Lemongrassjello

22 - 4th year med student

[lemongrassjello]

Woke up at 3AM and tried to get myself back to sleep but it just wasn’t working. Blew my nose a bunch (my anxiety is telling me I shouldn’t ever tell anyone this) and now I feel a lot better but I’m still not sleepy. What if I should go to the toilet? Maybe that’ll help? But I’m scared of bugs and I’m scared I’ll see one. I’m really comfy in bed but i also feel so energetic at the same time it’s so weird

Ive realised im using this blog as a journal and i have no regrets about that.

I have really weird left sided chest pain and I’m scared now. Pleuritic chest pain is scary. Hmm maybe I should go to a and e? Maybe it’s positional - one sec I’ll go try a bunch of positions it’s a lot better on my sides.

I feel so weird byee

[lemongrassjello]

I’m sick :(

Probably a viral so I can’t even take meds that’ll get rid of it :(

I went to lectures and attended a wonderful lecture on radiographs (x rays) and the lecturer was very engaging. Also had osce prep and an intro to ortho

I’m so tired.

[lemongrassjello]

Had a good day. Did one shoulder exam, observed one knee replacement, went to one social, and had one dinner date :) lovely day, I’m so happy

My throat is scratchy though unfortunately so I have a strepsil in my mouth.

[lemongrassjello]

Good morning,

I was meant to wake up 2 hours ago but I woke up now. It’s okay I just need to get ready and leave for placement. I’m going to eat the grapes in the fridge that will probably die if I don’t eat them soon.

Plan for today is to do 3 shoulder exams and get one shoulder exam signed off. I’ve also signed up to be in theatre at 1:30 PM. I’m kinda nervous about this.

Oh it’s medicine time now. I will go get ready. I showered last night after the gym so idk if I want to shower again rn. I probably will anyways.

I still can’t believe how much therapy and meds have changed my life. Oh I forgot I have to request my meds to be ready for collection.

Okay I’m going to get up and get ready for placement now. I will be kind to myself today and I will be productive.

Omg I forgot I was going to a social today :))) I’m kinda anxious about that but I think it’ll be fun :))))

Byeee

[lemongrassjello]

Hii,

I’m in bed with my partner. My room is nicer than it was a few days ago and today’s ortho classes were great. We learnt a bunch of exams and I found a partner for an audit I need to do this year - they asked me - which tbh feels great in the context of my anxiety. Also got a ride back from the hospital which was nice. Picked up a giant 45L storage box and a laundry basket on the way home. It was kinda uncomfy taking it all the way back home on the bus but wtv

I’m going to sleep now. Goodnight :) I can’t wait for tomorrow. I want to practice a few exams and get an exam signed off.

:)

[lemongrassjello]

First day of placement:

I’m starting my orthopaedics placement today. I’m very excited and I washed my hair. I’m kinda nervous bc I’m not very confident in lower limb anatomy. I could say I’ll do some practice on the bus ride there but it’s only a 10 minute ride, maybe a few minutes more.

I’m going to have to remember to take my meds and I might just look over my unhelpful thinking habits chart my therapist gave me just in case I forget some of them exist.

Before placement I have to:

1. Put scrubs on

2. Have breakfast

3. Pack bag

4. Remember to buy bus pass

5. Take trash out

Okay I’m gonna go do those now. My hair feels so curly and soft and swooshy rn :)))

[lemongrassjello]

Study blog intro

I started this blog when i was in either high school or middle school. I did whatever number of days of productivity everyone was doing back then and made friends. I needed a lot of motivation back then and im glad this blog helped me with it. Looking back at some of the posts I made that werent reblogs feels a big cringy and makes me uncomfy but I think I need another go at studyblr. I'm in my fourth year of medical school now and I think this blog might help.

I don't really know if anyone is using tumblr these days, but that might be why I'm choosing to start documenting my studies here rather than on instagram or whatever - It's a lot less scary, especially if I decide in like 2 days to not use this blog or to delete it or whatever.

I'm going to do a whatever number of days of productivity I feel will motivate me and not discourage me. I'm also thinking of making a blog that's just med school stuff - notes, study tips etc. but that might not happen.

I've had a rough couple of years with my mental health and other stuff, but during this time I found so much love and kindness. I found ways to cope and ways to thrive. I went to therapy and came out a new person (i will recommend therapy to anyone struggling with anxiety) and started on some meds that have truly changed my life. I feel like myself again.

I'm hoping i have the motivation to continue using this blog but if i don't im not gonna be to hard on myself - this is for fun.

Bye bye :)

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Etiquette warnings shown before silent films (1910s)

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Hats were like the cell-phones of the 1910s.

