Livin' the Spoonie Life :)

Anne. Punk Rocker. Metal Head. Animal Lover (specifically cats). INFP. Ravenclaw. In DBT for Borderline Personality Disorder. Spoonie. Amateur photographer. Amateur musician (it's a hobby). Knitter. Painter. Stress Doodler. Rock painter. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, and Sjogrens when I was in my 20s (I'm 30 now...hello old in Tumblr years! But I like it here...). I now have been diagnosed with Osteoarthritis, disc degeneration, and peripheral neuropathy. This is my story.

[youtubersarelife23]

Hey, something for y'all to remember.

Proof that this shit is true

These dudes know what the hell they’re talking about. Take the time to think about yourself today.

[welcome-to-white-castle-bitch]

some motivational jokers to help you through your day

[littlemissanne]

Stronger

You are stronger than A hurricane and the rain Falling from the sky

- A.P

[littlemissanne]

Sharing Stravinsky because this relaxes the fuck out of me. I love classical music, punk rock, and heavy metal. Those are my chill out music. I wanted to share this because it helped inspire some poetry. 

Here are the track listings: 

( PART I The Rite of Spring ) (0:00 - Introduction First Part - A Kiss of The Earth )                                          

 (3:40 - The Augurs of Spring )

 (7:08 - Ritual of Abduction )                                          

 (8:26 - Spring Rounds )                                    

 (11:49 - Ritual of the Rival Tribes )                                             

 (13:46 - Procession of the Oldest and Wisest One )                                         (14:31 - The Dancing Out of the Earth ) ( PART II The Rite of Spring )

 (16:20 -  Introduction Second Part - The Exalted Sacrifice )

 (20:42 -  Mystic Circles of the Young Girls ) 

(24:06 -  The Naming and Honoring of the Chosen One )

 (25:40 -  Evocation of the Ancestors) 

(26:33 -  Ritual Action of the Ancestors ) 

(30:11 -  Sacrificial Dance )).

  ( The Firebird ) 

(35:04 - Introduction ) 

(38:28 (I TABLEAU) The Enchanted Garden Kastchei ) 

(38:56 - Appearance of the Firebird - Pursued by Prince Ivan ) 

(39:12 - Dance of the Firebird )

 (41:02 - The Firebird - Supplications)

 (45:35 - The Princesses' Game with the Golden Apples ) 

(48:09 -  Sudden appearance of Prince Ivan 

(49:34 -  The princesses' Khorovod - Round Dance )

 (54:20 -  Infernal Dance of All Kashchei's Subjects ) 

(59:02 -  Lullaby The Firebird ) 

(1:02:43 (II TABLEAU) Disappearance of Kastchei's Palace and Magical Creations, Return to Life of the Petrified Knights, General Rejoicing )). 

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In My Skin

I feel happiest in my skin When I’m covered with clothes It’s a struggle for me to love myself I always feel closed

Closed off Shut off To the world I am me But to me I am lost

When I write I am free My soul is pure and white White is the color of angels I only wish I could fly

The truth is within It must be set free I just want to win I want to be me

- A.P

[princessofnewcorona]

The last thing I’m gonna say @ the critics is that: when it was first released, My Big Fat Greek Wedding was panned by critics. That still didn’t stop it from becoming the highest grossing rom-com in history (a record it still holds TO THIS DAY) and a beloved movie for many, myself included (screenshot from MBFGW writer and star Nia Vardalos)

So fuck them critics and their elitist, bullshit reviews!!!

[libraryspectre]

This is truly the best romcom because instead of relationship drama the story is about how wild her family is

[littlemissanne]

I love the movie so much! 

[ojibwa]

[catchymemes]

[aeliad]

HI LET’S SHARE NICOLE’S WORDS ON THE SUBJECT! 

It has been literal years but every time I see Martin’s tweets posted somewhere and his word is shared as truth while her post is not shared it sort of reiterates the fact that we trust men to speak about feminism more than we believe women who experience it. 

Interesting, innit? https://medium.com/@nickyknacks/working-while-female-59a5de3ad266

[wiseacrewhimsy]

Reading her account of how their boss treated her blows me away. Men are so emboldened that they will literally admit to illegal discrimination casually and face no consequences.

[the-geek-cornucopia]

In all the years of seeing this post I’ve never seen a link to her side. Didn’t even know she’d written one.

