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⌠ THOMAS DOHERTY, 24, CISMALE, HE/HIM ⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, LEVI MADDEN! according to their records, they’re a THIRD year, specializing in THREAT ELIMINATION + DRIVER’S ED; and they DID NOT go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of (messy morning hair, devilish smirk, scent of musk cologne, and midnight swims). when it’s the (leo)’s birthday on 8/14/1996, they always request their MUSHROOM STEAK from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation.

Hi!! I’m Jia and I’m excited to be here. Introducing to you below my baby Levi!! If you’re interested in plotting, like this and I shall come to you!

#gallagher:intro #tw cheating #tw divorce #meh i'm not happy with this but eh #pls ignore any typos i didn't proofread this omg

LEVI MADDEN | FINAL PARA

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#para #ngl i feel emotional posting this

ALLIE.

– SHE WAS RIGHT TO BELIEVE THAT THIS WAS A BAD IDEA. it’s pathetic that she’s even tried to deny the prospect of seeing him for so long, deluding herself into believing that it isn’t what she WANTED the entire time. of course she’d wanted this, there was no doubt that she’d see him if she showed up at gallagher unannounced and she’d wanted to – she’d tried to avoid it for some semblance of self control, but it had been pointless from the moment she stepped on campus. no – it had been pointless from the moment she thought about him. and it was a bad idea, she’d known that, because now she’s here in his arms wanting more than she should, and he’s here wanting her back. her heart isn’t the only one that she’s going to have to break tonight. “ you’ve already said that tonight, ” she says softly, affectionately as she runs her fingers through his hair. she doesn’t regret it either, blurting out how she feels or being this close to him, it makes her feel ALIVE in ways that she hasn’t felt since…well, since she saw him last, and she wonders if all people who are in love feel like this : like they are the first to ever feel this way, that this feeling is unique and entirely theirs, like it gives them purpose beyond the confines of daily life, going through motions like school, homework, making dinner. since her brother died, she’s gone through the motions without all of her purpose, smiling because she should, nodding when she’s supposed to. being in levi’s arms makes her feel like she’s part of something greater, and that’s not an easy thing to give up. allie’s head tilts upward so that her lips can meet his, heart fluttering in her chest with the way he looks at her. “ that’s exactly the problem, ” she sighs softly, finally turning her head away from him, “ neither of us can think straight when we’re together, it’s not…levi, it’s not good for us. ” she’d never want to be a liability to him – allie never thought she’d be in the position where she has to be the strong one, and it feels like she’s opening a wound. if she can’t stitch it up, it’s better that he won’t be around to see that. her hands trail down his arms, lingering until she finally drops them at her sides. “ you need to go. ”

He likes the way her fingers feel in his hair, it’s soothing. He smiles at her words, shrugging lightly. He’ll say it again and again, because it’s true. There’s a pang in his chest when she turns her head away from him. She’s right, of course she’s right — but Levi doesn’t want to act rationally tonight, is that so bad? He’s being selfish, he’s self aware enough to know that, because he’s not the only one who’ll have to pick up the pieces after tonight, she’ll be, too. And he hates to be the cause of that. “Is it really a problem?” he asks quietly, because he’d argue loving someone does that to you, renders you unable to think straight, so that doesn’t necessarily make it a bad thing. But maybe, in their case, it unfortunately is, because every time they reunite, they fall back into each other’s arms, knowingly they’ll have to part ways. It’s something they both know and yet they go against every time. He shakes his head and looks down for a moment, letting out a sigh. “I know that it is,” he agrees now, feeling like he’s losing. He eyes look at her hands as they trail down his arms and eventually drop at her sides. There’s another pang in his heart as a result of her words, but this one is painful and sharp. He’s experienced heart break before, so he knows this is exactly what he’s feeling right now. He also feels like they’re breaking up, despite never actually dating. He hands drop her from cheeks, too — it’s probably one of the hardest things he ever had to do and he takes a step back, and he has to look away for a moment, because looking at her hurts. He’s strong enough to pull away, but not strong enough to leave. “Fuck, Allie. How am I supposed to—” Go back inside and pretend like you’re not in the same room? Like everything that happened now didn’t? He stays quiet because he’s smart enough to know his words will only hurt them more and make the situation harder than it already is. He takes another step back and just leans back against the wall, like he’s in need of some support.

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #allie #:)#garnet are u still up

RUBY.

