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This video of Sabrina is everything. OMG 😍😍

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Sabrina Carpenter photographed by Allie Kircher for Seventeen Magazine

#{ stars in my eyes }

lucayia

— thegroundzerogirl (via wnq-writers)

#{ stars in my eyes }

lennonalcorn

too far || lenah

noahxparks

noah wished she would smile, he never liked it when she was like this, but the bad thing is that, he never knew how to make her feel better. he was always just there for her; an ear to listen and a shoulder to lean on. “i-i get it.. i-.. really do. and i don’t really blame you, i-i should’ve talked to you while i was gone, but i-i was too caught up..” he responded, quietly, shaking his head a little. he really was a little disappointed with himself for not calling his friends at camp, but truth be told, what he went to uncover from alex’s past was too much to let him act like nothing was going on in front of others. it took him a few days to get it together after finding out what had happened and witnessed the places his brother has mentioned in his past. “no.” he said simply, not understanding why that even mattered in the first place. he always liked one person and one person only, he just knew it would never be mutual despite the kiss they shared.

lennonalcorn

she tried to figure out where did everything chance between them, what one moment that made her a nervous wreck with him even though she did her best to contain the nervousness because she didn’t want to put him off about how she felt. “don’t worry about it, it’s in the past now,” she tried to not sound like it still had some sort of affect on her but she knew her forgetting the past was a one in the million chance, everything always in the back of her mind, ready to pounce when it gets the chance. she took his hand in both of hers, not holding it like she normally did but just to touch him in some way before pressing it to her lips. she didn’t know what she was doing anymore, everything felt second guessed but she also knew she was probably blushing. he didn’t notice a girl flirting with him, was that a good thing?

#my king #too far #*redo my tags bc laze*#bUT TIS IS FINE BB

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#{ stars in my eyes }

lennonalcorn

too far || lenah

noahxparks

noah watched her quietly, his smile dropping and his expression turning sympathetic. “i-it’s fine, lennon. don’t apologize..” he shook his head a little, his eyes not leaving her as he watched her every move. noah wondered what was going through her mind, he was always curious about that, just not as much as this moment. she looked a little off and he wondered if it’s because – “oh, her? sh-she’s alright.. i didn’t really p-pay much attention.” he shrugged, watching her walked closer to him. she was so much shorter than him, he had to look down. he couldn’t help but smile a little at that thought.

lennonalcorn

she looked at him sadly, a small frown present but not that big, she normally would turn it into a smile before anyone noticed but it was just her and noah, no one else and she let her guard down a bit but never too much, not recently. “it’s not fine, i was out of line... and it was shitty and i don’t want you to think anything bad. you mean so much to me.” she muttered, twisting her hair between her fingers before putting it in a ponytail to not mess with it, a nervous habit she picked up that she hated. “y-you didn’t?” she didn’t mean to sound so relieved but she was, her paranoia apparently wasn’t winning at that moment and that made her happy. she stopped with space still between them so he wouldn’t have to look down too much. even with her three inch heels, their normal height different were over a foot apart. “i shouldn’t have asked,” she admitted a few seconds before he could respond.

lennon hated being so uncertain with noah, mostly because she was so used to being so calm and bubbly around him, he always put a smile on her face but she was messing up. she didn’t want to think about everything else she messed up and never completely fixed but she knew that she didn’t want to have her friendship with noah one of them. caring about him was second natural and she just wanted, needed to have him in her life and she knew that with him being gone for the last week with alex and her bugging jezebel all the time and subtly tried to ask gemma about what was happening since she gotten no direct contact from him but she didn’t blame him. the only thing she knew that no one knew about was her sneaking in his bed at night while he was away because of her missing him so much.

#p: my king #too far #decided to add a bit of feels for you :')

lennonalcorn

too far || lenah

noahxparks

that was strange. totally and utterly fucking weird. noah couldn’t remember the last time someone tried flirting with him, he was too busy being in a trance for someone else. he was always in his own place, it was weird for him to see someone who he had no idea who they were, just come in and.. and flirt with him!

noah grabbed his bottle of water and downed half of the thing already when he heard someone come in. he closed it and put it down before looking over at lennon, one side of his lip twitching up in an awkward smile while his hand rubbed his arm just as awkwardly. “uh.. y-yeah.. sure. wh-.. what is it?”

lennonalcorn

She tried not to let her annoyance show because she wasn't sure if he even flirted back or not but it still left a bad taste in her mouth. "I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry for whatever I said to fuck this up... And I just..." She didn't know what more to say. She wanted to mention the girl, but did she even have a right? Of course not, they weren't together or even 'unofficial' they were just Lennon and Noah, not Lennon and Noah. They were no where close to how Gemma and Alex first started, that was obvious to anyone. She wasn't even completely sure if he liked her"Also that girl was really pretty, don't you think?" She tried to sound casual even though she knew she was trying to get some information. The blonde walked closer to the way taller boy, she decided that nonchalant was not her style whatsoever and she hoped casual would be better even though she wasn't even sure if she came off as casual.

