The Cage

There's no turning back from here

[letsfindourhome]

Of all the things we could've been, together wasn't one of them

[letsfindourhome]

There are so many yous I've lost

[letsfindourhome]

Of all the ways you can destroy me, loving me is the most effective one.

Erika B.H.

[letsfindourhome]

Deafening

I realized I had stopped listening to my favorite songs, maybe because I started listening yours.

I started listening to you completely and you were deafening.

You occupied everything; my time, my energy, my bed...

I started to learn everything about you and I fell for it.

Your routine became my home. Your kisses became my motivation and now I couldn't exist unless you were looking at me.

I knew you would always come back because you promised never to leave, until one day you simply did it.

Where was I? Right! I've been listening to my favorite songs again, and they are surely better than yours.

[letsfindourhome]

[letsfindourhome]

It was obvious. We started wrong so how could it ever end well?

Erika

[letsfindourhome]

Nothing hurt me more than causing you pain.

Erika

[letsfindourhome]

The things we don't talk about

There are things I don't say to you, like the time I shared with another behind doors

There are things I will always regret, like when I said the words that broke your heart

There are things I’ve never told anyone, like the fact that I hate sex and I don’t wanna find out why

There are things I can’t see, like the poison in my soul hidden under the kindness

There are things I need, like the attention that I’ve severely look for in the eyes of my lovers

There are boys that have called me “the right one” without knowing I’ve just made them junkies for love

[letsfindourhome]

“Believe me, darling, you don’t wanna take care of something that someone else broke.”

—

(via

erikita-var

)

[letsfindourhome]

And I'm fooling myself cause I know that I'll never change ya, but you told me the truth so I guess I can't really blame ya.

My type (The Chainsmokers)

[letsfindourhome]

I couldn't wait any longer and you needed more time. We were always a walking contradiction

Erika

[letsfindourhome]

Dear Heart

Among the things you took,

there was my heart

that useless thing you put in a box

and at the time we split ways

it decided to stay with you

It always saw the best in you.

It always wanted the best for you.

It always had nothing but love for you.

Still, it resents me for leaving

It doesn’t understand the mess you were doing to my head.

[letsfindourhome]

Do you miss me too?

Or is it one-sided?

Cause I need to know if I'm being pathetic... as always.

Erika

[letsfindourhome]

I remember you sleeping with me, but you wouldn’t let me touch you. You knew exactly how to keep me close enough to fall in love but not too close to feel it was real.

Erika

[letsfindourhome]

And the worst part is that even if you do come back, nothing will have changed. I'll still believe your lies and you'll still be an asshole

Erika

[letsfindourhome]

Can we talk about how you told me to go, then begged me to stay and finally tossed me out?

[letsfindourhome]

I will always miss you and I will always want you out of my life

Erika