Here, Queer & Everywhere

🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋 PJ - 29 - He/Him - Aotearoa (NZ) #Hollanov #Reddie #Destiel

[phoebewritess]

I feel like everyone talks about how great of a father Ilya is gonna be because he's so good with kids so often, that we ignore Shane has THE most dad energy I've ever seen. He's standing beside his kids while they watch TV, claiming he's not watching because he has stuff to do. He's up at 7am on a saturday mowing the lawn or fixing stuff in the bathroom you didn't even KNOW needed fixing. His kids come home from practice and he's watching the most niche ass hockey stats breakdown video on youtube and he is SAT and focused for all 40 minutes. Oh you mentioned you like something? He's picking several up from the store DONT comment on it. All of his texts have periods, are straight to the point, and include either "OK" or "👍"

And he's the best dad a kid could ask for.

[sirpompet]

Hmm AU where Dean is a single dad to a young Emma. She’s a bit temperamental (Dean says she’s misunderstood, lots of abandonment issues okay) and semi mute. A lot of people ‘can’t handle her’. Whatever that means. Anyway she finally makes friend after years. A strange boy named Jack. He meets Jacks dad and after talking, hires him to babysit/nanny Emma. It works out great. Cas is great. Almost too good actually.

Emma likes him (even if she can’t show it well, Dean can tell), the house is always spotless when Dean gets back, everything is neat and put away, and the kids are always well taken care of. Castiel can do almost anything, even when they get sick, with just a bit of nursing from Cas they’re right as rain.

It’s good. Too good. Turns out Castiel is an Angel who quit heaven to take care of his son. Real Angel magic shit. No wonder. Dean has his own fuckin mary poppins.

[giveemhales]

I’ve seen discourse about “Shane Hollander walks Ilya Rozanov like a dog” and whether or not this is a correct reading of their power dynamic. But like… have we considered that they are walking each other…

Ilya loves listening to his “nagging” husband who tells him to stop smoking and makes him wear sunscreen. He loves cooking healthy meals for both of them because he knows how much Shane cares about both of their healths. He loves listening to his husband plan out their future ten years out. He loves when Shane holds him tight and it feels like he will never let him go. He loves when Shane makes him shower and washes his hair when he’s having a Bad day, or makes him rest and drink plenty of fluids even when he swears he’s not sick (but definitely is). He loves when Shane snaps at him and shoves him into a wall and calls him an asshole. He loves when Shane takes what he wants from him and demands more. He loves pleasuring his husband, sexual and not. Most of all, he loves how loved he feels when he lets Shane take control.

At the same time, Shane loves when ilya takes control and lets him turn his brain off. He loves when ilya will take the lead in conversations because he can tell that Shane’s social battery is drained. He loves when Ilya pushes him outside of his comfort zone, pushes him to be brave in ways he would never be otherwise. He loves when Ilya makes him desperate, makes him beg, makes him put on a show. He loves when ilya sees him spiraling and makes him stop and breathe. He loves when he can nuzzle his head into Ilya’s lap and the rest of the world falls away. He loves watching how Ilya can control a room and dominate on the ice, and loves it even more when he gets to have his husband as his captain. He loves when Ilya makes decisions for him, frees him from the fear of making the Wrong choice. He loves when he feels like he exists for Ilya, like he was made for him, like he is owned by him. Most of all, he loves how loved he feels when he lets Ilya take control.

They are both taking control when the other needs/wants it. They are walking each other like this

And they are both exactly where they want to be.

[nevcolleil]

I'm sure I'm imagining the Supernatural to Heated Rivalry fan pipeline. These two shows are so totally unrelated.

But real quick, remind me: which one has the hot blonde bisexual with daddy issues and dead mom trauma, whose suicidal ideation, borderline crippling inability to discuss his feelings clearly and directly, and tendency to tie his self worth to his physical performance stunt his relationships?

Hint: it also has the hot dark-haired guy who is often othered by his unusual abilities, intensity, quirks, and social awkwardness. The one who's torn between his family's expectations and his own bodily autonomy until the bi guy helps him feel things he didn't know he could feel before.

2nd hint: the dark haired guy tells the 1st guy he loves him.

[beansprean]

Bullying your not-dad’s not-boyfriend can be any lesbian’s favorite pastime

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ID: 1a. Waist up of Claire and Kaia, slightly battered and bruised. Kaia has her hands in her hoodie pockets and is looking up at Claire with amusement. Claire has her arms crossed and is smirking down at the viewer. She says, in the form of a screenshotted tweet from Richard57941301, "so when you lost consciousness and fell down like an overwhelmed Victorian woman..."