#p: my king #too far

lennonalcorn

too far || lenah

noahxparks

for a few days, almost a week, noah was gone with his brother, alex. it was a different experience for him. sure, he always hung out with his brother, but never a trip to another state only to find out things no one knew about. it only made the trip feel longer that noah even forgot for a few days about everyone back at camp. however, when they got back and their friends greeted them, noah was not expecting that kind of treatment from lennon. he doesn’t even remember half of the things she said to him but he stood there, just listening, with surprise taking over his facial features until jezebel managed to tell lennon to stop talking. the boy then walked away from the group and put his stuff down in his cabin. what was that about? he didn’t know. did he suddenly mean nothing to her? did she hate him for being gone and not sending any iris messages?

noah was stopped by a camper he has never seen before; a new girl. she said she was just claimed and looking for her cabin, yet while she was doing that, she was trying her best to look cute and that only made noah feel uncomfortable. he was already weird around girls he wasn’t related to, there was no need to make it worse for him. “by the way, i never got your name!” she grinned, almost blinding him with her bright smile as she rested her hand on his shoulder, her face a little too close. noah couldn’t help but lean away a little, responding quietly with his name before his eyes spotted the blonde he had always made a special place for in his heart. he felt a little panicked, backing away from the girl in front of him. “um, the aphrodite cabin, right? just walk over there until you reach a pink cabin. it’s not that far. i-i.. i gotta go.” he told her before quickly disappearing into the athena cabin.

lennonalcorn

Lennon wasn’t stupid, she knew flirting when she saw it. She saw Jezebel did it a lot of times even though Jezebel never did it seriously and even try to get the small blonde some tips but she was never good at that so she never tried nor had a reason to. But when she watched the girl, a girl she definitely didn’t know flirting with Noah. She felt weird, different, she wasn’t sure what it was but all she knew she didn’t want that girl near Noah ever again. Maybe she was just being protective? No, she knew her protective, this was something completely different… And she didn’t like it and even when Noah was gone from sight, it didn’t go away. She took a deep breath, telling herself she was overreacting, like always. But she followed Noah into his cabin because even with that girl that made Lennon want to keep him away from her, she still had to talk to him.

When she got into the cabin she haven't been in for over a week. She bit her lip, trying not to think of the train wreck she started. That when she figured out why she didn't like that girl for being too close to Noah and flirting, she was jealous because even though she fucked up, she did have feelings for the boy. That why she kissed him because she liked him and she didn't know how to deal with it. "Noah... Can we talk?" She asked, feeling smaller than normal.

#p: my king #too far

too far || lenah

Lennon fucked up, fucked up so fucking badly. How did she not realise her fucking 'nonchalantly' act was so terrible, too terrible to the point she sounded like an asshole toward Noah? She missed him and that how she greeted him? She wouldn't blame him if he hated her now because she already did so much, that was just the icing on the cake and she would of never have noticed if Jezebel didn't make Lennon stop fucking talking. She didn't even know what she was saying, her mouth just opened and shit spilled out. The look on his face was what put her off at first, what did she say to get a look like that? But it been a few days and awkward and tense were just two words that could explain their interactions now. It was obvious to everyone else too and she hated it. She hated not being able to sneak into the Athena's cabin at night to speak and hang out with Noah, to ask him to read the book he was reading. But she wanted to fix it and that was her plan until she saw something that made her heart sink to her stomach.

#p: my king #too far

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lennonalcorn

close enough // noah + lennon

noahxparks

–– - noah’s lips formed an ‘oh’ shape as he slowly looked away from her and at the floor, nodding slowly before looking at her again with a small smile. “i-i did want to be there. that day j-just happened to be th-the day i did extra training and then s-straight after went into the city to get y-your cake. i was j-just tired, is all.” he shrugged. noah wasn’t about to tell her that he was a little put off by jaemin despite him being one of the boys he knew the longest in camp. he wasn’t a fan of the way his and lennon’s friendship was, but who was he to complain?

lennonalcorn

lennon listened to noah speak, nodding a little. “that makes sense, i’m sorry...” she was just being paranoid and she shouldn’t have, but it was so hard. “i’m also very sorry about bothering you since you were obviously reading and everything,” the blonde spoke low, looking around the cabin before speaking again, “do you mind if i, um lay with you?” she cleared her throat, her heart raced a little too much for her liking, regretting the question as she tried to convince herself there were nothing wrong with her asking it, they were friends for crying out loud.

#p: noah #p:#close enough

lennonalcorn

close enough // noah + lennon

noahxparks

–– - he smiled a little and then shook his head, “n-no, it’s not stupid.” he responded. noah criss-crossed his legs on his bed. after he heard what she said, he stayed silent for a moment before glancing at her for a second, “w-.. what about it?”

lennonalcorn

lennon didn’t know why but out of everyone, she doubted herself the most around noah. it was more subconsciously than anything else because she trusted him wholeheartedly but there was always something lurking and she never knew what it was but she had a general idea. “thanks,” she put her legs on the bed, crossing them herself as she faced him fully. “you didn’t seem like you wanted to be there, you were kind of acting like alex and he’s the moodiest person i know.” that was a lie, but it wasn’t like she was going to openly admit she been having issues with her own moods especially recently with the loneliness and resentment to herself. and that where it hit her, the reason she doubted herself around noah was because of ben. she trusted him and he was the one to start everything and she knew that noah was nothing like that asshole but what she felt for noah was different than what she felt for ben and stronger which added even more doubt, so much more and she hated it because noah was genuinely a good guy and that made her stomach turn.

#p: noah #p:#close enough

lennonalcorn

close enough // noah + lennon

noahxparks

–– - the book in noah’s hands lowered down and his eyes moved to look at the blonde in silence. he smiled a little at the joke and sat up, her existence simply being around him made his heart beat so fast, he was hoping it wasn’t noticeable on his face. “w-why mine in par-particular?” there he goes again, stuttering his ass off in front of her.

lennonalcorn

lennon shrugged a little, “you always seem to make me happy so i thought why not come to you? is that stupid?” she wondered, taking her shoes off. “also i wanted to talk to you about the birthday party...” she muttered but it was too quiet for him not to hear her unless he would just ignore it, which she wouldn’t blame him for.

#p: noah #p:#close enough