Len

she/they; bisexual; INTP; Leo; 22

[stargazedwinchester]

♡⸝⸝ 𝒔𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏 2 𝒘𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒔,

summary,, you've always struggled with the idea of someone truly loving you because of your weight. you've always struggled with the idea of sam truly loving you because of your weight. word count,, 1,099 pairing,, sam winchester x thicker than a snicker!reader tags/genre,, body insecurity, unrequieted love, longing for something, fluff, a little angst, refusa lnow playing,, season 2 weight loss - harry styles ↻ ◁ II ▷ ↺ 1:35 ───ㅇ───── 3:47 find the masterlist here!

You hear it every time Sam talks about someone he used to date.

Stanford girls with tiny waists and glossy hair. Women at bars who smile at him like they already know he’ll smile back. Even the random hookups Dean teases him about always sound the same in your head: pretty. Slim. Effortless.

Nothing like you.

That thought settles ugly beneath your ribs. It sticks there.

Especially tonight.

The motel bathroom mirror is cruel under fluorescent lighting. Your sweater clings too much around your stomach, your jeans digging into your hips when you sit. You tug at the hem for the hundredth time before finally giving up and walking back into the room.

Sam’s sitting cross-legged on the bed with his laptop balanced on one knee while you pretend to read through lore notes.

Pretend being the key word.

You’ve reread the same paragraph four times.

Sam laughs suddenly under his breath at something on his screen.

“What?” you ask.

He turns the laptop toward you a little. “Dean made a dating profile for me.”

You snort despite yourself. “No he didn’t.”

“He absolutely did.”

The profile picture is awful. Half blurry, taken while Sam was eating fries somewhere. You laugh harder this time.

“Oh my God.”

“I know.”

Sam’s grinning now, eyes crinkling at the corners, and your stomach does that stupid thing it always does around him.

Then you spot the messages. A lot of messages.

Mostly women.

Pretty women.

You try not to visibly deflate. “Looks like it’s working,” you joke weakly.

Sam groans. “Unfortunately.”

“You could answer one.”

“Nah.”

“Why not?”

He shrugs. “Don’t really care.”

Like attention has never been something he’s had to think about. Dean bursts out of the bathroom before the silence can settle, towel around his neck. “Dude, tell her about the redhead.”

Sam immediately looks horrified. “Dean.”

“What redhead?” you ask before you can stop yourself.

Dean drops onto the other bed. “Girl at the bar last week. Couldn’t stop staring at him.”

Sam rubs a hand over his face. “Can we not?”

“She was hot too,” Dean continues, ignoring him entirely. “Totally your type.”

You hate how quickly your brain catches on that phrase.

Your type.

An ache tightens painfully in your chest.

Because of course Sam has a type. Everybody does. And you know, logically, that not every woman Sam has ever glanced at looks identical, but insecurity doesn’t care much about logic.

It just collects evidence. Real or imagined.

You mumble something about needing air and step outside before either of them can say anything.

The night air is cold enough to sting.

You lean against the motel railing and stare out at the empty parking lot, arms folded tightly across yourself. It’s stupid to feel this bad over nothing. Sam’s your friend. He hasn’t done anything wrong.

That almost makes it worse.

Because he’s kind to you. Always kind. And that leaves room for hope to grow in all the wrong places.

The motel door creaks open behind you a few minutes later, and you don’t need to turn around to know it’s Sam.

“You disappeared.”

“I’m fine.”

“Uh-huh.”

His footsteps stop beside you. For a while, neither of you says anything. Cars hiss past somewhere far off on the highway.

Then Sam says quietly, “Did Dean say something?”

“No.”

“You sure?”

You shrug.

Sam leans against the railing beside you, watching your face carefully in that way he always does. Like he’s trying to solve you without pushing too hard.

“You got quiet after the dating profile thing.”

God. Of course he noticed. “It’s nothing, Sam.”

“That usually means it’s definitely something.”

You laugh softly at that, but it comes out thin. Sam’s expression shifts immediately.

And suddenly you’re tired. Tired of carrying it around alone. Tired of feeling ridiculous every time your feelings get hurt over things Sam doesn’t even realise are hurting you.

So before you can stop yourself, you say, “I don’t think you’d ever look at me like that.”

Sam frowns. “Like what?”

“Like…” You gesture vaguely, embarrassed already. “Like girls you actually find attractive.”

The confusion on his face is immediate.

“What are you talking about?”

You stare out at the parking lot instead of him. “Nothing. Forget it.”

“No, seriously.”

His voice is gentler now.

Your throat tightens.

“It’s just hard sometimes, okay?” you admit quietly. “Watching girls flirt with you and knowing they’re all…” You shrug helplessly. “Different from me.”

Sam goes very still beside you. For one horrible, long second, you think maybe you’ve said too much.

“You think I’m not attracted to you?”

You let out a short, awkward laugh. “Sam.”

“No, answer me.”

You finally look at him then.

Big mistake. Because he’s staring at you like the answer genuinely matters.

“I don’t know,” you say honestly. “I guess I just feel like if someone looked like me and someone looked like…” You wave vaguely toward the motel room. “Every woman that ever hits on you, it’s kind of obvious who you’d pick.”

Sam blinks once. Then again.

And suddenly he looks almost frustrated.

“You really believe that?”

You immediately regret opening your mouth at all. “Can we just forget I said anything?”

“No, because apparently you’ve been sitting with this by yourself.”

His voice isn’t harsh, but stunned.

You look away again, heat crawling up your neck.

Sam exhales quietly beside you.

He begins softly, “Hey.”

His hand brushes your sleeve just enough to get your attention. “When I look at you,” he says slowly, “I’m not comparing you to anybody else.”

Your chest aches.

“I don’t do that.”

You swallow hard. “You don’t have to spare my feelings.”

“I’m not.”

There’s something so earnest in his face it almost hurts to look at him.

Sam shakes his head a little, like he can’t believe this conversation is happening. “You know what I see when I look at you?” he asks quietly. “I see somebody I can’t stop thinking about.”

Your breath catches.

“I see someone beautiful.”

His expression softens instantly. “C’mere.”

Before you can overthink it, Sam pulls you gently into him. Maybe it’s pathetic how quickly you melt a little at the feeling of his arms around you, but Sam just holds you there against his chest like it’s the easiest thing in the world.

“No more deciding what I feel for me, okay?” he murmurs into your hair.

You let out a shaky laugh. “I’ll try.”

“Good.”

A beat passes.

He goes shy. After what feels like a minute has passed, he adds, “For the record, you’re exactly my type.”

