In my head.

This blog is how I feel inside. I'm not saying my name. Call me H. I'm 18. Live in the UAE. 3 half siblings. I love them more than I could ever love myself. Music has helped me in ways that humans haven't. Bye.

[lettingit-out]

You know what's really sad?

The fact that you have to tell family members that you have depression for them to treat you like you actually exist.

Do I really have to have a mental illness for you to treat me better? I haven't taken my anti-depressants anymore and whenever dad asks if I did, I say "no" and he doesn't even notice, or atleast it doesnt seem like it since he hasnt asked why I didnt. 

Mum is constantly asking how I am, and I do appreciate it, but there is such thing as asking too much, and it's getting annoying.

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[lettingit-out]

So, I told my mum about the fact that I think I have depression, and mum knows now too. They recommend I go to a doctor and check to be sure so that might be happening this weekend.

dad hasn't spoken to me or even looked at me since ive come home not that im surprised but hey. its whatever.

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How can emptiness be so heavy?

Six Word Story (via drupahti)

[lettingit-out]

I think I'll try to stay up all night just to make myself sleep deprived. Even though it's 2:54am and I'm already tired.

This way I'll look unhealthy by the time I'm at uni and ask if I can sit the class out because I don't feel well.

[lettingit-out]

I relapsed just now.. I'm sorry. I don't think I can finish my report tonight, I'm just not in the mental state for it and I'm so sorry. I don't even know if I can go to class tomorrow.

I'm such a failure. such a disappointment. I don't know how much longer I can keep going like this, I have to tell someone. Too much has been bottled up.

No one knows about my self harm or depression if I even have it. But I think I'm going to tell my sister soon.. I don't know if I should though. 

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Tumblr is kind of like Friends except everyone is Chandler.

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chandlr.

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