Waiting for someone

Lillian Wrights. That's the name and don't wear it out. I'm the new girl in town. I promise I don't bite, well unless you ask for it. Anyhow, I'm a born werewolf. My father was a wolf and my mother is human. My father died in a car crash so now it's just me and my mom. "When a guy tells me I'm cute, it's not something desirable. Cute is more like what you want your pet to be." [Part of the cantgobackrpg. Not an independent blog. Will not rp with anyone outside of the group.]

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The Call

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He brushed his hand through her hair, “I love you.” He said with a smile.

[lilywrightwolf]

Lily smiled at him. "I love you too, Wolfie." She whispered.

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The Call

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"I’m sure." He said. "You can have your own room for the nights I’m not with you." He said, his arms moving around her.

[lilywrightwolf]

She didn't really like the whole idea of having her own room while living with her Mate, knowing that when she did use that room, it would mean he was with Marissa. Even though, she knew she'd have to deal with the girl always being around, didn't mean she was going to like it. It just gave James more chances to fall in love with Marissa. "Fine." She says softly, nuzzling his neck, trying to get rid of Marissa's scent right now.

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The Call

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"I’ve got money too." He said. "But we should save what we can. You’re renting, I own. I’ve got room to spare in the house. So come live there, and the money that your mom sends we’ll squirrel away."

[lilywrightwolf]

"James." She smiled at him. "Are you sure you want to do that?" She asked softly, moving over to him. She placed herself on his lap, leaning her head against his shoulder. She just needed his touch right now. 

[lilywrightwolf]

Polygamous Pregnancies- Self Para

Being pregnant and in a relationship with a man who was in love with her and another girl was never easy. But they made it work. Marissa and her had sat down and talked about it and decided that they needed it to work. Not for them but for their children. They were the most important things in this moment and in the future. They had to set aside there differences, insecurities and competition for James now.

Whoever said pregnancy was a wonderful thing, was a horrible liar. There was nothing 'wonderful' about throwing up all hours of the day. Losing your stomach because of a certain smell or look of thing.  There was nothing fun about not wanting to move from bed cause you felt like shit. Those were just the downsides. Pregnancy had many upsides as well. he slight flutter in her stomach, reminding her that he baby was in there. Soon enough she began to hear the baby's heartbeat. She had actually broke down crying she she first heard it and called James right away, who freaked out and thought something was wrong because she was crying so much she couldn't speak. His face when he walked in was priceless and she wished she had been video taping it. Which, she actually began to do. The taps ranged from small moments to big things. Almost everything to do with her pregnancy was recorded.

Around her third trimester, James turned Matt. Matt who was in a serious relationship with Olivia. She was happy for her cousin and best friend. Around her fifth trimester, Lily and Marissa had moved in with James, finding it useless to live on their own for the time being. And Lily felt bad for James because if Marissa or her needed him, He was running all over town. It would just be easier if they lived together,in her mind. 

A month later, James decided that it was time they moved and they all agreed so they settled down in Seattle. It was a nice place to live. Each month passed, Marissa and Lily grew bigger and bigger. Lily was due two weeks before Marissa and delivered a healthy baby girl who had James' eyes and her nose.

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The Call

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His blue eyes were soft, “You don’t say.” He teased. “Whatever you choose to do, I’m behind you 100%.”

[lilywrightwolf]

"Don't be a smart ass. This is serious." She huffs, although there is no heat behind it. "I want to keep it." She says softly. "We're graduating in a month and I have enough money to support a baby. It's our baby." She placed a hand on her stomach. Even if she wasn't showing or anything, knowing there was a little person in there, growing and depending on her made her protective. 

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The Call

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She opened the door and he brought himself into her lips and kissed her deeply. He didn’t force it, but just wanted her to know he loved her. He wrapped his arms around her. “I don’t love her more than you. You’re my sun, she’s my moon. You both make my world what it is.”