✧ 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.ᐟ // ✧𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 // ✧𝒓𝒆𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒃𝒐𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.ᐟ

[wendichester]

sam ℘ dean winchester x the zodiac signs

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♈︎ 𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you’re a pain in my ass, you know that? but you’re my pain in the ass.” ๋࣭ ⭑ he calls you half-laughing, half-annoyed, because somehow even drunk he’s still arguing with you in his head. he tells you you’re reckless, impossible, too damn loud—and then gets weirdly quiet before admitting he trusts you more than he trusts most people. cute. embarrassing. very him. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you make me feel brave when i’m tired of being brave.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam’s voice is softer than usual, a little rough around the edges. he tells you he doesn’t understand how you keep moving forward with so much fire in you, but he envies it. then he gets awkward and tries to backtrack, which only makes it worse. poor giant.

♉︎ 𝖙𝖆𝖚𝖗𝖚𝖘

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you make things feel… solid. i don’t get a lot of that.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean tries to play it casual, but the alcohol betrays him immediately. he tells you he likes that you don’t rush him, don’t push him, don’t make him explain every ugly little thing. then he mutters something about missing your cooking and pretends that was the whole point of the call. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “i think you’re the closest thing to peace i’ve ever had.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam says it way too honestly, then goes silent because he knows exactly how vulnerable it sounds. you can practically hear him staring at the wall, regretting his entire existence. but he doesn’t take it back.

♊︎ 𝖌𝖊𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖎

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “i never know what the hell you’re gonna say next. i hate that. i love that.” ๋࣭ ⭑ he calls because something reminded him of you, and now he’s rambling. badly. one second he’s teasing you, the next he’s admitting you make his life less boring, and then he accuses you of “witchcraft or something” because no normal person should be that addictive to talk to. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you get my brain going. sometimes i wish you’d let it rest.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam starts off trying to have a completely normal conversation and fails within thirty seconds. he tells you he likes how fast you think, how you make him reconsider things, how you annoy him in ways that feel suspiciously important. then he says your name too softly and ruins his own composure.

♋︎ 𝖈𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖊𝖗

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you care too much. don’t stop.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean is drunk enough to say the thing sober dean would rather get punched than admit. he tells you he notices what you do for people. for him. how you check on him without making him feel cornered. then he gets all gruff and says, “anyway. don’t make it weird.” too late, babe. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “i feel safe with you, and that scares me more than it should.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam sounds tired when he says it. not sad exactly, just honest in that heavy, late-night way. he tells you he doesn’t have to perform around you. doesn’t have to be useful, smart, strong, okay. with you, he can just be a person. devastating. illegal. jail for him.

♌︎ 𝖑𝖊𝖔

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you walk into a room and it pisses me off how much i notice.” ๋࣭ ⭑ he absolutely calls you to flirt and accidentally catches feelings in real time. he says you’re dramatic, stubborn, too pretty for your own good, and then gets quieter before admitting you make him want to be seen. not just looked at. seen. then he panics and makes a bad joke. naturally. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you make confidence look easy. i don’t think it is, though.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam sees through the performance, even drunk. he tells you he admires your warmth, your nerve, the way you keep shining even when life gets ugly. then he admits he worries people take more from you than they give back. rude of him to be that emotionally accurate at 2 a.m.

♍︎ 𝖛𝖎𝖗𝖌𝖔

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you’re always right. it’s disgusting. i miss it.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean calls to complain, but the complaint is love-shaped. he tells you the motel room is weird without your little comments, your lists, your “did you clean that wound properly?” voice. then he admits you make him feel taken care of without making him feel weak. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you notice the things i hope nobody notices.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam is painfully honest with you. he tells you your attention makes him nervous because you see too much, but it also makes him feel less alone. you catch what he hides. you call him out gently. and drunk sam? drunk sam is very close to saying he needs you.

♎︎ 𝖑𝖎𝖇𝖗𝖆

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you make everything feel less ugly. don’t know how you do that.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean tries to sound casual, but there’s this softness under it that gives him away. he tells you he likes your voice, your calm, the way you can walk into a mess and make people breathe again. then he says you’re “too damn charming,” as if he is personally offended by wanting you. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you make me want to believe things can turn out okay.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam calls with that low, thoughtful drunk voice and accidentally becomes a romance novel with trauma. he tells you your gentleness doesn’t feel fake to him. that’s the part that gets him. you’re soft, but not shallow. kind, but not stupid. he notices. oh, he notices.

♏︎ 𝖘𝖈𝖔𝖗𝖕𝖎𝖔

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you scare me a little. not because i don’t trust you. because i do.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean’s drunk enough to admit you get under his skin. you know when he’s lying, when he’s deflecting, when he’s about to do something stupid and heroic and deeply annoying. he tells you he hates how much you see, but his voice says he’d be lost if you stopped looking. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you understand the parts of me i don’t like talking about.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam doesn’t waste time with small talk. not tonight. he tells you there’s something about you that makes the dark feel less shameful. you don’t flinch. you don’t make him pretty. you just stay. and that, apparently, is enough to ruin him a little.

♐︎ 𝖘𝖆𝖌𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖚𝖘

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you make me feel young. which is annoying, because i’m very rugged and mysterious.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean is definitely smiling during this call. you can hear it. he tells you you’re trouble, but the good kind—the kind that makes him forget the world is ending for five minutes. then he says he wishes you were there, immediately makes a joke, and pretends he didn’t mean it. coward behavior. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you make running away sound less like fear and more like freedom.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam gets philosophical. tragic but hot. he tells you he loves how you keep looking toward the horizon, how you refuse to rot in one place just because life hurt you there. he says you make him wonder who he’d be if he stopped punishing himself. silence. emotional damage.

♑︎ 𝖈𝖆𝖕𝖗𝖎𝖈𝖔𝖗𝖓

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you act tough. i know what that costs.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean doesn’t tease much on this call. weird, right? he tells you he knows you’re tired, even when you hide it. he knows what it’s like to be the one everybody relies on. then he quietly says you don’t always have to be fine with him. and then probably clears his throat like he didn’t just gut you. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “i trust you because you don’t promise things lightly.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam respects your restraint more than he says. drunk, though? it slips out. he tells you your loyalty means something because it’s chosen, not loud. you don’t throw words around. you show up. and for sam, that’s basically a love language with a filing system.

♒︎ 𝖆𝖖𝖚𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖚𝖘

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “i don’t get you. drives me insane.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean calls because he’s thinking about you and is mad about it. you confuse him. you don’t react the way he expects, don’t need him the way he knows how to handle, don’t fit into the boxes he keeps trying to shove people into. he tells you you’re weird. it sounds painfully fond. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you make me feel less strange.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam’s confession is quieter, almost careful. he tells you he likes the way your mind works, even when he can’t follow every turn. you make space for complicated things without trying to fix them immediately. with you, his weirdness doesn’t feel so lonely.

