Life As I See And Experience It !

I'm Hayden- I Love Life- I Have Recently Discovered That I Don't Smile Enough- I Am Currently Forever Alone With My Sheep But I WOULD LOVE To Change That! Enjoy This Blog Full Of Randomness xxx P.s I Am Who I Am, Get Over It <3

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

post a dirty picture ;)

lol nah

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

How often do you jack off?

50000 times a day

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

how big is your cock

Lol not huge 

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

get naked

lol who dis

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

To whom it may concern

Hi, I don’t know how to say this to you- but I love you more than I have ever loved anything in my life and that scares the shit out of me. because I’m scared I’m going to loose you- I’m scared your going to go to New York and never want to see or speak to me again. I know I should trust you and not doubt you. but naturally i feel like distance and time will draw us apart- and I am completely willing to wait for you but I don’t know if you feel the same way- because who knows if I’ll get my green card and who knows if you'll go of and do your gig! And thats the thing who knows anything-so i should just stop worrying and live in the now and enjoy what we have now! but naturally i am incapable of not fearing the future because that’s what I spend my life preparing for. For now I guess I’ll just play it by ear and trust that fate will step in a see me through!

[moonlitpoems]

it’ll hit you in flashes. no more good morning text, no more goodnight kisses. the sheets don’t smell like him anymore and his toothbrush is gone.   you’ll miss the way his arms felt the way they slid around your waist after a long day. how he kissed will haunt you. you will feel the ghost of his lips late at night when your only company is the blinking red LED of the clock.   you will worry about him, all alone in that house. you’ll wonder at 2 am if he too is awake and thinking of you. you pick up your phone to call him but think better of it. you remember he’s not yours to take care of, not anymore. at 2 am it hits you. he’s gone. he’s really gone.

j.e.b. ((you didn’t think he was truly going to stay, did you?))

[rydnen]

[radical-illusion]

sigh the struggle

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

Word Vomit

Hi , 

You meant a lot to me, and i thought i meant something to you too , i knew i was leaving and I was okay with that and willing to let it all go and be okay with that

and then you went and did something so simple, and so stupid 

and it shouldn't hurt and i shouldn't feel jealous or betrayed because you aren't a possession of mine, you are a human being in which is capable of doing anything you want too.

BUT, there is no need to rub that fact in, there is simply no need to behave like a child.

and it does hurt, it hurts so bad- mainly because I just left every single person I love on the other side of the world, i left to be alone and vulnerable again, something I do time and time again, in search of happiness which I never seem to find. 

And I am not sad by any means, I am grateful and excited and always ‘happy’ but I am not fulfilled, i feel empty and emptiness is sometime the worst of all.

If you read this, treat the next person that falls for you with compassion and kindness because karma is a bitch and one day you will feel the wrath 

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

you

I can’t get you off my mind 

as i sit here and count down the minutes, seconds and hours until I leave

all I can think of is you

and I probably deserve better, I probably deserve someone who can give as much as I can give and someone who feels the way I feel, 

and I know that... but I still sit here thinking about you, hoping you are feeling the same way, hoping, praying, that you are playing hard to get, playing games to make it seem like you aren't feeling the same

I’ve not known you long , at all, not long enough to consider the things I’ve consider and yet somehow you, 

you have rocked my world and made me re think everything I’ve ever thought I’ve wanted,

maybe i’m just lonely, maybe i’m naive 

i’m defiantly vulnerable right now and maybe I just need your touch,

and the scary thing is is that I have no idea

but yet I still sit here.

thinking

about you

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

CUNTTTTTT

[cyberjock-deactivated20150809]

dude 1: hey bro, im out of protein shakes, cum in my mouth

dude 2: okay but what are the magic words

dude 1: no homo

[lola-fire-of-my-loins]

End Of Fairy Tales

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

He who laughs

while i sit here and listen to my unintentional 4th roommate snore up a lung i think about the past 24 hours and why some very specific moments play over and over in my head ! his name means he who laughs and i certainly laughed a lot !

Its hard for me to let my guard down and to feel any form of pain or joy for that matter because I'm so scared of getting hurt and getting into a dark place again. But he who laughs allows me to feel comfortable in his arms and allows me to let my guard down. 

I feel so vulnerable more than ever before and I love and hate it at the same time. 

for the first time in my life i was asked what i need. he said, i don't know u well enough to know what you need right now, but i want to give u what you need.

it made me feel unique and important and i don't feel like that often i pretend i do but i really don't feel like that 

its weird because we just met and I'm not one to rush into things or be cliche but i feel like i've known him my whole life and it has only really been few short weeks and really only hours of intimate interaction

i know you've tried really hard to be and I'm amazed that you can count to 4 after only learning yesterday and i expect that if you ever read this i get the badge for flattery and writing skills .

Im scared and excited all at the same time and all i can think about is u and that's weird 

[lifeasiseeandexperienceit]

are you single?

Yes I am I guess ...

[benigoat]

Trying to sleep in summer with the covers on

[veryfunnymemes]

[kushandwizdom]

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