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There’s a particular attitude I often see on the internet that goes something like “If you aren’t part of a particular marginalized group, then you could never understand their experience, so don’t pretend to relate.” And while obviously you’re never going to relate to every aspect of that identity unless you are also of that identity, I feel like this attitude really diminishes opportunities for finding kinship and bonding in similar experiences even if those experiences aren’t exactly the same and/or are the result of different identities.

For example, I’m white and neurodivergent, and I was talking to a Black neurotypical friend about masking, and how I feel like I have to change the entire way I present myself in order to not be considered weird in public. She responded with “Oh, some of that sounds kind of like code-switching— how I have to switch away from using AAVE in white-dominated settings in order to be accepted.” And then we bonded over how frustrating and ridiculous it is that AAVE and stimming are both considered unacceptable in “professional” settings.

Another time, a straight Jewish friend was telling me about a book she had just finished reading, which was written by a Jewish author and had a Jewish main character. She was saying that it was really nice to read a book written by a Jewish author, because even when gentile authors do their research and write a pretty accurate Jewish character, they never quite feel Jewish— you can always tell the author was a gentile. And I said “Oh that sounds kind of like when I read queer characters written by straight authors— you can always tell the author was straight even if they do their research and get things fairly right. So even though I’m happy when any book features queer characters, it’s really especially nice to read queer characters written by queer authors.” And we bonded over this similar experience, and we were both excited that the other understood even if we were coming to this experience from different angles, and then we swapped book recommendations. This conversation is also a great example of when that internet attitude DOES apply— when someone outside of a particular group is trying to understand that group’s entire experience well enough to accurately write the world as seen through their eyes. They’re never quite going to get it right, and that’s ok! It just means it’s important to also have Own Voices authors writing those types of stories also.

Sometimes it seems like people who have been in internet circles exhibiting this attitude for too long are afraid to ever try to relate to the experiences of anyone in any groups other than their own for fear of causing offense, which is honestly pretty counterproductive. Understanding each other and bonding across groups should be the goal! Relating to each other is not a bad thing!

[studyingteach]

pushed stuff off /just/ a little bit too much and now i have the busiest week of college ever. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ oh well, time to get to work i guess

[obaewankenope]

fuck google docs so fucking much

i've just lost hundreds of docs and pdfs and i'm beyond pissed right now

they're all permanently gone

[obaewankenope]

actually they're not holy shit

okay so, gonna tell ya'll something awesome rn

google drive is a mess sometimes with its storage things and if you're unlucky it might delete some of your files and you won't realise until it's well past the point where they won't be in 'trash' anymore and you're fucked

all is not lost however!

if you're on drive via browser, hit the little ? in a circle next to the settings cog and select "help"

search for "file recovery"

it'll show you the ways to try and recover your files on pc, android, and mac etc

these don't matter

you need to scroll down to the bottom and just hit the "contact us"

you'll be logged out automatically

log back in

click the little box to give google permission to attempt to restore your files for that account

click "submit"

give them some time to work but it's an automatic process

i've got most of my files back in less than 10 minutes

all is not lost! rejoice!

[obaewankenope]

I'm gonna reblog this again bc wow but was it helpful to learn!

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please lucky pencil

[lemongrassjello]

:)

[lottiestudying]

11.3.2022—last week of 21!!

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1st March 2022 11:30 p. m.

🌆 Today's tasks

HTC Assignment A1 submission

AR ex.2 progressive submission

BCM assignment 1A

laundry

Room cleanup

list of things to pack

🎧: Stray Italian Greyhound - Vienna Teng

1st March: What are your goals for this month? What's something you're looking forward to?

My goals for this month are to develop a proper and regular schedule, not skip meals or sleep because of assignments in college (which currently isn't a problem right now bc I'm living at home but might become a problem when I live in college), start working out regularly, submit all assignments early. Something I'm looking forward to is finally going to college in person!!!! I've been there once while we were dropping my brother off like 5 or sth years ago but that was a different part of the uni since he was in the aeronautical branch. I would love to see the architecture block and the studios and equipment and all of that! Also one of my best friends is going to be in the medical college at the University campus so I'll get to meet her there!!!!

Gosh its been just one week and we've already got so many assignments send help lmao. But yeah!! Day 1 of the march productivity challenge! I could participate in the February challenge very well because between getting covid, recovering, and then going to my cousin's marriage I legit did not get time to update anything lol. It was really good to see so many people participate in it though!!! I'm glad to see people enjoyed it and I hope everyone will enjoy participating in this month's challenge as well!!

March Productivity Challenge - 2022

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Strawberry Cake Mix Cookies

Recipe source: Marsha’s Baking Addiction

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Liz Fosslien