♓︎ 𝖕𝖎𝖘𝖈𝖊𝖘

𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐧 ⭑ “you look at me like i’m not ruined. don’t know what to do with that.” ๋࣭ ⭑ dean should not have called. we all know it. he tells you your softness gets to him because it doesn’t ask permission. you care, and it makes him defensive, and then guilty for being defensive. he says you’re too good at making him feel human. then he goes quiet for way too long. 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐚𝐦 ⭑ “you make sadness feel less embarrassing.” ๋࣭ ⭑ sam’s drunk-dial to you is tender in a way that almost hurts. he tells you you never make him feel stupid for feeling too much. you don’t rush him out of grief. you sit beside it with him. and when he whispers that he misses you, it sounds bigger than he meant it to.

[angelsdean]

Mary is 28. The year is 2016. Her whole life has been stolen from her. Some cosmic being plucked her from Heaven, took her away from her home, her husband, her babies, and placed her in this strange new world.

Her babies are gone, replaced with strangers a foot taller than her and nearly a decade older. They call her mom in gruff voices. They are hunters, something she never wanted for them. She has to hold back tears just looking at them. She sees glimmers of herself in Dean. His hair has darkened since he was a little boy, but she sees herself in other parts. The shape of his face, his cheekbones, his smile. She sees herself in Sam too, though he feels stranger. She can't quite match her pudgy little baby to this man.

At night, she moves through the bunker like a ghost. Nothing feels quite real. She takes scissors to her hair, thinks a drastic change will make this all feel more real. Throws herself into hunting. The adrenaline helps. Her racing heart reminding her she's alive, alive, alive. This isn't a dream.

This isn't a dream.

She sobs into her pillow, as the reality of it hits once more. She will never see her babies again.

These strange men look at her like she's a wonder. She understands what they lost. Understands they never had a mother. She imagines she'd look at her babies the same way, if she could see them again.

But she doesn't know how interact with this Sam and this Dean. All she knows is rocking babies to sleep to the tune of "Hey, Jude" and cutting the crusts off PB&J's and warming up store-bought pies for her sweet little toddler. She feels like she's failing at something she never really felt she succeeded at in the first place. So she focuses on the one thing she was ever good at: hunting.

When the British Men of Letters approach her, she goes in with good intentions. She's doing this for her boys. It's the one thing she can do right, she thinks.

Except things go wrong. They always go wrong.

"Cas almost died," Dean says, a hard edge to his voice and his eyes swimming with emotion.

She feels terrible, tries to explain. "I'm doing this for you. I'm playing three decades of catch up here." She wants to say, I'm trying to fix things. If I can rid the world of monsters, if I can make it safe then you won't have to fight anymore. You can have normal lives. You can be free. But she doesn't know how to talk to them.

Mary watches Dean's expression cloud with his own grief. "And we're not? How do you think this has been for us? We're your sons, and you've been gone. Our whole lives, you've been gone," he says. And she understands. She's been gone. And her babies are gone. And it's all so unfair.

"You said that you needed time. No, you said you need space," Dean continues, and she can feel herself losing him. Them. Sam won't even look at her. "So we gave you your space. But you didn't need just space. No, you needed space from us."

He's not wrong. She told them when she left, how hard it was to be around them.

"That's not true," she lies. "Dean, I'm trying –"

"How 'bout for once, you just try to be a mom?" Dean cuts in, hurt, angry.

And it hits her harder than she expected. Because she wishes, wishes she could be a mom again. To her babies. But that's never going to happen. And if she's stuck here, then she needs to figure out some other way to be.

"I am your mother," she says, sternly, "but I am not 'just a mom.' And you are not a child." It's not fair. Part of her knows that's not what Dean was asking. Not how he meant it. She's the one wishing he were a child. Wishing she could be "just" a mom. But she can't be a mother to them. Not this Dean. Not this Sam.

Dean looks her in the eyes, his expression vacant, haunted, and says, "I never was." His lip trembles for just a moment before he regains his composure.

She was a hunter's kid once. She knows what it's like. There's little room for childhood innocence. But she also doesn't know. She had a stable home. She had two parents. She had no siblings to look after.

"So between us and them –" Dean continues, the question hanging in the chasm that has opened up between them.

"It's not like that." Can't you see I'm choosing you. This is the only way I know how to keep you safe.

"Yeah, Mary, it is." She hates how it doesn't exactly break her heart, hearing her name come from his mouth instead of "mom." It feels more normal. Because these are not her children. "You made your choice. So there's the door."

Dean walks out of the room without a second look. Sam rises from the table, averting his eyes. She understands this too. Struggling to look. To see.

But this isn't how she wanted things to go. She didn't mean to upset them. And she doesn't want to lose them completely. She just--needs more time. "Sam," she tries. Maybe it would be easier to get through to him. He never really knew her, has no memories of her.

But he tells her to go too.

And maybe part of her is glad for the easy out. This will give her more time. She just needs to focus on hunting. Save the world. Put her babies to rest. Then she can come back and they can...be a family. However that might look for them.

[fallenangelblade]

mary winchester’s s12 arc is like: i didn’t come back wrong. you just reduced me to a perfect idol, a name on a headstone, a sepia-toned childhood memory, and got upset when you realized that i might be more complex than that. i existed to you as a smiling face in a faded photograph, and when i became real, you could not fathom my personhood. i came back exactly right, and your expectations were too high.

[my-flying-sister]

Supernatural is obsessed with humbling its female characters. Every woman who is presented as confident and not taking salmon deans bullshit needed to be taught a lesson:

Jo, Claire, Bela, Mary, all of these women were taught that going against salmon deans wishes and not listening to them will hurt them. Jo wanted her agency in hunting, got trapped by a ghost and needed to be rescued, Claire rejected to be told what to do, got turned into a werewolf and needed Sam and Dean to heal her. Bela was denied redemption, died alone and in tears being told that they may have helped her if only she asked for it instead of working independently. Mary wanted her independence as the great hunter that she was, got brainwashed and used. The message is you can’t do this your way, you need to listen to the boys.

Characters like Jody, Donna, Ellen, and Charlie are allowed to escape this because, while they are strong, they were not particularly at odds with Sam or Dean. You can be a powerful woman in the show as long as you don’t sass the Winchesters.

[aisalynn]

Do you think Crowley finds the Hawaiian shirt is more degrading and insulting than the collar?

