Hi! I'm a 23-year-old artist and author who's writing a 12 book fantasy series called Multimagical! My professional name is Lillian R.S. but my preferred names are Lian and/or Max. Bi Aspec Genderfluid Transmasc. They/he/she pronouns. Lover of thunderstorms, genuine enthusiast of drowning at sea. I blog about things I like here. I fucking love Alucard. Alucard my beloved.
I thought I'd make a proper introductory post since I want to start actively using my blogs more, rather than just being a lurker. Despite being on this site for YEARS I've never really interacted with other users. I wanna change that!
So, hi! My professional name is Lillian RS, but you can call me Max or Lian. I'm a queer writer who likes to write fantasy. I identify as genderqueer or genderfluid, and use they/he/she pronouns. I'm a bi grayromantic graysexual, but LOVE fictional romance and sex (when it's done well). Just don't touch me IRL for the love of the gods.
⭐️ My art blog: @lillianrs-art
☀️ My photography blog: @lillianrs-pics
🌙 My book series / writing blog: @multimagical
✨️ My whump blog: @whumping-valentine
🌤 My YouTube channel: Lillian R.S.
🌼 My Esty shop: LillianRSart
This blog is my main blog, so I'll have a bunch of miscellaneous stuff on here. If you wanna hear about writing and my book series specifically, check out my Multimagical blog! If you wanna see some personal photography and all of my character art, you know which ones to follow.
Below the cut are some facts about me, as well as all the different things I like, which I will post about here!
Name: Lillian/Lian/Maxwell/Max
Pronouns: They/He/She
Age: 23
Birthday: November 7th
Height: 4'11 :(
Sexuality: Bi Greyromantic Greysexual
Gender: Genderqueer / Genderfluid
INFP-T // Scorpio
Mildly disabled though still very much disabled (I have cerebral palsy)
My favorite colors are navy blue and sea green! :D
My favorite aesthetics are Whimsigoth and Dark Acedemia, as well as anything relating to the Circus, Theater, and the Sea.
My native language is English 🇺🇸 // I know a good amount of French (learning on pause) 🇨🇵
Likes 🌿
Writing, Chess, Musicals, The Ocean, Cats, Pirates, Clowns and Jesters, Circus Vibes, Theater Vibes, Boats, Fantasy/Magic, Rain and wild weather, Language learning, Daydreaming, Music, Collecting sea shells, Traveling, Photography, Digital art, Watercolor, Acrylic Painting, Stickers, Cloudy days, Autumn and Halloween, Butterflies and Moths, The moon, Enemies to Lovers, Lovers TO Enemies! W H U M P !!
Tortured characters (see above), Short, frail characters with scars, glasses, freckles, red hair, dark circles, and buck teeth >>>> All of those are technically considered imperfections but God damn it I fucking LOVE imperfections then!! I'm a slut for anyone who has all of those features. Or any of them.
Dislikes 🚫
Writing, Chess, Direct sunlight, Hot sunny days (though actually I'm coming to appreciate them recently!), My damn anxiety, My height (shortness is only good on OTHER people!!), Stink bugs, Performative people, Cynical people, Cynical discourse, Drama, Cringe culture, Motion Sickness, Man I hate stink bugs.
🌊 Favorite Media 🌊
Highlighted are my BIG big favorites!
⭐️ Shows (Animated): My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic, Gravity Falls, Star vs. The Forces of Evil, The Owl House, Amphibia, Invader Zim!!! + Enter the Florpus, Helluva boss, Hazbin Hotel, The Amazing Digital Circus, Tangled the Series/Rapunzel's Tangled Adventure, She-ra and the Princesses of Power, Invincible, Bojack Horseman, Avatar the Last Airbender, The Legend of Korra, Castlevania, Castlevania Nocturne (I love Castlevania so much it gave me chest pain and I almost went to the hospital. Hector is my meow-meow and I want to marry Alucard have a good day.)
⭐️ Shows (Anime): Beastars, Moriarty the Patriot (slowly building a list)
⭐️ Shows (Live-Action): Squid Game, Breaking Bad, Better Call Saul, Hannibal, The Queen's Gambit, Interview with the Vampire, Wednesday, Young Royals, Bridgerton, The Boys, Gen V
⭐️ Movies: Coraline, Nimona, Wolfwalkers, Song of the Sea, How to Train your Dragon, Tangled, K-pop Demon Hunters, The Last Unicorn
⭐️ Games: The Sims 4, Paralives, Minecraft, Castlevania Franchise, Little Nightmares Franchise, Fran Bow, Little Misfortune, Sally Face, INSIDE, Out of Sight, Subnautica, Dredge, Slay the Princess, Vampire Survivors (HELP), Vampire Crawlers (HELP AGAIN), BLOODMONEY! / Human Expedinture Program, How Fish is Made (specifically for the parasite musical because that shit changed my brain chemistry)
⭐️ Youtubers: Dan and Phil, Markiplier, Jacksepticeye, Drew Gooden, Brandon Rogers, Nick Crowley, James Turner, Kitboga
⭐️ Bands: Twenty one pilots, My Chemical Romance, Get Scared, Of Monsters and Men, The Crane Wives, Mother Mother
⭐️ Books: The Vampire Chronicles (Anne Rice), A Gentleman's Guide to Vice and Virtue (Mackenzi Lee), Anything by William Sleator, and I was also obsessed with the Animal Ark series by Ben M. Baglio as a kid.
