•LIVING LIFE• •WITH LIGHT•

[crystalqueer]

My sister said the birds in her town were acting weird and I was like uh-huh whatever and then she sent pictures and

Now I’m terrified.

[liller]

*whispers* “but look at all those chickenthhhh”

[liller]

How come when I’m single everyone asks why I’m not dating anyone

When I’m not in a relationship/still single after a long time I’m “picky” and “need to compromise

But if I desire companionship/a relationship and are actively looking for someone to do life with I’m “thirsty” or “boy crazy”

[liller]

Well haven’t been on here in ages...

But I just needed a place to rant.

I just had the fifth guy pursue me and treat me like they were interested in dating me and then come to me and be like “yeah....sorry, but I’m actually going to date this other person instead.” Now I know it says more about them than it does me, but I won’t lie, it opened up an old wound and hurt me.  I open my self up, I put myself out there, after spending a week with you, and getting really close and lovey dovey with you. You respond to let me know that you had a conversation last night with a girl you’ve been seeing about going steady. So you basically agreed to go steady with someone else the day after you woke up next to me. You list off other reasons why you don’t think it would work between us, they make sense, but you knew about them before you welcomed and encouraged my intimacy. You wanted me to share my hesitations but mentioned none of your own. You talked about weekend trips and visits and things you wanted to do together in the future, but no, not even 48 hours later you’re going steady with someone else. As if that didn’t sting enough you come at me with “Are you comfortable shifting gears back to being friends? I'd still really like to keep hanging out. Obviously the prioritization would be different, but nevertheless still something I'd like.” Yeah I’m sure you fucking would! You want your cake and you want to eat it too. You want to get everything you want. And you want me to respond and tell you that everything is fine and we can be friends and basically give you a pass and make you feel better about the way you handled things. But you didn’t handle things well. Your actions have consequences and the way you handle things affect people. I want you to sit in that.

And you go with the “Oh I want to make sure you know I really do like you, that was genuine” All that says to me is you’re a selfish ass hole. I’m not worried if you can get your dick hard with me. You liked me but you like this other chick more but because of your “genuine” attraction to me you decided to treat me like you wanted me until you couldn’t anymore cause you were going to “go steady” with someone else? 

Gosh. I hate it. I hate it so much. I’m so tired of dating. I’m actually tired. It’s awful. I want a relationship, I want to get married, I want to have kids. But this whole dating bull shit is bull shit. I know the start of a relationship/dating is exciting and you shouldn’t rush and yadda yadda, but I just wish I could skip this shitty part and just have a stable person in my life to share my time with. I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m exhausted.  Oh, and did I mention tomorrow is my birthday?  I just want to be not mad or upset about this so I can wake up tomorrow and enjoy my birthday fully. I’m in this spot where I know I need to feel it all, take in the emotions and sadness and really feel it so I can move past it. But I also don’t want to dwell on it, and it hasn’t even been 12 hours and I’m already tired of being sad. 

[oakslayy]

if you read it in Miranda Sings voice it’s even funnier

[liller]

What the hell ever happened to being direct? I’ve been hearing more and more about guys “ghosting” girls. These guys will date a girl actively for a few weeks or even a few months and then they will just suddenly be gone. They stop answering calls and texts and just totally shut the girl out without any explanation. WHY? If you’re not interested in going out with someone anymore then SAY THAT!?!? Just tell them! Why don’t people do that anymore?  “Oh she’s gonna tell her friends and they’re gonna say/think I’m a jerk!” Oh boo hoo! That’s literally always how it’s been! Since the beginning of time in different forms. Girl likes guy. Guy likes girl. Girl and guy go out. Girl and guy have fun. Girl tells friends how much fun they had. Guy tells friends how much fun they had. Girl and guy go out again (repeat as necessary.) Guy(or girl or whomever really) loses interest. Guy tells girl. Girl goes to friends and cries (or explains) to friends that he doesn’t want to keep going out. Girl’s friends say he’s a jerk, and “how dare he” “you’re a catch” “I don’t know what his problem is” etc.  Regardless of the decade that’s how it’s been. Except now people don’t do that apparently. Apparently everyone is just too scared to say what they’re thinking. Everyone is/thinks/assumes that the other person is too sensitive to hear it. And cares too much about what people will say/or think. If you don’t want to go out, SAY THAT. It’s actually much worse to just slowly back away, pull a Nick Miller and slowly awkward moonwalk away, and just try to distance yourself with no explanation. Don’t make the other person wonder, are we? aren’t we?  And worse case scenario: they bitch to their friends. Oh well. Is that really the end of the world? It’s been happening for decades and we’ve all survived.