1b. Reverse shot of Dean sitting on the tailgate of a pickup truck in a very dirty tee shirt, his bicep covered in a bloody bandage. Claire and Kaia are visible from the back standing in front of him. He looks up at Claire, slightly red, and replies "I fell normal. I fainted in a normal way."

1c. Claire teases him further: "you put the back of your hand to your forehead and spun around." Dean shouts back defensively: "that never happened I fainted in a normal or maybe even masculine way."

2a. Close up of Dean sitting at a table in the, brooding over a glass of whiskey. In the background stands Claire, with Jack standing nervously behind her as if trying to hide despite being half a foot taller. Claire, face impassive, points at Dean and says, in the form of a screenshot of a post by @moldavite, “dude you look so masc wallowing in your misery like that.” Dean stares into the middle distance, annoyed but unable to think of a comeback.

2b. Claire and Dean facing off, her smirking and pointing at where the Samulet rests on his chest. Dean gestures to it with both hands and shouts, in the form of an edited screenshot of a post by @sexygaywizard , “it’s not a NECKLACE it’s an AMULET ok it’s a HUNTER thing IM MASC IM MASC IM MASC.” /end ID

[silver-salt-knife]

Thinking about Dean and Cas retiring in a ranch, with Dean gathering cute and fluffy animals and Cas… gathering animals with poetic skills.

(They end up up animals who are not domesticated and not from America. They end up with animals from another time, lol)

There is a pond with many fish, at first, but the fish mysteriously disappear ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[silver-salt-knife]

#the fish mysteriously disappear im cackling#cas bought those fish in to pay for their ancestor#he's sacrificing them to small gods so dean's garden blooms well#even though most plants die in his presence#destiel#also the idea of cas being the tiger king of Lebanon or wherever they end up is so funny#they're doing unethical things at that ranch your honour (via @lazarrusrising)

I love your mind!!! Cas sacrificing fish to help Dean is so funny (two birds one stone... Cas is a strategist, after all)

Some neighbor: There are... strange animals in your ranch.

Dean: My husband 🥰🤭💘💘💘

Neighbor: [waits patiently because used of Dean turning that every time he mentions Cas]

Dean: He's... huh... running a program to protect endangered species.

Neighbor, pointing a Creature: What is that big lizard?

Dean: Absolutely NOT a dino! That'd be crazy. Why do you ask? [displays thee smile to cute his way out of the questions]

Neighbor: [drops the matter because Dean is a good neighbor and doesn't want him to move away]

[the whole town is side-eyeing the ranch but they do nothing about it]

[sweetonsugden]

english isn't my first language so i hope im able to explain what i'm trying to say respectfully.

its sad that so many new fans feel unsure now about interacting with jensen about destiel and getting stuff signed. ive been to a con few years back and ive had several friends go to many cons and have a postive experience with him in this regard. he's always been open to sign fanworks and appreciates them even. idk how to put, like sure i was dissapointed to after purcon but i feel its mostly ppl on the internet who're fear mongering in a way and painting jensen as overly aggressive towards fans who ship destiel....

sorry i dont think is makes much sense but i'm really frustrated at people spending all their energy at trying to bring down jensen and queer ppl who still support him thinking that its the pinnacle of activism. the world would be a better place if these people directed their hatered towards actual issues plaguing the queer community 🤷‍♀️

First, your English is great and you make excellent points and I agree.

its mostly ppl on the internet who're fear mongering in a way and painting jensen as overly aggressive towards fans who ship destiel

This is exactly what is happening. Fear mongering is a great term for it.

[jenmishamiga]

People online saying they’re worried about having Jensen sign Destiel stuff doesn’t seem to extend to the actual people going to cons and having Jensen sign Destiel stuff.

We keep getting stories about Jensen…wait for it…signing Destiel fan art.

So people are writing that they won’t do it now…but people ARE doing it and Jensen isn’t screaming in their faces…he’s signing the fan art.