[sammygender]

that episode was so sick and twisted (in both the best and the worst way, in true supernatural fashion <3) sam asking lucifer who he thinks is cas to touch his soul so they can save dean… & there’s literally zero need for lucifer to except to torture sam again. and he isnt even going to do it until sam tells cas ‘i trust you’. then suddenly he can’t resist. has got to delight in the sick joke of it all, has got to remind sam he’s never safe, and hammer in the fact that sam ‘asked for it’. ‘maybe it’s cause you’re like the girl who kept turning me down at the prom’ ‘just because you asked so nicely’ ‘he wouldn’t take no for an answer’. evil. and then the episode ends with sam and dean talking about how dean doesn’t feel okay after what he witnessed. um. okay. that is not the person to focus on here

[pollsnatural]

You know actually Jack killing Mary would have worked if her death wasn't permanent. Mary's death is the main symbol of Chuck's cruel narrative. Her death started the entire story, the endless torture of Dean and Sam. Her resurrection was a symbol of Amara breaking Chuck's narrative, of Amara taking him away from his characters for a while and allowing them to be more than just instruments for the plot. It's only logical that Chuck returns to the story only after Mary's death. He starts to weave his narrative again, putting everything as "it was supposed to be", fixing what Amara broke. He can't have the story he wants to tell with Mary alive, that's why they never cross paths with each other. When Chuck is here, Mary can't be an alive real woman, she can only be a motivation for his male characters. That's why Chuck losing his powers and getting kicked out of his story should have led to Mary's resurrection. Without Mary, alive and real, Dean and Sam can never be truly free from Chuck.

[perverted-asexual]

Usually Dean getting more focus and reactions to the events of the later seasons annoys the hell out of me, but there is one exception. When they realise their whole lives were controlled and shaped by Chuck.

I am Not a fan of this arc at all, by any means, however I do like the difference in the brothers reactions. Because Dean is pissed, and he's close to giving up and he is rightfully distraught at learning that his life has been manipulated, that theres a chance no choice he made was really his.

And Sam just... isn't. I mean, yeah, he's not happy about it, but his response is a lot more subdued, he's a lot more accepting that okay it sucks but what now?

And thats so fitting to me because Sam already knew he had no control over his life. From being trapped in the family business by his dad as a kid, to his whole life being shaped and surrounded by Azazels demons. His destiny, his purpose as Lucifers vessel. Ruby.

Cause whilst obviously Dean had this destiny too, and was manipulated a lot in the lead up, they didn't touch his childhood, they didn't tear him down to build him into what they need like they did with Sam. Him going to hell and breaking the first Seal, wasn't even the original plan! When he refused to be Michael's vessel they just replaced him.

And then, even after Lucifers ordeal, Sam's life still never became HIS. He lost his soul, some version of him doing things he would never do, before getting his soul forcibly shoved back into him. Castiel and Samuel used him. Then he tried to go back to a normal life and Dean punished him for it, hated him for it, took charge on it.

If it wasn't a demon, or an angel, it was his own brother. Sam has never fully had autonomy or choice over his own life. Dean tricked him into getting possessed AGAIN. So then Gadreel had the wheel.

Sam spends his whole life getting pushed from situation to situation. Surviving crisis to crisis as people use him.

So learning that God had been fucking him over too? Thats just another thing.

[hopelessbrain]

★ @lelapine 's 𝑴𝑶𝑶𝑫𝑩𝑶𝑨𝑹𝑫 (+mini fic)

It’s not very often hunters can get a break to sit back and relax, much less hang around with friends in cozy coffee shops and gossip while sipping on overpriced drinks– but hey, everyone deserves some rest once in a while.

The place is some small, family-owned shop that Jo insisted was the perfect place to spend the evening. There’s little trinkets and plants littering every wall, the sun making the whole place light up in this soft pinkish hue that almost made it look magical.

Sam’s already sitting at one of the tables when the both of you walk in, his long legs folded awkwardly to try and take as little space as possible. He’s too busy nose-deep in his laptop to even hear the little bell from the door signal y’all’s arrival, probably reading some wildly inappropriate article for this setting.

“Samuel” The blonde calls out in a huff, hand plopping Sam’s laptop shut as you take a seat– Sam most definitely flinched at the sudden interruption (not that he’d ever admit that…)

“Hello to you too” He replies, trying his best to act annoyed while rolling his eyes– though can clearly spot the indents of his dimples upon seeing you finally here. “Took you long enough” He adds with what tries to be huffy petulance but ends up being more of an amused scoff.

“Yeah, well some of us actually get ready instead of layering flannel on flannel– choosing an outfit, brushing your hair… Y’know any of those things?” Jo retorts in a teasing hum, never missing the chance to mess with Sammy’s clothing choices.

Sam shoots her an unamsed look while forcing a tight lipped smile. “Ha ha” He replies, rolling his eyes for what must’ve been the gazillionth time since y’all arrived. “On Dean it’s charming but when I do it–”

“Shut up, Sam” The blonde cuts him off with an embarrassed swat to his arm, only fueling Sam’s smugness at getting her flustered (he was grinning like an annoying little brother after telling on his sister to their mom) “Ow– ow” Sam protests, feigning hurt at her hits despite it being almost impossible for Jo to actually hurt this 6’4’’ wall of a man. “M’ just saying!” He adds between soft chuckles as if that made it any better.

“You’re an idiot” She retorts– though it lacked any real heat.

Sam hums amused, opening his laptop back up without a care in the world. “But I am a brilliant idiot” He adds, spinning around his screen so you can both see what he pulled up. “Found us a case while we’re in town”

“Boo, buzzkill” You protest sarcastically, already scrolling down the news article he had prepared. “Oh never mind, it’s demon related– good job, Sammy”

“Really, it’s that easy to get you on board?” Jo asks, glancing at you with an amused chuckle.

“What can I say, I like what I like” You hum, shrugging before turning your attention back to Sam’s laptop, already thinking about the case– so long to cozy evening.

[reginaphalangelobster]

The Supernatural Character's Favourite Ice Cream Flavors

26 Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel, Bobby Singer, Crowley MacLeod, Charlie Bradbury, Claire Novak, Lucifer, Gabriel, Chuck, Rowena MacLeod, Arthur Ketch, Balthazar, Kevin Tran, Jody Mills, Donna Hanscum, Jo Harvelle, Ellen Harvell, Ash, Cain, Gadreel, Metatron, Rufus Turner, Pamela Barnes, Benny Lafitte & Garth Fitzgerald IV

Summary: Headcanons for 26 Supernatural character's favourite ice cream flavors.

