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鹿晗 , 420 with little to no memories of his past and true self, luhan set his journey in this cruel, harsh world to find out who he really is.

[lethehan]

              I hate this. Bags under the eyes and dark circles decorated Luhan's once youthful appearance, making him look like his actual age or maybe even older. Lately, his nights were spent lying down motionless on his bed, eyes staring blankly at the ceiling though his face clearly showed fear. His nightmares won't just stop, it won't leave him alone, and just when he was about to fall asleep again, he would jolt back to reality with his mind filled with memories he knows nothing of. His head hurts, he wanted to just rest but he was too afraid, too scared and he didn't even understand why. Why was he even scared? Why? 

[fyeahluhan]

[unephilosykos]

[lethehan]

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[nvhes]

{ ’ Curiosity and amusement flickers in his brown hues as Nine watches the aloof male. Was twenty percent off movie rentals really that great? Reaching over to grip the plastic case with his fingertips, he swiftly flicks the DVDs over to his side of the counter and fails to stifle his boyish laughter at the other’s peculiar choice in movies. It’s not that his customer’s choice was bad, it was just horror movies he’s never seen anyone rent before - which he understood why perfectly after he watched the first ten minutes; }

"Sorry."

{ ’ He quickly covers his mouth with the back of his pale hand, sheepish eyes glancing back up at the other male. Although Nine’s attitude to work wasn’t very pleasant in the least, he found it odd how his conscious was persisting that he shouldn’t upset this particular customer; }

"Interesting choice in movies. Tell me how it goes when you’re done."

{ ’ The corners of Nine’s thin lips curl into an almost teasing smile as his hands focus on scanning the barcodes before neatly piling them into a plastic bag; }

"That’ll be 8,690 won. Did you by any chance want some movie recommendations?"

{ ’ Nine asks quickly without missing a beat, eyes set on the other male. It would be a shame if his customer walked away without any good horror movies; }

[lethehan]

Luhan tries to distract himself by watching the guy behind the counter do his job to make his head stop recreating the scenario earlier because the more he thinks of it, the more embarrassed he gets and that's something he wants to avoid in all cause, thank you very much. His mouth really needs to shut up when his brain tells it to. His thoughts were suddenly interrupted by the sudden laughter emitting from the male in front of him, his head perking up to see what was so funny at the moment. He puffs his cheeks, curling his fingers toward his palm to form a fist, his knuckles turning white from doing so. "I just thought they'll be hilariously scary to watch, okay! If that even make sense..." He defends because he was so sure that this guy might have been judging his taste on horror movies.

Not only were his ears starting to feel hot but he can tell that his cheeks were probably just as red right now, oh how he hated feeling embarrassed or shy or anything that triggers this kind of reaction from him. He lets out a soft huff as he hands the guy the exact amount of bill, thinking how he probably has better taste in movies than this guy.

"Pretty sure I have better taste than you, pancake face." He did not just say that out loud, did he?

[flawlless-life]

[lethehan]

{ ’ He despised Saturday mornings with his entire being. Nine’s eyes were heavy and his drooped eyelids left him stuck with a permanent glare from the moment he showed up at work. It’s not that he needed a job, but it seemed like something an average college student would have if he were to play his part. Working at the movie rental store wasn’t exactly hard work, especially since since it consisted of mainly sitting behind the counter and recommending movies to customers - not that his fond taste in horror movies was always appreciated. The only thing Nine couldn’t comprehend was why someone would rent a movie at 7 in the morning, let alone on a Saturday. Raising his eyes at the remark, Nine meet the other male’s confused glance with his nonchalant stare; }

"What is?"

{ ’ Nine furrowed his brows and leaned back into his chair, arms crossed over his chest as if almost sizing up the other. Unsure of what his customer could have been possibly referring to, he darted his eyes across the counter before pointing to the sale sign in conclusion; }

"That? It’s just twenty percent off the second movie you rent - nothing that crazy.”

{ ’ He gave the other an incredulous look, lips slowly curling amusedly. ‘How odd’, he thought; }

What got into his mind, he didn't know and he really didn't want to find out either. Maybe it was the feeling of suffocation he would always feel whenever he's stuck inside that four walled bedroom with little to no decorations. He needed air, an intervention to distract him from his unsettling thoughts. This led him to go out without saying anything to the young male who has been taking care of him all this time.

I'm sure he'll understand.

Okay, maybe it wasn't really a good idea after all. He didn't want to admit it to himself but maybe, just maybe he was a little bit lost. A soft sigh escaped his lips, looking around the unfamiliar place and decided to go inside one of the shops which happened to be a movie rental store. Might as well... then I'll call home so he can pick me up here. 

The bell on top of the glass door rung, indicating his entrance, his curious pair of eyes looked around, scanning the place, "Not much people." He muttered under his breath before stepping inside the place, immediately making his way towards the horror section, picking up movies that seemed terrible enough to be considered funny instead of scary. "Ooh, I haven't seen this. I think-" He chimed as he grabbed the dvd, carrying it along with the other movies he planned to watch later. 

"This is crazy..." Luhan subconsciously muttered as his gaze fell upon the guy behind the counter. How the hell did he know I'm here? Wait, did he teleport or something? "What..." The male's voice didn't quite register on his mind because he was too focused on his face. That gave me a heart attack! It was a different person after all... "Oh! Yeah! Anyway, I'm renting these..." He carefully placed them down on the counter, scratching on his cheek as he chuckled nervously, his brows furrowed as he continued to stare at the male in front of him when the other wasn't looking. Weird. 

[lethehan]

                                                           It has been a week since I was released from the hospital... Luhan was finally able to calm down after the break down he had when the male, who apparently watched over him everyday, told him everything but he didn't want to believe any of that bull because he was sure of his own memories. "I'm a fucking college student! I'm no former member of any idol group!" He screamed at the top of his lungs, not only trying to convince the other male but to convince also himself. He felt bad because Sehun was always with him whenever the younger was free, doing all he can just to help him overcome whatever he was going through right now. The strangest thing was... his heart would beat abnormally whenever that guy was around. Is that even normal? He doesn't really know.

                                                  I just want to know who I really am...

[iliyon]

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[iliyon]

31/10/2014

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