[dotthings]

Thank you to this anon for pointing that out. People are only listening to the warnings and the fear and not listening to or seeing the many many positive interactions and fan stories. In the mix people with a negative agenda against destiel keep on their usual drumbeat about how Jensen “hates destiel and hates all you shippers” and no he doesn’t. He welcomes destiel shippers, understands why the ship matters, and he enjoys seeing the work fans make for that. He has smiled and laughed and appreciated a lot of fanart, and supported fans. The conflation of not shipping it with hatred has to end. And I don’t mean stans who actively hate get a free pass, or shaming others for shipping it and seeing the validity in the text. Not shipping is not the same as that kind of hate. Jensen has been kinder than most anti destiels and some professed “non shippers.” I mean that Jensen gets unfairly attacked or labeled for people’s agendas and the reality is far more complicated.

Two sides want to stir the fear pot for their own reasons.

But imo the hatred in fandom creates its own storms a lot of the time while Jensen is just vibing.

[pisshandkerchief]

everyone's "well-adjusted" and "mentally healthy" until the "sometimes I wish I'd never been born at all" part of Bohemian Rhapsody comes on

[ilyarozanovsmouth]

Concept:

Ilya does love seeing old photos of Shane. Fat Baby Shane™ in all his forms, toddler Shane in his little hockey gear, Shane in elementary school with a big missing-teeth smile, Shane blowing out the candles on his 10th birthday, Shane holding up his brand new driver's license at 16. The list goes on.

One day Yuna finds an old disposable camera. The expiration date on it says 2009. She tells Shane about it; it might have some old photos from his graduation on it or something. She'd gotten a digital camera around that time so she can't remember what she used this one for. Shane is pretty indifferent about it.

Yuna sends the camera off to some company that still develops old camera film. It's about 15 years old at this point, though, so whatever is on it might not even develop correctly.

A few weeks later Shane and Ilya are over for dinner. Yuna tells them she got the photos back and they actually turned out ok. She hands over the stack of 10 photos. Shane rolls his eyes, but Ilya grabs the photos and starts flipping through them. The first two look like they are from some school event; there's Shane surrounded by similarly aged kids in an auditorium. There's one of the three of them on Thanksgiving that year and another of the three of them with Yuna's parents at the same dinner. Two of David asleep on the couch with the family dog clearly taken on different days. One of a Christmas tree in the Hollander's living room. The next two are Shane on the ice in a rink that Ilya recognizes as the one in Regina. The one from their first World Juniors Tournament.

And Ilya freezes. The last photo in the stack is a close-up of Shane. He's in a white hoodie with a black coat over it. He has on a dark green beanie and he's standing next to the door to the rink. He's smiling for the camera and his freckles are crinkled near his eyes. It's the Shane that so awkwardly and so confidently introduced himself to Ilya the first time they met. The Shane that had tried so hard to talk to Ilya then. The Shane that Ilya could admit to himself now that he'd had a bit of a crush on already. His Shane.

His Shane was getting blurry as tears filled his eyes.

[1046ft]

i love cas and crowley's evil lab so much this is my favorite set in the entire show. the super ornate wood door for this abandoned warehouse? like theres just so many random details i love:

they just have these jars of blood. at the end of s7e1, cas tells sam to go get some blood and that there's jars of blood at the "end of the hall, supply closet," which means that cas and crowley were collecting and archiving them.

they're messy though they just have guts laying around

but at least they use aprons <3 + i never noticed the dent from when cas pushed crowley into the wall remains there for the rest of the time lmfaoo

[chungledown-bimothy]

the centaurs being absolute idiots and somehow coming to the conclusion that they found hollanov rpf that ilya wrote in ~2015

instead of communicating like normal people, they start quoting the fic at him in the locker room.

he's incredibly confused but luca's soul has left the plane of existence entirely because what do you mean his teammates are reading his hollanov soulmates au to ilya rozanov

[destielover40bang]

Coming to you on August 26 

Controlling the Narrative

Written by FriendofCarlotta (@friendofcarlotta) with art by twinone (@twinone1221)

Rating: Explicit 

Word count: 23426

Characters: Dean, Castiel, Emma, Kelly, Jack, John, Sam, Charlie, Anael 

Ships: Past Dean/Lydia, past Cas/Meg 

Tags: No archive warnings apply, Modern AU, Secret Relationship, Kid Fic, Non-Binary Character (Emma), Queer Themes 

Summary: 

Mayor Castiel Novak is running for reelection. As such, it's slightly awkward that he's in love with Dean Winchester, his opponent's son. Things become even more awkward when a photograph showing the two of them in an intimate moment is leaked to the press.

But wait, it gets worse: Dean discovers that his father's campaign leaked the pictures in the first place. Now, Dean and Castiel must decide if they're ready to own their relationship, no matter the effects on Castiel's political future.