Warnings: swearing, light ship references, comedy, fluff, sweetness

Word Count: 1.6k

A/n: I spent far too much time on something this silly but I loved this so much. I covered a fair few characters but feel free to send in an ask if you'd like anyone else! Please just keep in mind that I'm only halfway through season 12 so I won't write for characters that haven't appeared yet. If you have an idea for similar headcanons to these, please let me know! I really enjoyed these and I hope you will too!

Dean Winchester

⊹✿🍨 Insane chocolate brownie triple chip anything

⊹✿🍨 He hides it in the back of the freezer behind the peas

⊹✿🍨 Charlie finds it and takes it but only has a little and puts it back perfectly, driving Dean insane because he keeps thinking that he ate more than he remembered eating

⊹✿🍨 He puts ALL of the toppings imaginable on there, except nuts. Health does not belong here

⊹✿🍨 Seriously, chocolate sauce, fudge, caramel sauce, chocolate chips, it's diabetes city and Dean's always first on the bus

⊹✿🍨 When he finds out about bacon ice cream it blows his mind and he sits in shock for a moment

Sam Winchester

⊹✿🍨 Some vegan crap fest, that's the nicest way I can put it

⊹✿🍨 He buys those low cal dairy free keto nightmares and Dean goes off at him for ever calling that ice cream

⊹✿🍨 Once when Kevin was having a shitty day, he took out what he thought was caramel ice cream but the second he had a spoonful he felt sick. He went off his nut at Sam and told "that over-grown keto diet puppy-dog pansy" to buy some real ice cream for once. Everyone was surprised that Kevin was the one to say it, but they all agreed

⊹✿🍨 Eventually he moves on to sorbets and everyone is happier, his favourite is lemon

⊹✿🍨 He will occasionally have boysenberry swirl ice cream, very rarely

Castiel

⊹✿🍨 Vanilla all the way.

⊹✿🍨 He doesn't really eat ice cream because he doesn't really eat but he likes to join in with the others and he remembers from his time as a human that he liked vanilla the most. It's also the least offense since he can taste the molecules in everything

⊹✿🍨 Occasionally he'll borrow one of Dean's toppings but he prefers it plain

⊹✿🍨 Sometimes he'll add some fresh fruit, his favourite has to be strawberries and raspberries. Everyone thinks he'd love blueberries but they're kinda eh to him

⊹✿🍨 Every six months he'll have a spoonful of Dean's ice cream and say in that familiar monotone "Still far too sweet" as he puts it back. Somehow, he's the only one Dean doesn't get mad at. Hm….

⊹✿🍨 He'll sometimes get mint choc chip. When he told Dean he got ice cream with chocolate chips in it Dean finally thought he had brought him over to the chocolate side before seeing the green ice cream and stating "Mint? Seriously?! That's not even ice cream, 's practically toothpaste!"

⊹✿🍨He thoroughly enjoys honey on vanilla ice cream

Bobby Singer

⊹✿🍨 Rum 'n' Raisin

⊹✿🍨 Nothing else

⊹✿🍨 Just Rum 'n' Raisin

Crowley MacLeod

⊹✿🍨 He honestly doesn't like ice cream

⊹✿🍨 But he will steal everyone else's

⊹✿🍨 Doesn't mind gelato, often opting for a coffee flavor

⊹✿🍨 But he prefers stealing it just to piss everyone else off

Charlie Bradbury

⊹✿🍨Eats anything

⊹✿🍨But has a soft spot for chocolate, specifically Dean's chocolate

⊹✿🍨 Her favourite is a bit of Sam's raspberry or strawberry sorbet and some of Dean's choc abomination

⊹✿🍨 Bit of a wild card but I think she like butter pecan ice cream. And pronounces it pee-can, as it should be pronounced

Claire Novak

⊹✿🍨 She's a perfect mix of Dean and Cas (obviously)

⊹✿🍨 She loves vanilla ice cream with an absurd amount of toppings

⊹✿🍨 Seriously, slathering on the fudge sauce with a trowel

⊹✿🍨 She also thinks mint ice cream is an affront to all that is good about ice cream

Lucifer

⊹✿🍨 Anything decadent or fancy, like those blended flavors and the one's you'd never think of like passion fruit pavlova

⊹✿🍨 His favourite of all has to be strawberries and cream because it's pink and he doesn't give a fuck (if you get the reference you're fucking awesome)

⊹✿🍨 He will absolutely steal Dean's ice cream and eat the entire thing in one sitting just to spite him - while using his magic to keep Dean back, wearing a shit-eating grin the entire time

⊹✿🍨 He once put a lemon sorbet in the freezer without saying a word, a form of silent peace offering to Sam

Gabriel

⊹✿🍨 Salted caramel. Nothing can beat salted caramel, nothing

⊹✿🍨 Sometimes he gets salted caramel macadamia, a close second

⊹✿🍨 Really anything sickeningly sweet but caramel and butterscotch flavors are his go to's

⊹✿🍨 He and Garth go to town whenever they're together, always getting the richest flavors and toppings to match

Chuck

⊹✿🍨 Bacon ice cream forever

⊹✿🍨 One of his favourite human creations

⊹✿🍨 Seriously, proud dad moment when they came up with that

⊹✿🍨He and Dean silently bond over it, it's quite sweet

Rowena MacLeod

⊹✿🍨 Not an ice cream person

⊹✿🍨 She's never really liked it

⊹✿🍨 But she will take the ice cream of others, just to annoy them, and never eat it

⊹✿🍨 Sometimes she gets Sam a sorbet. Sometimes

Arthur Ketch

⊹✿🍨 Vanilla for sure

⊹✿🍨 Often topped with nuts just to piss Dean off

⊹✿🍨 He's also a big fan of liqueurs on ice cream, something he introduces Dean to in a moment of kindness. Which he heavily regrets

⊹✿🍨 He doesn't mind a nice nut flavor, usually something with macadamias

Balthazar

⊹✿🍨 Same as Luci and Gabe, luxury all the way

⊹✿🍨 Though sometimes he'll enjoy a gelato with Crowley, but Balthazar prefers the fruity flavors

⊹✿🍨 Dean makes a joke

⊹✿🍨 He ends up stuck in a tree

⊹✿🍨 All is well in the world

Kevin Tran

⊹✿🍨 Kevin's an anything goes kind of fella but bubblegum is a personal favourite

⊹✿🍨 He'll steal from anyone, it doesn't matter who

⊹✿🍨 But he will NEVER get his own ice cream. Ever

⊹✿🍨 He especially likes to steal from Crowley on the rare occasion Crowley isn't stealing from someone else. It keeps the cycle going

Jody Mills

⊹✿🍨 Loves something fruity

⊹✿🍨 Mango has to be her favourite

⊹✿🍨 Sorbets are great, she and Sam pick them out together and whenever she comes by she brings him a lemon one, he brings her a mango one in turn