[pluts04]

Adding screenshots of her post. His whole post is there without needing a link. Hers should be, too.

Also, she posted this is 2017! It’s fucking 2020 and I’ve seen his side of this for years, but it took 3 years for her side to make its way to my dash…

[eraemx]

As someone that has grown up surrounded by beaches and done surf life saving, I know how the sea works. Lots of people dont. Every summer multiple tourists die here because they don’t respect the sea, if you’re going to the coast, here’s a thing I saw on Facebook.

[i-amneveralone-deactivated20201]

wow.

[robotsandfrippary]

reblogging for all of us that grew up in land locked states, then visit the ocean and are used to just plunging into a lake.

[foxy-voxy]

All of this applies to Lake Michigan, as well. The rips aren’t as big, but they do happen. We lose tourists every year.

[thatsbelievable]

[torgan]

going to begin using #3 AT ONCE

[littlemissanne]

I’m using 1 from now on xD

[inspiration-and-motivation]

Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak. Sometimes it means you are strong and smart enough to let go and move on.

[littlemissanne]

I always consider it more “letting go” and moving on than giving up. Giving up (to me) feels more judgmental (I’m in DBT so I’m trying to let go of self judgement). 

[huffpost]

19 Men Go Shirtless And Share Their Body Image Struggles

The fruitless quest for a “perfect” body isn’t unique to women,  though based on the body image conversations we tend to hear, it’s easy to think so.

Spoiler alert: Men have body insecurities, too, and that’s nothing to be ashamed of.

Photos by: Damon Dahlen via The Huffington Post

[witchboywitchboywitchboy]

No shade. This is important. Boys need and deserve their own emotional understanding, but as usual not a single one of them was largely fat. I recognize a lot of people identify with the struggles of fat folx but to clearly have like no representation above maybe, what 250lbs? (And that’s generous) is just another sigh and slight for me @ 300+ lbs trying to navigate being amab in a fat phobic queer world where if you’re unfuckable or not famous, no amount of (admittedly amazing) lizzo self love is going to save you from society’s expectation of a sexually available, and in turn loveable, person. I really hope people reblog this part.

[magebird-old]

Body positivity must start to include all bodies and genders. The positivity in the original post is a step in the right direction, words that absolutely need to be said, but the entire conversation needs to be broadened to fit us all.

[dailypositivitystar]

you deserve to feel joy

[raydrawsdaly]

HAPPY DISABILITY AWARENESS MONTH!

[minuty]

[littlemissanne]

I walk through the valley, A shadow of what I was To start the battle - "Battle Scars" - A.P

[littlemissanne]

If My Body Could Talk

If my body could talk it would say It’s over now You are safe.

You need to come home You need to trust people You need to let people in.

I never let people in. I fear intimacy. I fear sex.

I don’t want to be hurt again. I don’t want to be violated again. I don’t want to be weak and helpless again.

The idea of letting someone inside me terrifies me Because I don’t have control Because I don’t know for sure if that person is safe. 

It’s terrifying letting someone in Telling them my deepest secrets.

I don’t want to hurt them. I don’t want to hurt anyone.

What if I offend them? What if I am rejected for telling the truth?

You need to come home

You need to trust people

You need to let people in.

- A.P

[littlemissanne]

Aromatherapy

My mom brought these home from Walmart. I have to admit...they are some of my favorite scents. I also have Sandalwood, rose, jasmine, eucalyptus, linen, and others. Lavender, rose and jasmine really relaxes me. Lavender puts me right to sleep, I’ve noticed. Lilac is a soothing and relaxing scent.

I know, I know...aromatherapy has limited results from studies...but I am on medication and in therapy. It was actually my DBT leaders who turned me onto aromatherapy.

How did it happen?

Mindfulness. For one of our mindfulness sessions, we smelled different scents. I noticed that some really relaxed me. We had to describe the scents to the class. It was quite fun. Also, there was one where we had to describe tastes...but that’s for another time.

I’ve been spraying different scents on my pillow while I do work and ice my throbbing neck (nothing has really helped my neck inflammation but ice and prednisone). So sue me if I want to find something to relax me while I wait to hear from my doctor and wait to finally be able to get tests done. Because without the prednisone I throw up from the pain...and when I’m in pain I can’t work...which is a bummer because I want to work so badly. I miss it...strangely enough.