[lilywrightwolf]

Lily melted into the kiss. Like she did with all of his kisses. She loved him. She sighed, resting her forehead against his. "I hate you sometimes." She says fondly. She had a love hate relationship with the way his words healed things. She pulled away after a moment. "So I may have lied on the the last text." She bites her lip gently

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The Call

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"I’m nearly to your place." He said, he was on foot and just about to her block, "But listen, I really want you to hear this. I’m not like those other guys who said you weren’t good enough. I’m not going to dump you… not now, not in a couple weeks, a couple months, a couple year, not ever. I wish it was cut and dry, but it’s not but that in no way diminishes how much I love you. Not in the slightest." He said before reaching up to knock on her door.

[lilywrightwolf]

"I just don't understand how it's possible to love two people at the same time.  just don't. Because how can you claim to love someone but love another more. It makes no sense to me.' She sighs. "I love you too, James. You know that. Hell, everyone knew before you did." She heard the knock and bit her lip, nerves soaring for some reason. She hung up the phone and walked to the door, opening it. She kept her eyes downcast-ed, not wanting to look at him for a moment. Just enough o collect herself.

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The Call

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He took a breath, “So we need to figure this out.. because I love you. A lot. I know you wanted the bite to be an end all… and for 99.99% of the world it is. People that used to be attractive to me aren’t anymore. She’s the only exception, maybe it’s cause she was pregnant when the bite happened, maybe it’s cause I should be with both of you. I don’t know. But what I do know is that I’m not going anywhere. Not from her and not from you. I’m going to fight like hell for you, because you’re my mate. You’re my alpha female. I’m going to fight like hell for her cause I love her and she’s carrying my child. I’m not going to leave you for her, ever. Maybe… maybe this is my alpha power, being a polyamorous douche…” he said, trying to make her smile. “You’re my future. I don’t know if Marissa is or if she’s my present or what this looks like in five years with her, if her and I are just co-raising our baby or if we’ll still be a thing… but I know down to my core that in five year… in fifty years, you’re still going to be my mate and I’m going to be endlessly in love with you.”

[lilywrightwolf]

Lily bit her lip and sat on her bed as he talked. Tears leaked out of her eyes and she really wihes she wasnt so emotional right now. That she could go back to the girl she was when she first moved out to Beacon Hills. But she wasn't. She was in love, pregnant and had a mate. It was such an odd thing. "You don't know that, James. She's carrying your child. One day you may wake up and look over at me and wish it was her. Maybe one day you'll regret claiming me as your mate and wish it was her. Maybe it one be the next few months. Maybe it'll be years down the line but it still could happen." She sighs, wiping at her face. "Maybe you should come over. We have something we need to talk about that I'd rather be in person for than over the phone."

[axeltellcr]

"Hey, it’s okay." Olivia said, hugging the other girl tightly.

[lilywrightwolf]

'She's pregnant.' She sighed softly. 'Can we just get the tests and Ice cream.'

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The Call

James knew she was lying, even at her best (which this was not) she was much better at it than she was now. He got Marissa home and dialled Lily, needing to talk about this.

[lilywrightwolf]

Lily stared for a solid ten minutes at the tests. What was she going to do. She rubbed absentmindedly at the claiming mark. She had honestly thought this meant he was over Marissa. But she was wrong. Maybe the whole point of claiming, was exactly that, just claiming. It's not a declaration of love or monogamy. No, maybe it was just a claim of-this is mine, you can not touch.That is was okay for him to sleep around but anyone dare touch her and they were sure to die. Maybe that's all claiming was. Bullshit.

She saw James' name flash across her screen. If she didn't answer he'd just show up. She grabbed at the phone, answering it while wiping her face. She knows her voice sounds a little hoarse. "Hello?"

[lilywrightwolf]

[lilywrightwolf]

Text - Lily & James

James: I love you both. It's just a fact of my life. If she was a wolf, maybe I would've mated with you both. Who knows? Wolves and Coyotes can't mate so we'll never know.

James: I'd die for both of you. I'd rip myself in half for both of you. I'd do anything for both of you.

-Small delay-

James: So doctor just came.

James: She's pregnant.

James: Whatever she wants to do, don't convince her otherwise. It's her decision, just like if you're pregnant it's your decision too.