Donna Hanscum

⊹✿🍨 Strawberries and cream is top tier for her

⊹✿🍨 She loves Dean's monstrosity of chocolate though

⊹✿🍨 She'll eat most ice creams but she likes nut and coffee flavors the least (girl after my own heart)

⊹✿🍨But she'll always steal Jody's sorbets with a cute little smile, avoiding any chance of Jody getting mad at her

Jo Harvelle

⊹✿🍨 Jo is Dean coded all the way

⊹✿🍨 She steals his chocolate

⊹✿🍨 He steals her chocolate

⊹✿🍨 Ellen and Bobby think they're idiots and buy a spare tub

Ellen Harvell

⊹✿🍨 Either Vanilla or Rum 'n' Raisin

⊹✿🍨 Vanilla is classic and sometimes she'll have one scoop of each

⊹✿🍨 She and Bobby sit in silence while they eat their ice cream together, both very happy despite the looks on their faces

⊹✿🍨 On occasion, like when she's feeling a little sad but never says anything, she'll get some rocky road

Ash

⊹✿🍨Anything goes

⊹✿🍨Chocolate, fruit, caramel, nuts, the whole bag

⊹✿🍨 He likes those crazy candy flavors like banana lollies with actual candy in it

⊹✿🍨 He never shares, except with Kevin, on occasion

Cain

⊹✿🍨 Vanilla, nut flavors or liqueurs

⊹✿🍨 But sometimes he had very odd combinations

⊹✿🍨 He's very happy to sit by himself and enjoy his ice cream while people look at him strangely for combining mint choc chip with macadamias, caramel sauce and Bailey's

⊹✿🍨 But he's just a happy camper

⊹✿🍨 He very randomly sits with Cas and they have honey on their ice cream together

⊹✿🍨 Until Cain makes another strange combination and weirds him out. Cas' of all people, that's saying something

Gadreel

⊹✿🍨 Matcha and Ube

⊹✿🍨 He's into the more, specific flavors

⊹✿🍨 He's an acquired taste and so is his ice cream

⊹✿🍨 One of the turning points for him and Sam was when Sam asked to try some of his Matcha ice cream. It was small, but a start

Metatron

⊹✿🍨 Who gives a fuck?

⊹✿🍨 No literally

⊹✿🍨 He's mentioned it many times but whenever there's a grocery store run, somehow his ice cream gets left off the list

⊹✿🍨 And whenever he gets it himself, everyone eats it before he gets a change to

⊹✿🍨 Even Cas. Who will look him in the eyes while he does it. Baby's petty, it's one of the things I love most about him

Rufus Turner

⊹✿🍨 Pistachio

⊹✿🍨 Bit of a wild card, but so is Rufus

⊹✿🍨 No one, and I mean NO ONE, gets near his ice cream

⊹✿🍨 Sometimes he'll steal Bobby's Rum 'n' Raisin

⊹✿🍨 Who are we kidding? He always steals Bobby's Rum 'n' Raisin

Pamela Barnes

⊹✿🍨 Cookies and Cream

⊹✿🍨 I will say this until the day that I die

⊹✿🍨 No reason, she's just a cookies and cream lady, and I love her for that

⊹✿🍨 She will also steal Dean's chocolate, but she only ever has a small scoop with her cookies and cream because its too sweet, even for her

Benny Lafitte

⊹✿🍨 Does NOT like it at all

⊹✿🍨 Absolutely hates it

⊹✿🍨 His teeth are too sensitive

⊹✿🍨But back in his human days, he liked vanilla topped with pecans or peanuts

Garth Fitzgerald IV

⊹✿🍨 Big butterscotch fan

⊹✿🍨 Caramel too but butterscotch is the front runner

⊹✿🍨 Reminds him of his nana

⊹✿🍨 He always sits around and tells stories about her while sharing the ice cream with the kids (Claire, Alex and Kevin) whether they like it or not. Cas' always sits in too and sometimes Dean leans in the doorway and pretends not to care but he always loves hearing Garth's old stories

⊹✿🍨 Garth is the king of milkshakes along with Benny even thought he doesn't like ice cream and the two of them make the kids milkshakes whenever they like. Dean and Charlie line up every time

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Supernaturals focus on the role of "Mother" and its subsequent treatment of women

A 2,000 word essay.

Supernatural, both as a show and a fandom, has a notable habit when it comes to women within the narrative. This is, trying to fit every single woman the boys interact with into 2 distinct boxes: love interest, or mother. Now this isn't to say every single character can fit into these categories, but even those who don't seem to focus on who they are to the boys rather than who they are as person- and all those that aren't pushed into these boxes it is because they can't be. Such as Claire, being a child (although I often see the fandom instead try to categorise her as at least one member of Team Free Will's daughter instead) or Charlie, being a lesbian- and yet again pushed instead into a familial role.

Now, this isn't to say that the character's in general shouldn't have close bonds with the main characters, it only makes sense. However, it is clear when it comes to the women of the fandom they often get characterised as just who they are to the boys, rather than their own defining features, when in comparison, a lot of the men can just be.

I want to particularly focus on the Mother role that gets thrown around across the whole series, not only within the show but the fandom itself. This is a particularly notable contrast compared to the men in their life- only Bobby ever really gains the title of father (other than John of course) and this is built up over many seasons. It is not a role he is just assigned but a role he earns and grows into as time passes, particularly after John's death but not exclusively after that gap needs filling. Compare that to characters like Ellen and Jody who are introduced to us almost perfectly in time to fill a gap in the Winchester's lives.

There is an argument to be made that the boys "needed a mother", as that is something they never had, but not only is that not a job application that needs filling, but also a double standard on their need for a father. After John, and then Bobby, died there was no clear fatherly figure introduced in their lives, it was never treated as an expectation of the men around them like it was with the women. It is not common for characters like Ketch, Mick, Ash or even Samuel to be regarded as fathers to them, and most have focus' outside of their relationships to the boys. Hell, we get get characters like Rufus who barely seem to interact directly with them.

Even after Mary returned there was constant comparisons thrown her way, even within the show, with characters such as Jody and how she was the better mother figure- she is only three years older than Dean! So, lets talk about the "mother" figures within the show and fandom.

First up was Ellen, who I personally think had the most natural role within the boys lives. As far as I remember, she is never directly referred to as a motherly figure to them, and that works best. She is not immediately assigned this role, she isn't suddenly there for them 24/7, but she is someone willing to take the Winchester's in and look out for them. She is Jo's mother first and that is not forgotten, her prioritising her own daughter over them when necessary. What feels most natural about Ellen is that she is not a direct replacement or (at the time) one of many. She is still her own person, with her struggles of parenting Jo in the life, her bar, the loss of her husband, her history with John and her own hunting capabilities.

