was not easy for him to leave Connie and Jean behind but Levi tends to set his emotions apart, thinking for the practical desicion for their chaotic situation.
And what made my RM brainrot go shit and delusional is because of this:
That Levi knowing that only him and Mikasa are the only ones left to end that nightmare.
Levi: "Mikasa?! Stay with me here!"
Although in the raw manga it was supposed to be: ćć£ćććć (Shikkari Shiro) - something like 'pull yourself together' but not 'get your shit together' and somehow it made me think that before Kodansha could publish the Eng version, it must be checked by Yams-san (Right?)
Because adding the small detail of "Stay with me here!" is such a great impact in this development. Why?
Because damn, it's so obvious. Out of the important deaths I mentioned in this post, not once did he
Desperately asked someone to stay with him.
Not once did he asked someone for help the way he did with Mikasa. Not once did he interfere with their choices but right now it appeared that he was trying to tell Mikasa what to do. And I think that that fun-loving-chaotic-panel was the very first time Yams drew Levi almost out of his calm demeanor while asking Mikasa to go for the kill.
And does the panel below looks familiar?
Levi: "I see. All right. Understood."
Know that Levi does not take orders from anyone that easily. The only one he took orders from was with Erwin (his sworn liege) and I think we all knew Levi's rough attitude towards everyone even the higher ups.
"Is it hope or despair his strength comes from?"
The glimmer in his eyes won't mean nothing.
And from being that limping-exhausted Levi to a muscled-hot aiming thunderspear Levi...
So what made my RM brainrot delusional to make this post?
Because of this. Because his strength comes from hope and not from despair. Because of Mikasa, the only one left.
Levi: "Understood... Mikasa."
Taking orders from his wife easily lololol
So yeah... That's it. If you have read it this far, then a big thanks! I honestly know I am so bad at explaining, I can't word it out properly but I hope you get the gist. Lololol, my brain is infected with RivaMika shits. (X And I am betting we will get that RivaMika Endgame!
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