[liller]

So it’s valentines day, At about 3:45 I decide to take a nap, partially cause I’m tired, partially cause I was just cold and wanted to snuggle in some blankets. I’m laying there having existential pre-nap thoughts and I hear something, but again, I’m having existential pre-nap thoughts and am not paying attention. Then suddenly it occurs to me what the sound is....So I pause my thoughts and realize that yes, I was correct. That is fosho my neighbor downstairs getting down with some sexy time. Some very loud sexy time. So I do my best to zone out. A few minutes later the sounds start back up, it’s kinda hard to ignore at this point. I keep laying there trying to get to sleep. Things...uh, finish, I then hear someone get up (apparently the floor/ceiling isn’t very thick, and also this building is like 90ish years old so everything creaks so it’s easy to hear when people move around) and there’s some giggling. The dude walks out to maybe get a glass of water? I don’t know, but then he walks back into the room (I swear I’m not a creep, It just was hard to ignore and easy enough to hear) and I just hear him say

“Oh. My. God. How did the cum get *inaudible*!!!”

I didn’t hear the end of the sentence but WHAT?!?!?! hahahahaha I had to try so hard not to audibly laugh. I don’t know where the cum got but any completion of that sentence is hilarious/disgusting to think about. They also went at it again one more time after that, there was yelling that time. Then they were at it again that night too, again, yelling. The joys of living in an apartment building...you get to know more than you want to about your neighbors lives...

[liller]

How come people are all “women should be able to choose what they do with their bodies” until that choice is to not “put out”/have sex? When it comes to conversations about abortion and rape, that statement is this empowering thing, but then when a woman decides she isn’t going to sleep with someone people quickly jump to making it negative. A woman is a prude, “jeez, yeah, she won’t give him anything!” WHO CARES!? If she doesn’t want to, then she doesn’t want to! I don’t think you should pick and choose when you use that argument. 

[liller]

The handle on my bathroom door tends to stick fairly often, those antique fixtures ya know. I remember that first moment of panic when it happened to me right after moving in, the moment of panic thinking I was locked in the bathroom. Luckily all it needed was a little giggle. In order to save my guests from feeling that panic, I created a little note on the door to let them know what they need to do.

[liller]

So tonight I was at a bar with a friend, it was trivia night. About midway through the trivia a guy leaned over and was looking at our sheet. Seeing as me and my friend were doing a seriously awful job I didn't really care but I jokingly said "bro...bro...bro!" To which he responded "I'm not playing, I actually was going to give you the answer, but if you're gonna be a bitch about it..." I then got very frustrated that he more or less just called me a bitch. All because I called him out for looking over our shoulder while we were playing trivia. We had a bit of a back and forth, I realized that he reacted to me using the word "bro", apologized, but he still was trying to defend him saying that I was "acting like a bitch". Which made me mad. I admitted that I was wrong to assume he was playing and trying to take answers, (not that I would have cared that much) so why couldn't he admit that calling me a bitch was out of line??? I took a few breaths, drank some water. While he was trying to justify himself he mentioned that he was a sci-fi writer (it has bearing on the answer he was going to help us with). So after a pause, I decided to ask him what his favorite sci-fi genre was, and did my very best to be nice and learn a bit about him. I could have just been rude and mean, but I don't know his background. I don't know what female examples he had in his life, so I did what I could to show him that I'm NOT a bitch. And no matter what female figures he's had in his life, I'm not going to help him reinforce the "stigma". It was easier to be nice to him than to continue getting worked up about it. And I learned a bit about sci-fi in the process!

[danyelaux-deactivated20161126]

Milwaukee Mornings with @liller

[liller]

This pic is awesome and I always love time with Danyel!

[obviousplant]

How to tell if fruits and veggies are ripe

[magnetzones]

freshman year vs. senior year

[fatcr0w]

I see you and I raise you

under grad

grad school

and phD

[russianspacegeckosexparty]

I’ll take all of them, thanks Erin

[officialtonistark]

@thoseinfiniteskylines

[biggestflan]

Classic Chester always thinking he’s not in frame

[keroiam]

Crooked in San Francisco

[micdotcom]

You’d think more than a year after this interaction, people would learn to stop asking female cosmonauts sexist questions. And yet, here we are. Russia is sending an all-female group into space — and not only were they just asked how they’d get by without makeup, but what they’d do without men. They shut it down just as quickly.

[yorkinabox]

So this past weekend, on November 8th, Galliday 2.5 was held at the Disneyland Resort here in California. Hundreds of Doctor Who fans showed up and took over the park for a day of fun and running around (and of course lots of Jelly Babies)! Anyway, I happened to be at the event and got this group shot in front of the Sleeping Beauty castle at the big meetup at noon and wanted to share it. The turnout was rather amazing and it was really awesome to be around so many fans!

[liller]

This is like the most impressive group photo I’ve ever seen.

[shmoo06]

Dirty 30 Movie Behind the Scenes Day 3