This is another thing that makes her stepping up feel so natural, she had a history with John and had met the boys when they were really young. She has history with them and is closer in age with John than she is Dean. It feels less like an expectation for the only woman in their life to be motherly towards them and more like an already existing mother taking in a couple more kids when they need it. Yet, she does not baby them because they are grown adults, something I fear the fandom forgets.

Then comes Jody, who is immediately less compelling due to being a pale imitation of Ellen. That isn't to say she isn't a good character, and I enjoyed her initial introductions, but later in the seasons she gets a more direct title of "mother" and that just feels forced. Particularly, the scene where Mary (under the influence of the Men of Letters) accuses her of trying to be a mother to her kids which is, questionable at best. As mentioned previously, she is closer in age to Dean then she is their parents!

Supernatural has a, somewhat indecisive, theme of found family, but an obsession with putting characters into nuclear family roles. And the behaviour of the Winchester boys around her is bizarre! Showing up unannounced expecting to be fed, being scolded by her in the exact same way she parents her own kids, being grossed out at the concept of her having a romantic life. There is nothing wrong with her having a familial role, but the expectation that she mother them, and even sometimes baby them when they are both 30+ at this point is just weird. It creates this idea that women in their life are there to make up for the mother they never had. Which, given their mommy issues, would not be a massive narrative flaw if that were the characters belief, but instead it is treated as a narrative fact, something I am forced to assume the writers believe instead. And frankly, this seems particularly out of character for Sam who has always made more of an effort to be respectful and never had that same devotion to the concept of a mother.

Then there are characters, such as Rowena, who are not treated as a motherly figure in the narrative, but instead taken as one by the fandom. Certain fans are obsessed with Sam and Deans needs and wants to the point that they're willingly ignorant of the actual characterisations. Now, if you simply want to head-canon her as their mother, go for it- who am I to stop you? My issue is not with head-canons but those who treat it as a fact, or even argue she was more a mother to them than Mary. Rowena's introduction to the show makes one thing abundantly clear, she is a terrible mother. That is a defining trait of hers, and not an easy one to ignore given she spends 90% of her screen time plotting how to manipulate or maim her only son.

This is the issue within the fan-base, of defining female characters by what they could give the boys and forcing patriarchal, nuclear family roles on them. In reality, she is a mentor to Sam at best, a selfish manipulator at worst. When she does begin to care for the boys it is because they are friends, a word a large portion of the fandom doesn't seem to remember can be used between a man and a woman.

Finally, there is Mary herself, a character constantly demonised and torn down for not being the perfect mother. As a character, she is split in two: pre-resurrection and post-resurrection.

Kripke era Mary is on a pedestal, haunting the narrative and mostly made up from John and Dean's memories. In a way, she is not real, perfect in the way she is remembered. However, as the show progresses we see her flaws and the truth of her past, shattering the perfect memory we are originally presented with and instead giving us a real, fleshed out character with fears and flaws. Here, the narrative handles her quite well, giving us a character similar to Sam. She is stubborn and independent, something that is presented as a positive in her younger self yet punished in the later seasons after her return.

Already, a portion of the fandom turned against her, no longer seeing a perfect victim and instead holding her to impossible standards, she is criticised for being an imperfect mother before she even is one and held responsible for Sam and Dean's misfortune when many forces were at play. This feels like a particularly pungent example of misogyny within the fandom when compared to Dean's deal to save Sam. In almost identical positions of making a deal with unforeseen consequences Dean is forgiven, not expected to know it would lead to the first seal breaking, whilst Mary is often criticised for ruining Sam's life in a circumstance she had no way to predict. Not to mention, both also had the influence of angels and demons manipulating the situations. The double standard is in place due to Mary's role as a mother and the impact it had on the boys, yet again boiling a female character down to how she impacts their lives.

Then comes her return, where even the writers turn against her. This is the most blatant example of a woman existing solely to mother the Winchesters, the show explicitly bringing her back as a gift to Dean- something that could of been a fascinating internal struggle from Mary who has been torn from heaven for a version of her son she doesn't know. Instead, the focus is almost solely on Dean and a lot of Mary's struggle happens off screen until we're at the point where it turns into a fight, the narrative continually focusing on Dean's feelings and trying to make the audience take his side in what should be a nuanced situation.

Mary's thoughts and feelings are not so well explored, to the point where a lot of fans I have spoken to seem to either forget or ignore the scene that shows her joining the Men of Letters with good intentions to try and help her sons, instead arguing she did so out of selfish reason because from the boys perspective (who never got an explanation) she did! Even the conversation about her role in their lives and her admission that she is "not just a mother," is turned against her, when its true and should be considered as part of her character! At times it felt as though the writers acknowledged that she can't just slip into this role and must have her own struggles only to decide they can't be bothered to actually go into it.

Almost every time Mary has an issue to confront, it is done so off screen, the main exception that comes to mind being when Dean goes into her head to snap her out of the brainwashing she endured, which again shifts focus to Dean and how her absence affected him. Obviously, a show has a right to focus on their main characters, but introducing a reoccurring character and not allowing any nuance or focus from her perspective is lazy and dismissive.

Mary is often more harshly punished by fans than even John, a character who actively neglected and endangered Sam and Dean when they were only children. She is held to an impossible standard to dote on their every move when neither son actually requires that anymore, having lived without a mother for over thirty years. And this is with no focus on the horror of her situation, she is now younger than her sons and still mourning the loss of her husband and the kids she knew, yet the focus is only on how the brothers feel. Even Mick gets more of a backstory and chance to unpack his feelings on screen than she does.

After the season that initially introduces her, it feels as though they run out of ideas, constantly giving her reason to leave and pushing her back into the role of mother. She is not perfect still, but she is a lot more subdued in order to fulfil her expectations- be there when the writers remember and dote on her boys with less of a focus on any other goals.

In conclusion, the writers of Supernatural were dismissive of their female characters in order to shape them around what role the boys need in their life, making a lot of the characters feel like poor imitations at times and missing out of a lot of potential. And frankly, it is shocking how they seemed to only get worse with this, sending any possible defence of it being a result of the time right out of the window. It is extremely disappointing to see, especially as these mindsets seem to have bled into the fandom, even today.