Excerpt: “Fucking Crowley,” Castiel mutters to himself as he thumbs back to his recent calls and hits the dial button. “Stupid fucking Crowley and his fucking money and his fucking suits—”

Laughter sounds over the line as soon as the call connects, and Castiel instantly feels better at the sound of it. “You alright there, sweetheart? Gotta be something bad, to have you swearing this much.”

“Yes, it’s bad,” he says. “Awful. Horrible. Devastating. I won’t be able to see you on Thursday.”

“Aw, fuck.”

“My point exactly.” Castiel gestures expansively at the general situation, though there is no one here to see. Perhaps he should reconsider his stance on video calls, if only where Dean is concerned.

“What’s the conflict?” Dean asks.

“Well, two things, as it turns out. I’m meant to be going to the ribbon-cutting for a new community center, and then I’ll need to leave for a fucking fundraiser at Fergus fucking Crowley’s house.”

“Ugh, he’s the worst,” Dean says, and this is the kind of thing that has Castiel increasingly convinced that Dean is the love of his life. “Important donor though, unfortunately.”

“Not as important to me as you,” Castiel says, almost desperate to get this point across, because even five months into this whatever-they’re-doing-together, he can’t quite believe someone as gorgeous and smart and generally wonderful as Dean is willing to put up with him.

“I know, sweetheart,” Dean says, soft and quiet, and Castiel wishes Dean were here with him, sitting in the passenger seat, steady eyes fixed on him and their hands linked together. “You’re a busy man, Mr. Mayor. I knew that going in.”

I love you. The words sit on Castiel’s tongue all the time these days. They have become a permanent part of the landscape of his mouth. He should be charging them rent, or perhaps adjusting the zoning code in the general vicinity of—

Jesus. He really needs to work on getting more sleep. 

[destielover40bang]

Coming to you on August 31

How to Exit a Room

Written by @kickflaw with art by @cosmonatural / umrah

Rating: Mature 

Word count: ~6k

Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester 

Ships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester/Eileen Leahy 

Tags: No archive warnings apply, Post-Season/Series 15, Fix-It, Angst with a Happy Ending, Pining, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, PTSD, Castiel's Angelic Powers, Aging, Birthdays 

Summary: In the end, life goes on. Sam gets the white picket fence apple pie happily ever after. Dean gets a birthday he never expected to see, a flask he keeps topped off, and a door that just won't close in his mind. Oh, and Cas—patient, merciless, steadfast Cas—who somehow just isn't willing to give up on him yet, even though Dean long ago gave up on himself.

Excerpt: Dean forgot his forty-second birthday, but he marks the forty-third, oh, he marks it very much, because that’s the one that finally means he's spent more years alive on Earth than... elsewhere.

And Cas does too, apparently. Considering he's at the threshold to the library, looking at Dean with those eyes. The not-normal ones. The ones that saw what he was in the pit. 

[strawlessandbraless]

“So just pretend?”

Then at the end of episode, in the impala, reunited with Sam, we get this heartbreaking moment

Guy who is not going to be ok

[undeadamethyst]

[melle-otterwise]

They deserved to kiss on a beach

[memyselfandi13531]

post tlg some random asshole defenseman makes a shitty comment about shane taking it up the ass and shane looks at him, then at the scoreboard that shows the centaurs winning 6-1, then back down at him like "i dunno man i think one of us is getting fucked in the ass right now and it isn't me." and then that guy tries to fight him

[raincitygirl76]

Shane has always been so polite, it feels to other teams like he’s had a personality transplant once he joins Ottawa. In fact, he’s just finally letting his inner snarky bitch run free. Everybody in the league except Hayden, JJ and Ilya are dumbfounded when it turns out nice, polite Shane Hollander has a bitchy side. They always knew about it.

And really, what can this random d-man from another team do to Shane? He’s heard all the homophobic chirps before. He’s been outed. The commissioner has threatened to take hockey away from him. He’s been run out of his old team on a rail. Some sponsors have probably dropped him because suddenly he’s “controversial.”

Total strangers on Twitter who used to worship Shane are sending him death threats. People he’s known for a decade (people he used to consider his friends) assume he threw games for Ilya. People whose weddings and birthday parties he attended didn’t show up for his wedding, have turned on him, are actively bad-mouthing him in the press.

The polite golden boy persona always seemed like protective camouflage. But when the chips were down, it did nothing to protect him. Shane may as well say what he really thinks from now on. That random defenceman won’t know what hit him.