James: I'm going to do right by both of you.

Lily: ....right.

-long delay after the text confirming Marissa's pregnancy. She broke down in Olivia's arms. She wanted to be James only. Thought she'd be the only one to mother his children. She was wrong. The timer had set off and Lily steeled herself to look at the three pregnancy tests. Positive. Three positive pregnancy tests stared back at her.-

Lily: Nope. Not pregnant. Uh. I have to go.

[lilywrightwolf]

Text - Lily & James

James: Will you stop making it a fucking competition for Christ's sake?

James: I know you told her, after I told you not to. You had to rub it in her face.

James: If you actually did love me at all, you'd care that I'm freaking the fuck out right now and you wouldn't be so goddamned selfish about this whole thing.

James: She's part of my pack. Even if she was pregnant to someone else, it would be my problem.

James: I just really can't believe you right now.

James: Let's make this all about you right now. Fuck how anyone else feels about this. It's all about Lily.

-Lily stared down at her phone. She didn't want to always make this a competition but it felt like it was. She already lost James once to the other girl. She just didn't want to lose him again. Maybe it was her insecurities that always got in the way-

Lily: Really? If I loved you at all?

Lily: And I tried not telling her! I tried to hide the damn mark, James! I did. But she kept asking and I told her and I felt horrible. I saw the look on her face and I felt horrible. Maybe it makes me a horrible person. Maybe I am just a horrible person. And I apologized about that. Many time already!

Lily: ....Look. I'm sorry. You're right. I'm being selfish. Did the doctor come back and tell you anything yet?

-Lily and Olivia sat in the bathroom as she texted him. Staring down at the three pregnancy tests on the skin. She still had four more to take if she wanted but she settled on the three right now.-

[lilywrightwolf]

Text - Lily & James

James: Seriously? You know what. Fuck you right now.

Lily: Really James? Do you not understand how I'm feeling about this?

Lily: I thought I was done with competing with her. Guess I always will be huh.

Lily: Forget it. It's not like you would understand my point of view. I'll talk to you later.

[lilywrightwolf]

Text - Lily & James

Lily: Well, we don't know if I'm pregnant or not. It's a damn stick, James. I have to pee on it first. There's no point in you being there for that.

Lily: Olivia and I are going to make a Girl's Day out of it anyway. Pregnancy tests, ice cream and movies.

Lily: It's fine. Stay with her. Since you couldn't even tell me that she might be.

Lily: btw how many baby mamas are we looking at?

[axeltellcr]

"Hey," Olivia said, walking over to Lily and giving her a hug. "If could just be a false alarm. There’s nothing to worry about, okay? The claiming bite happened after James and Marissa did the do, so there’s a good chance that it has changed things. Don’t stress, okay? We’ll go get a test, some ice cream and then we can have a girls night, okay?"

[lilywrightwolf]

Lily hated this. She hated that she still felt like Marissa had a hold on James. Things should be different. The claiming bite should have made it all disappear, but it seemed like she couldn't be that lucky. What would she do if Marissa was pregnant? What if James spent time with her and their baby and fall in love with her. What if he wanted to leave her? Lily didn't want to go through that. Didn't want to even think of it, it hurt so bad. Lily hugged Olivia back. "I don't know what I'll do if she's prenat." She whispered, brokenly. She wiped at her eye, sihing softly. "Okay. I may have told him not to come by already."

[axeltellcr]

"We can go to the drug store now if you want. Get it out of the way and stuff." Olivia suggested. "The sooner you know the better." She said with a nod. "Get used to it."

[lilywrightwolf]

"We need to add ice cream and movies to that list." She told Olivia, staring down at her phone before tossing it back int her bag. "James is with Marissa at the clinic, waiting for the results of her pregnancy test." She told the other sadly, staring down at her hands. "Is it bad that I don't want her to be pregnant with James' baby. I thought..I thought now that--with the claiming-- we--I wouldn't have to worry about him and Marissa. But maybe I was wrong." Tears gathered in her eyes God, what was wrong with her? Why was she getting so upset?