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[mydarkawaits]

oh to feel safe just for once

[soulmates-twinflames]

[lifelessons-world]

[romessence]

[catalisst]

And therein lies the rub ...

[quoteastic]

Relationships are not that difficult. People are just too lazy to make sacrifices, time and put in effort.

[mactcl22]

[lifelessons-world]

[litsnaps]

[quoteastic]

I don't hate you. I never will. I just act like I do because it's easier than admitting that I miss you.

[quotefeeling]

“It’s all messy: the hair, the bed, the words, the heart. Life.”

— Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

[lifelessons-world]

Btw your a fucking coward trying to get out of it all by trying to say I said nothing was going be enough you needed to blame someone you needed away out. You tried to use that when in reality you never tried to do anything or were willing you wanted a quick fix a quick answer after all the damage you done instead of trying to fix shit and trying to show change you never wanted to work on things you wanted out because you wanted it all to disappear just like that after years of damage it takes time and effort and anyone in my place would understand that as well but you refuse to understand that cause I was a I do and I don’t with you confused over you god damn was it the whole friend ship to was that why it was so easy to just constantly give up and be how you were like I never existed every time like be so for real you can’t do everything you did and expect things to be fix with a snap a finger you didn’t try you didn’t change nothing you didn’t fight you didn’t put in effort cause I was a worthless nobody to you who didn’t matter cause I didn’t have enough to offer you that’s what it was and you couldn’t say it so you kept damaging me hurting me wanting me to quit and you thought it be easy and it wasn’t now you fuck me up so badly and don’t care and ran like a coward again and move on with everyone else all over again I hope your fucking happy as ever now 

[lifelessons-world]

It’s always funny how time falls you wanna get out right before my birthday week right before the week your birthday is cause let’s be honest you knew I was never going get time with you you knew you were about to spend it all with her you knew it was just a day you planned the first day because you knew it was more after you also knew damn well about everything else you knew you wanted me gone you couldn’t be the bad guy the person to abandon because you can’t handle it but you hurt me till it does and I am gone so you can live guilt free and go out truth is you been doing it all along everything you want at the cost of me for six years six years I truly loved you loved you enough to do anything to save something of us I wanted my friend a friend you wanted nothing and knew I wasn’t important enough hope your happy now and get all the time in the world but you excited for your week now knowing it all for her and you

[lifelessons-world]

The fact you even felt the I do and I don’t and never was honest and then try to say I am sorry you felt this way after six years now you should been up front or even the fact say then you confused if you felt all that you should have spoken up you left me hanging on for nothing for it all to end and you knew you felt this way and I even asked you over and over again to be honest with me the whole time you been finding away out and hurt me the whole time I fought for nothing this didn’t have to hurt or cause me this much problems or my time you took all that from me you knew the whole time what you truly wanted and didn’t and you wanted me gone so you kept making me a bad guy every time so I keep leaving and leaving hoping it stop and I was stupid and you allowed it knowing how you felt and you kept living your life and kept moving on every time not giving a damn about me when you could been forward and still been happy and got what you wanted without hurting me in the process you did know how you felt and you lied you made me a fucking fool clown a god damn joke you took something that was real for me that could been for someone who really wanted it and you could been living happy with your life but no you got what you wanted the whole time over and over again and hurt me and destroyed me I hope your finally happy the longest person to drag me through so much bullshit and have a whole other happy life and played me like a fucking stupid person. What a god damn joke none of it was real it was all selfish and fun to you I told you to be honest if all you wanted was a little fun fine or to sleep together but no you lead me on till you realize fuck I gotta get out and you wreck a damn good person so hope your happy as you just continue your life like nothing happened and showing up for everyone making time for them and so easily and doing all the shit you want to like you said I want to it was just never a want to with me… not even as a friend and that’s the worst of it all I never asked anything but honesty and friendship and you didn’t want either and you kept showing me with your actions and I should been gone long ago you didn’t want me in your life you just didn’t wanna be the one to say it or do it so I can be blame you ghosted me once and that was what you truly wanted you did everything that year you change so much and live everything you wanted you just needed me gone and couldn’t own it sounds like you just needed her and that family to keep going and that’s it forget everyone and everything else can’t have other friends or anything fucking crazy and not right but it’s cool truth out now guess

[lifelessons-world]

Fucking hate liars fucking hate people no saying now your not going pick her up and drive her there after she off you know damn well your leaving your parents as soon as she off and ready and driving her then and back just more lies and more bullshit your constantly do I am fucking so sick of shit god damn

[lifelessons-world]

Just like fucking new years all over again don’t care and going to go and have a great time destroying someone else and not care about everything you done to me

[lifelessons-world]

My heart can’t keep breaking over the same person I am a idk to here and there and then now she going back to showing up for everyone else so after saying what you said now to add the cherry to the top your going with her to see the new baby when she has to be there so you can see her to glad your going be happy and smiling while you fucking destroy me and be there like it’s no problem but if I was to invite you for something na can’t happen this what I am talking about and no problem to show up there though told me or not you didn’t try to fight for you and I your not going out of the way to see me and spend time with me this what I been talking about able to just come and go freely with them where is that with me yeah I am a nobody I am so done now I given everything for you to give everyone else everything I asked for fuck it

[lifelessons-world]

God damn I am sorry I don’t know what I want one minute I do and then don’t yeah only when it comes to me clearly fucking finally words to rip my chest that’s not love or care that’s why you never fought for me now and always push me out and piss me off you wanted me gone but needed me to hang up needed me to walk away god damn