I had few girl crushes before when I still hasnt accepted who I am entirely. But im sure it was also pure and true, my crushes on girls that is. Probably my instinct as male was still kicking in before. I never had enough courage to ask them, I just show them that I am interested and what not. Fast forward to today, 22/08/2020, I found out that my crush after college, the girl who I worked with before is getting married. I saw her story, her pre-nuptial photo shoot and it hit me. A surge of saddness came crashing down on me. I felt powerless and hopeless for sometime. Luckily im at work and im obliged to work so I cant mope around and lie in bed crying. I never once entertained the thought of what its like to feel when the person you loved is getting married. I knew I would be sad when Arman, my crush since gradeschool, would get married, but I never imagined I would feel sad if its one of my girl crush. I can totally say she was the one that got away. She accepted me and kinda showed that she liked me or at least she made me feel that way. I could remember the times when we were working together in busy shifts but able to still smile and listen to music and help each other out. Me or her would visit one another if we work on different stations. I took her once to a resort had an awesome ?date, not sure what to call. Everything I can remember of her is that she had been very supportive on whatever endeavor I partake, she always makes me smile and now I sad