There’s a quiet exhaustion that comes after crying your eyes out that Ruby is becoming all too familiar with. Her breath is tired, eyes a little sore from all the sobbing, and parts of her body still hurt too. She’s trying to stretch her right palm out in front of her, the bruises on her knuckles a softer pink— she’s still not that good at punching, clearly. Ruby misses the text when he first sends it, and is only just then looking up from reading it on her phone screen when Levi comes through the door, and Ruby tries her to best not to look so tired for his sake. “Caden was supposed to tell you I’m fine,” she says lamely and innocently first, and she’s sure he probably did, but for someone like Levi, she should have known it wouldn’t have been enough. “I, um… I messed up, Levi,” Ruby starts quietly, lips scrunching into a tight frown, willing herself not to break from the memory again. If she hadn’t spent all her tears on Caden, she’s sure she’d be crying now, too, and thought the tears don’t come, the aching feeling in her chest does anyway.

“You’re going to give me a heart attack before I leave this place.” It’s a lame attempt to lighten up the mood, but Levi’s so worried and Ruby looks distressed, there’s no lightening it up. His brows furrow even more at her words, concern sky rocketing in him. He reaches to wrap an arm around her, pulling her protectively towards him. “What happened?” he asks quietly, keeping his entire focus on her. He doesn’t know what to expect, he doesn’t even know what went on. He has so many questions, but he’ll start with this one --- the logical one.

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #ruby #i love them so much!!!!!

CADEN.

HE CAN’T EXACTLY ARGUE WITH LEVI, not if it’s not what allie wants, but caden’s lips into a straight line out of annoyance. he’s annoyed FOR his friend, that he has to want what he can’t have. neither of them have been very good at that. “ i’m sorry, ” he tells him, because really, what else is there to say ? “ just don’t do anything stupid tonight then. ” for the sake of his heart. caden rolls his eyes. “ i think noah and i have been together long enough for her to figure out i’m a blast, actually. ” she certainly knows him better than nearly everyone in his life, except maybe levi.

“It’s fine, I knew that already. Not that it helps.” Every time he sees her, it’s like a wound ripped open again, a wound that never actually healed. “I won’t.” Now that’s a big ass lie, because they’ve already kissed, confessed their feelings to each other. Except, despite the feeling that they just broke up (when they weren’t even dating), he doesn’t regret this. And now he’s sitting here, ordering a glass of straight vodka, because that’s what that moment needs. Levi isn’t on planning on telling Caden any of this. “Long enough? You’re still in your honeymoon phase. She’s bound to find out you’re boring.”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #caden

TRINITY.

“So everybody supposed to do whatever you want?” Sounds like a shitty deal for everyone else, but almost makes her wanna make it to graduation. She won’t pass up a chance to be the main bitch of the night, even though she’s still hard competition to even the graduates. “Nah don’t worry, I won’t start forgetting about you till this weekend.”

“Of course,” he says matter-of-factly. “I can’t believe you’re questioning that.” He scoffs lightly before the boyish grin is back on his lips. He asks for a round of shots and reaches for his one. “It’s cute you think you’ll be able to pull a Trinity Ibarra on me.” He tilts his head to the side. “So, if I stop texting and checking up, I take it you’ll be totally fine with that.”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #trinity

HARPER.

“No, it doesn’t.” And she said with the brightest smile that she could muster up. He was a drama king and she was the one who didn’t give a damn about his dramatics. “Oh word?” Harper’s eyes lit up as if she hit the jackpot. To think, Levi actually fell for that… Sorry Allie but your mans… not the brightest! “He gave me a check for $2,000. Like can you believe that? You can easily double that.” Triple if he wanted.

He lets out a chuckle at her words before he clicks his tongue. “Heartbreaking. Just heartbreaking. We haven’t seen each other in so long and this is what I get,” he points out. “Have I ever said no to giving you money?” He quirks an eyebrow. “But before, you’re getting a drink with me. What’s your drink of choice for the night?”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #harper

ELLIOT.

“i suppose that would be unpleasant.” that was her version of sentimentality. “calling that a skill seems a little overly generous, but sure.” still not a skill that she thought was worthy of pride. “good.” elliot frowned for a moment, thinking. “wait, where are you working after this?” she wasn’t sure if he’d never told her or she just completely forgot.

“Royally unpleasant.” A grin curves up his lips at his words. “Come on, you would know hangovers can be a son of a bitch.” Though he’s been through hangovers where he couldn’t function the next day. “Even tonight, you want to bring me down, Chase,” he teases lightly, clicking his tongue. “Though I suppose I’ll feel weird if you don’t do it. Did you find a replacement?” He asks for another round. “NSA, in Fort Meade. Still close.”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #elliot

@rubymeriwether

If you thought Levi was freaked out last time Ruby was attacked, multiply that by ten times now. He doesn’t know the details of what went on, but it’s easy to tell it’s related to her previous attack, and it’s driving him insane how after the previous one, Gallagher didn’t take the necessary precautions to prevent a second one. He drops everything he’s doing the moment he hears of the attack and rushes over to her dorm room, texting her that he’s coming on his way there. When she opens the door to her room, his face at the sight of her bruised face. He’s relieved that she’s standing right in front of him, but that doesn’t help the panic he feels knowing she was hurt. He pulls her into a hug, pressing a kiss to her forehead. “Are you okay? Christ, that’s a dumb question. What the fuck happened?”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #ruby #i forgot to post this yesterday i hate myself

CECILIA.

