@sharky-the-idiot my brilliant, wonderful platonically betrothed. you're so sweet and funny, it's always such a pleasure talking with you and you've been an absolutely amazing friend over the months i've known you. master of roping me into aus, drinker of chocolate gravy, a phenomenal listener. thank you for always being there to just,, listen to me. keep being your perfect self <3
@goldmoth82 one of my first mutuals, you've been both a friend and an inspiration to me over the years. you're simultaneously so sweet and one of the most talented writers i've ever known. one of my fondest memories is being too stressed to sleep one night, then checking my emails to see one of your gorgeously detailed comments on smth i wrote. i then grinned like an idiot, reread it for an hour & suddenly felt so much better than i had before. thank you for keeping together our tiny fandom with me, and for all of your many kind words. it means more than i can put into words [[:
@acacia-may your takes are brilliant, you're genuinely the most polite person i've ever met online. you're a hero fan for the ages with an astounding knack for analysis, and i smile so hard every time i see you reblog something i post. thank you for sharing your beautiful writing and interpretations! :D
@snarky-wallflower your aus are so intriguing, and messaging you is always such a blast! one of my very favourite mutuals in the hatchetfield side of tumblr, all of your recommendations are spot on, and it's so fun to share fandoms with you! thank you for indulging my silly little keysmashes & word vomits :)))
@weltato you're such a lovely person, and it's so so nice to be reminded after longgg days of school that people can, in fact, be decent human beings! exchanging snippets of an au we fleshed out on the fly has provided such a beautiful array of emotions, and i just want you to know how absolutely awed i am at your writing ability. thank you for generally just being here; i always love seeing you on my dash <3<3
@weedkillercentral what started out as ominous messages about the voices in your head, the moon sparing me, and a collection of updates on the status of your legs has gradually evolved into the weirdest friendship i've ever had, and i'm loving it. thank you for always being there to read & comment on my works, and for making me laugh so much over the years :]]]
@inprisonforsparkling i know we don't talk often anymore, but you're still such a fun person to chat with both in comments and dms! your contribution to the hatchetfield fandom has been glorious and immense, and you're definitely in my top 3 favourite writers for its community. i also found out today that you're into ace attorney? that's sick! thank you for all our little conversations; i hope you're doing well :))
@canadianketchup thank you for being such an awesome fandom friend!! i've known you for so long & i should rlly let you know how much i appreciate you more often. you're a wonderful person and i'm proud to call you my friend. thank you so much for tagging me!! :D
there are so so many more but it's nearly 2am and i'm tired as heck. i'm not a person with many irl friends, i haven't been in years, but it's people like you who make tumblr and ao3 such lovely places to be in. these spaces are comforting, they're safe, they're full of some of the kindest people i've ever spoken to. i used to be so nervous talking to anyone or posting anything online, and while lots of that still hasn't gone away entirely, it's so freeing to be allowed to just,, stay away from my life for a while, and enjoy being part of a community with others all over the world. there's just something so nice about being lilac for a while, about having all of these people who care that i exist. i don't need to have met you in real life, i don't need to maintain the persona i've accidentally cultivated around everyone who knows me when i'm talking to you all. i'm not uptight or awkward or detached, or quiet or untouchable or perfect, or an ideal or a joke or a disappointment. i'm allowed to be as not normal as i like, to show stories i'm proud of and get the most wonderful feedback, to have people that i can just talk to without any fear of judgement or rejection. other people like the same things that i like, and will exchange engaging thoughts and inspiring ideas and incredible analyses and masterpieces of fanart on them with me. other people like me. these past few years haven't been the easiest, i'll admit that much, but getting to know all of my lovely mutuals has made up for it tenfold. so thank you. thank you all for being here, for taking the time to talk to me, for being as wonderful as you are. thank you for being my friends <3