⭐️ Things that don't fit into one Category: The Pokémon Franchise, Fairytales, Alice in Wonderland
Am I the only one who enjoyed the final season of The Boys? Like, obviously a lot of writing decisions were questionable and dumb, but I still enjoyed it for what it is, even if it could've been better. People are talking about it like it killed their mother or something lol.
I'm all for well-deserved critique (especially for companies like Amazon) but man, people are ANGRY. I just can't bring myself to care about a TV show that much. Disappointed, sure. Seething? Absolutely not! Closest I got to angry at a TV show was when they killed Gi-hun in Squid Game, but I was more so upset than mad.
My main critique is honestly that they killed Homelander, that was letting him off easy. He should've been forced to live the rest of his life as an average person. THAT is the greatest punishment he could've faced.
THE ONLY CHARACTERS I WANTED TO HAVE A HAPPY ENDING WERE FRENCHIE AND KIMIKO I AM DEVASTATED BRO. IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST CRIED OVER FICTIONAL CHARACTERS HOW COULD THEY DO THIS TO ME PERSONALLY 💔💔
Watched this show coz I was bored and it sounded cool and thought it was maybe a limited series and then they did that awesome cliffhanger and im like aw yeah there's so gonna be more season two is gonna be a fucking banger so I looked it up and the show got fucking canceled. What the fuck. Im so fucking upset right now IM gonna start blowing shit up with my mind wtf man im genuinely gonna cry bro im fucking devastated. One could even say I AM NOT OKAY WITH THIS
I think we got an answer to what causes abstraction????
"I made a program that creates a body perfectly encapsulating their mind files, and they hate those, too!"
So, if I understand, the shape and appearance of the Avatars is due to a program that reflects the User's mind state. Normally, this program would run during the Avatar's creation and be turned off after it.
BUT!!!! What if the Program is constantly running in the background and it never turns off????
If the "mind files" start to deteriorate or diverge from the original files. Let's say.... Having a complete mental breakdown???
I would assume the program would interpret that mental state as something quite... Abstract????
imagine spending your entire life trying to please humans and they're never happy with you. imagine you're born a prototype and you're imperfect and your creators cast you aside in a little box and you break out and still you want to please everyone, but you don't know how to because you're faulty and wrong and bad. and everyone keeps telling you you're bad and faulty, even if they're not your programmers and they don't know you they can still tell and even if you're a god you're still failing. and the day you decide to stop pleasing humans, the moment you snap, they kill you. imagine. this happened to my good friend caine btw
Bruh episode 7 is infinitely harder to watch for me cause Caine had create this whole adventure where these people had the option to ESCAPE just for a section where one of them could interact with him and he KNEW that,
Like Jax is there doing everything Abel told him to do (which I see as Caine telling him to do) asking about hobbies and shit while Caine is EATING this fake interaction up
FOR REAL. If you rewatch episode 7 with the perspective that Caine is speaking through Abel it gets so sad. How he says he watches them from the sidelines. How hard he's trying to get them to sympathize with him while they don't care at all.
Like Caine might be charismatic and seem like he doesn't listen, but it's not true. He really just doesn't GET it. He knows them, he knows kind of what they want and sort of how they feel but due to the limitations of him being an AI he's just not fully there. But he does have genuine feelings, I believe. He's just different. I think it's more so that he's not as naive as he can seem. He can be very smart. I just. Ugh. I love Caine.
OKAY BUT SOMETHING I JUST REALIZED THAT PEOPLE AREN'T TALKING ABOUT...
Ragatha was with other people when she put on the headset???? She was calling out for people and asking for help taking the headset off. WHAT DID THE OTHER PEOPLE SEE? WHAT DID THEY DO? I HAVE QUESTIONS!!
I had a feeling someone was gonna die and I did think Caine was probably gonna get deleted somehow but holy shit it actually happened. Is he gone for real?? I'm deadass about to cry over a fucking FICTIONAL AI. Also lowkey, evil Caine had me simpin'....
Literally I was thinking at the beginning of the episode "Caine's gonna die and then they'll have the circus to themselves and they'll realize they have the power to make it into whatever they want." AND THAT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN??
THERE HAS TO BE MORE THOUGH. LIKE THERE'S STUFF GOING ON WITH CAINE AND FOR HIM TO JUST BE DELETED LIKE THAT WOULD BE ANTI-CLIMACTIC.... CAINE COME BACK TO ME...