SHE KNOWS HE’S RIGHT, but she’d never actually admit it. instead she just flashes him a smirk, wishing she had gotten to know him a little better this past year. hopefully he’s not one of those spies that ends up dying in the field after their first few years. “ you went on the mission to caledonia, right ? are you excited for that to be a regular tuesday afternoon for you ? ” she teases. “ i’m going back home, to italy. how about yourself ? ” she’s sure it’s nothing short of glamorous. “ keep me in the loop for all the celebrations happening on campus, please. ”

“Yeah, I was with the team that went to Wales.” He assumes she was with Team B, since Cole and Christian were the only ex agents on Team A. He chuckles at her question. “I am. Though I don’t think it sunk in yet. Technically, I have two months before it officially starts.” He nods. “Home to New York City then The Hamptons,” he answers. “I like Italy. Where in Italy are you?” He’s traveled there a couple of times. “Of course. You want to have shots with me again?” he teases lightly, asking for another round of shots.

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #cecilia

CADEN.

“ SO WHAT ? it’s like being an army wife. nobody gives you shit for dating someone in the military. ” that he knows of. “ not that you have to marry her, obviously, but it seems a bit premature to be thinking about. i mean, maybe when you’re not jetting around the hamptons in the summer or locked in the same school together, she’ll actually find out you’re pretty boring. ”

“An army wife is okay with being an army wife. Allie doesn’t want to be with a spy, dude. Premature? I’m starting a new job in a couple of months. My profession’s not getting any safer.” He should probably tell Caden they confessed their feelings, but he’s going to be roasted and will never going to hear the end of it. So he decides against it. “Same can be said about your ginger girl,” he points out, letting out a chuckle.

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #caden

ALLIE.

– ALLIE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY TO HIM NOW, all she can do is look at him slightly slack-jawed, lips parted in surprise. this should feel like a step forward, the fact that they’ve gotten everything they’ve been feeling over the past YEAR out in the open, but it doesn’t change the outcome, so it’s more like they’re walking in place, trying to change a future that doesn’t seem to come. it doesn’t change the horrible feelings that she has associated with the espionage career, the fact that they killed her brother, the way she can’t wait up every night wondering whether another loved one will be lost or not, but it ALSO doesn’t change that she feels like his smile lights up an entire room, that when things are good for them, they’re so GOOD, that he makes her feel giddy and light, and all she wants is to be around him. when she first came to gallagher, she’d felt so cold ; like everything was numb and empty, and she’d tried EVERYTHING to fill that void, but there was no fire that provided as much warmth as he did. only now, she feels like she’s burning. how else should she feel when he says he’s still in love with her ? allie’s already meeting him halfway when he moves forward to kiss her, arms draped over his shoulders as she returns the kiss. the kiss is desperate and intentional, like someone who believes this is the last time they’ll ever get to kiss the person they consider to be the love of their life and they need to say EVERYTHING that words can’t with it. she can’t get enough. her heart beats loudly against her chest in unison with his, pressed so close to him that she’s no longer sure where she ends and he begins. it hardly matters, and for a moment in time, they are on the same page about something, doubts melting away in exchange for the bliss of being in his arms. but eventually she will have to catch her breath, and the moment cannot last forever. she’ll miss him already when she tears herself away, feeling like half of something rather than whole. “ we shouldn’t have done that, ” she says, voice soft and slightly raspy because she hasn’t recovered from the kiss. which is probably why she’s still looking at his lips.

