Killing me Softly

☁️Content Warning☁️ 🍃Relapsing🍃 ✨I don't condone nor promote EDs✨ This is just a blog for catharsis and unloading all my thoughts, feelings, goals, and awful writing. If I ever reblog your picture pleas PM me so I can delete it. I repost things I find 🌱 Beautiful 🌼 I love you 💕PMs are always open 💕 they/he/One/Xe/Zi/rasp/void/ghoul/god/bog/rot/Fallen/she ✨XXVII✨ |UGW 111lbs|5'5| http://luciferslittledeamon.tumblr.com ✨ my main

[lillucidemon]

I am going to smoke myself into oblivion

[lillucidemon]

I lost two lbs in the past week yesss

YESSSSS

[lillucidemon]

Breakfast::

Coffee with maple & half and half - 206

[littlehorrorshop]

Glorifying the American Girl (1929)

[soft-lovely]

heaven

[lillucidemon]

Dreading mothers day this year.

We've been trying to conceive and the fact that we haven't yet on top of the pregnancy in the past is really getting to me. It feels like a punishment.

It's gotten to me so much that I want to give up and dive headfirst back into this ED

[mariekins]

that euphoric feeling i got when we’re laying in bed and he ran his hand down my stomach and said, “did you get skinnier? ..you got skinnier”

[lillucidemon]

Oh to smoke, scroll, fuck, starve, sleep, and submerge my mind in eternal words etched endlessly in pages and harsh humming screens; all to escape this guttural, gaping, empty experience that is living.

[lillucidemon]

All I want is to be the After to my Before 💔

[lillucidemon]

I forgot how easy it was to lose weight when I'm vegan. 90% of my diet is juat cooked or raw vegetables and fruit the other 10% is fake cheese made from cashews, chickpeas, and vegan icecream.

[stephaniesblogxx]

seduce me

[purebbyfawn]

@/isabellrrose on instagram ♡

[whimsigothwitch-deactivated2026]

Whimsical jewelry

[lillucidemon]

I'm afraid if I talk about my progress everything will crumble and the hungry bitch that slumbers deep within me will make up and devour the Fridge's insides.

[lillucidemon]

Way to be dramatic.

I can't believe myself. Again I let binging eat me whole. The guilt I feel as people starve and die in another country has triggered me to start counting calories again

I know it will stick this time because everything is so damn expensive now. I can't afford to binge or purge or c/s. I can only really afford to restrict at the moment.

My flare ups make me feel even more fucking guilty and useless so I spend all day sleeping when I have them. I want so desperately to be thin. To look adorable and small on my wedding day ( oh yeah I got engaged ). But the wedding won't be for a while, considering the expenses of it.

[lillucidemon]

Honeymoon Phase Incoming

[lillucidemon]

I'm afraid if I talk about my progress everything will crumble and the hungry bitch that slumbers deep within me will make up and devour the Fridge's insides.

[lillucidemon]

I love breaking my fast on burnt pizza because I left it in the oven while hyper focusing.

Mm yum. Crispy failure.