This is meant to be a brief vent of my current situation as well as an explanation of why I haven’t posted much art in the last few months.
A fair number of asks have asked me how I have been. And unfortunately, my honest answer is… not good.
My overall situation is not okay.
I won’t go into details, but the current place I live in is a toxic environment and has contributed a lot to my mental illness, and it has been getting worse. Before the pandemic, I would usually be able to escape it most of the day elsewhere. But my places to escape to haven’t been an option in a long time. At least not without the anxiety of infection despite being vaccinated.
The best option for my situation would be to move out of where I live. One problem. Most of the places that are close enough to where I work are too expensive for what I’m currently making while getting health coverage. And I don’t have my own car, so transportation is also a problem.
My job currently has me getting up at 5 AM, and I finish by 4-5 PM. I have been dealing with insomnia for a while, which has been feeding my mental illness. But the morning shift is where the manager has put me since June because nothing else is available. So, the situation with work hours is not optimal either.
Because my current job doesn’t compensate me enough to move, I need to find a new job that would pay more.
I have been job hunting for a month now. And it hasn’t been very successful.
I ended up having two breakdowns this past month because of everything. I felt like what was left of my sanity was being eaten away.
… It has gotten hard to get into drawing consistently over the last few months… or anything else in the last few weeks, really.
Yes, this includes Transformers.
I don’t think I’m in any immediate danger, some days are better than others, but the overall situation is still not good. I need therapy, but I haven’t had the time to really look.
I’m sorry, but the Little Archivist blog is going to have to go officially on Hiatus till I get my shit together… or at least somewhat together.
I’m planning to ask my manager to give me some time off soon so I can have some free time just to lighten the load for a bit.
Here’s hoping things get better soon…