It’s no surprise the kiss is desperate, especially when Levi’s been desperate to have her in his arms and his lips to hers. He’s always been better in expressing himself through actions, and although he’s said more than he anticipated to Allie tonight, his head is full of so much more unsaid things. So he’s putting his all into the kiss, expressing the intensity of his feelings and need for her through it. It’s a kiss with months of missing one another going into it, it’s a kiss where both of them know what’s coming next. He’s crazy about her and he can’t get enough and it’s evident in the way he’s kissing her --- hungry and hard. His arms go around her waist, keeping her as close to him as physically possible, eliminating any space between them, lips melting together. He doesn’t think of the aftermath of the kiss, because right now, the kiss it all that matters and really, he wants to drown himself in Allison Beckett. He doesn’t know how long they kiss, but the moment she pulls away, he desperate to feel her lips on his again. He has to take a short breath, from the force of the kiss alone. He rests his forehead to hers, giving her a slight nod, as if in agreement, though what comes out of his lips is the total opposite, ”I don’t regret it.” Rationally, they shouldn’t have kissed. And yet, Levi has zero regrets. He would do it all again. He would kiss her again. He’s still refusing to really think of the aftermath of this. This time is deeper, too, because they have confessed their feelings. And yet, all Levi’s thinking about is the fact that she’s here and in his arms. He hasn’t had enough of the kiss. He moves to lightly trace his thumb along her lower lip and leans in for another kiss, this one’s shorter, but still passionate, because his self control and self restraint is pretty non existent right now. “You’re making me lose my mind, Allie.” His eyes are alternating between her eyes and her lips, faces still too close. He keeps her close to him --- wanting her to remain in his arms. “Fuck, I missed you.”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #allie #I ACTUALLY AM LOSING MY MIND KATI #too much word vomit i just

MONIQUE.

“Most likely because you’re a nobody.” Not Monique though, y’all be safe out there. His name set off various alarms in their head, unlocking a memory from months ago. They remembered their film class and sitting in the back with Martina, Trinity, and Scott. Their constant chatter, the passing of chips, a very much annoyed Monique. Names popped in the conversation, Charlie’s as Monique threatened to move and sit next to him. And the name Levi, a name without a face at the time. All they had to go by was– “So you’re the thumb.” It came out without meaning but ni doesn’t try to cover it up. “Hold out your hand,” ni ordered, keys dangling out for him. “I want to drive out into town. But if you’re here, you can drive me.”

“Is that your excuse for not knowing who I am? Not a very good one, and it’s a false one.” He clicks his tongue. If Monique thinks they are here to kick his ego down a notch, they will have to try a lot harder (though I support it. Do it, Monique!). He blinks at their comment, confusion evident on his face. “The what?” Thumb? What does that even mean? “Very demanding,” he teases, but does as told, holding his hand out and nodding as he takes the keys. “Your wish is my command. Just a drive or you wanna go somewhere specific?”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #monique #almost tagged this as kashia

SUNNY.

“Nope, not at all!” Levi could definitely out drink her but she didn’t care. This was their last Gallagher party together, gotta unwind and have some fun! Following in his lead, Sunny downed her own shot. “Nervous about tomorrow?”

He chuckles, already knowing the answer. He’s come across a drunk Sunny before. He’ll definitely slow down on the shots so it’s not too much for her. “Nah. I don’t think it officially hit me, to be fair.” Right now, he’s just celebrating and unwinding. “How much are you gonna miss me?”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #sunny

ELLIOT.

“fine,” she huffed. “oh yeah? what kind of jail time are we talking about?” probably not a great thing for her to be thinking about while drinking, but apparently her dad’s situation was on her mind. “you say that like it’s something to be proud of.” elliot laughed and shook her head as she took another shot glass and held it up to cheers with levi. “yeah, it’s going fairly well. you?”

“A life without Levi Madden kinda jail. The absolute worst,” he states, already asking for a third round. He chuckles at her words. “Knowing how to deal with hangovers is a skill.” He’s gonna have a bitch of a hangover tomorrow, but whatever. “Yeah, it’s fun.” There’s an open bar, so he’s not complaining.

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #elliot

HARPER.

“Why would I? It’s the truth!” Whether it was true or not, Harper was laughing. “You’ll get over it, you’re a big boy.” A little pat to the arm as reassurance. “Why not make both me and your money happy, I mean, your boy over there–” She pointed towards Caden. “– Gave me a lot of money as a graduation gift. Think you can beat him? I mean, you are the Levi Madden. You can beat anyone.”

“Because it’s hurting me! Does that mean nothing?” Of course, the dramatic demeanor does not subside. It’s Levi Madden, please. But he can’t resist the chuckle that escapes his lips at her pat of reassurance. “Too cold, Harper Kent... Too cold,” he teases. “Oh please.” He scoffs. “I can beat him. I’ll double whatever he gave you.” He’s used to giving Harper money. The sugar daddy life and all that.

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #harper #LKJDSFFKSDL SHES SO FUNNY

CADEN.

“ YOU CAN LEAD DIFFERENT LIVES WHILE STILL DATING, ” caden shrugs. he doesn’t really get it. “ what do you want that’s different than what she wants ? she already knows what you are. isn’t the hardest part of dating a civilian not telling them you’re a spy ? ”

“Yeah, this isn’t all it is. I’m going to be out on the field, sometimes gone for a while on missions, and you know well, nothing about what I’m gonna be doing is safe.” He’s a TE major, after all. “That’s what makes it hard to be together.”

#might be a sinner might be a saint – threads #caden

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