[iloveyoudeanwinchester]

Jo harvelle has been hopping around states doing solo hunts, and catches wind of what sounds like a textbook ghost haunting. It's in some dorms, but it's easy enough to get access. She's surprised to find out most complaints have to do with clothing. Moving, floating, disappearing, sometimes catching on fire. Jo finally makes contact with the ghost, it's a tall sad girl with blonde hair in a white skimpy night gown. Apparently she'd been possessed, and made to wear this God awful gown before being set ablaze on a ceiling. All she wants is to wear something, anything, else. Jo feels bad for her, more than anything, more than her ingrained hatred for the supernatural. She gives her company. Gets to know her. Eventually offers Jessica, if she wants to wear something different, to wear her. It's risky, Jo knows that. To let a ghost have control. But it also might be what she needs to be put to rest. Jessica hesitantly agrees to try. Then, she's seeing through Jo's eyes, into a mirror. Much shorter, but still blonde, and thankfully - finally - wearing something that doesn't leave her clawing for dignity. When Jo breathes in a minute later the whispered shadow of a thank you Jo dissolves like mist, or a kiss, in the air, and Jo is more sad than she likes to admit to find herself in the room, in her body, alone.

[stargazedwinchester]

꩜༄.° @lenlapine's 𝖍𝖚𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖒𝖔𝖔𝖉𝖇𝖔𝖆𝖗𝖉,,

colour: golden pink season: summer chosen word: sacrilege

ʚଓ٠࣪⭑ your chosen weapon is a shotgun. it's loud and unapologetic, and still impossible to ignore. it mirrors the way you move through the world: putting things off until the pressure becomes unbearable, then giving everything in one blazing burst. you don’t half-commit once it matters. you over-correct. you overachieve. you keep going long past the point where most people would stop.

ʚଓ٠࣪⭑ jo sees the pattern before you admit it. the way you joke when you’re overwhelmed. the way you wait until the last second, then refuse to quit. she recognizes that fire—that stubborn refusal to back down once your heart’s on the line. you frustrate her. you impress her. sometimes you do both at once. but she knows this much: when things get real, you always show up.

The sun is high, heat shimmering off the asphalt outside the Roadhouse, and you’re still scrambling. “I had a plan,” you insist, fumbling shells into your shotgun. Jo arches a brow. “Uh-huh. And I had a winning lottery ticket.” You grin, breathless. “Okay, fine. I didn’t. But I will. Eventually.” A shout echoes from the tree line. You freeze for half a second, then you move. By the time Jo catches up, you’re already firing, stance steady, eyes blazing. No hesitation now. No doubt. Just pure, stubborn resolve. The creature drops. Silence follows. Jo exhales. “You really wait until the world’s on fire, huh?” You shrug, heart still pounding. “I just… work better under pressure.” She steps closer, nudging your shoulder. “Yeah, well. You’re gonna give me gray hair, Zari.” You smile at the nickname. Jo smiles back—proud, a little in awe.

✧ 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.ᐟ // ✧𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 // ✧𝒓𝒆𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒃𝒐𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.ᐟ

[lelapine]

How can you know me so well from so little words…

[balrogballs]

UPDATE: like it says in the tags this is a shitpost if you could not tell by the whole chicken caliphate thing and you do not need to send me anons about how i’m being unfair to lewis by saying he’s implying that muslim coded bird worshippers who don’t convert will bring about the end of the world pls u can keep ur king i am not advocating for Cancellation this is relatively well known and i repeat it is a shitpost and genuinely not that deep.

see i used to be a pretty big fan of the chronicles of narnia as a child and one thing i have never understood about the series is. and i genuinely do not know whether i’m just being stupid or theologically illiterate. but. in the first book, we see that aslan (ie jesus lion) sings into being the world in which narnia exists right.

and in said world, narnia and archenland (good white christian countries) are neighbours with calormen (evil brown muslim empire where the allah stand-in is a giant fucking chicken for some reason), and said two countries have a very tense border and the book series literally ends with the evil muslims taking over narnia to such a degree that the aforementioned giant chicken starts fucking flying around the place (??? 😭) and obviously the world has to end at that point because god forbid we have chicken caliphate instead of feline feudalism right.

so does this imply that aslan created a world in which calormen exists in the shape it does? like i know that technically speaking, calormen was founded by renegade archenlanders and didn’t just spring into existence and maybe aslan couldn’t do anything about it but like. this is a lion who regularly makes a point of interfering in minor royal succession disputes. we’re talking about agatha fucking christian here. this is the lion who befriended a talking mouse exhibiting clear post-war ptsd symptoms and then drove him to fucking kill himself. clearly there is no issue too small for aslan.

however his attitude towards an empire whose existence he knows full well would, in part, bring about the literal end of the world, seems to be ‘lol. lmao’. and one could argue that he didn’t know but like, if we’re going with the very on the nose christian allegory, this is a deity who is famously not only omniscient and omnipresent but omnipotent.

which is to say that even in the unlikely event that he didn’t know at the beginning, he still sat around for centuries watching calormen get to the point where the allah chicken would start flying around the place and end the world and the only thing he did about it seems to be *checks notes* helping a secretly-white kid and a child bride escape and turning some random ass sultan’s failson into a literal donkey. and like idk man but in my book that’s basically the divine equivalent of sending yourself hate mail on twitter

[what-even-is-thiss]

So many people who wanna argue with me about King Arthur clearly haven’t read the actual medieval texts. I know this because if they actually read the source material they’d know that when it comes to King Arthur, everything is made up and the points don’t matter.

[what-even-is-thiss]

“King Arthur couldn’t have fought the Roman Empire”

Try telling that to Geoffrey of Monmouth.

[what-even-is-thiss]

“You can’t just add in new characters”

Try telling that to Chrétien de Troyes. Aka the guy who invented Lancelot.

“Arthurian canon isn’t French”

Clearly you don’t own an air fryer. Also clearly you haven’t read literally anything written after the Norman invasion.

“Arthur needs to be a knight in shining armor”

If he lived at all he lived almost a thousand years before widespread adaption of plate armor.

“He can’t be in plate armor because that’s anachronistic”

Try telling that to Thomas Mallory.

“The fairy stuff is leftover from Celtic myth/Celtic gods)

A lot of that stuff including the lady of the lake wasn’t added until the 12th century actually. Centuries after England was christianized. It was also mostly added by the French poets.

[what-even-is-thiss]

God, I sure hope so.

[thisismynerdyself]

Try Not To Get Hurt

Peter Pevensie x Reader

request: @harrysweasleys​ what about a peter pevensie fic of patching him up after a battle??? i am SUCH a sucker for patch-up comfort fics it’s insane lol 🥰🤍

a/n: I LOVE PETER and this idea is just so precious, i hope you love where i went with it 💕

WC: 2.5k

Warnings: mentions of injuries, mentions of blood, sprinkling of fluff

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