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Spoonie, Bookworm, Gamer, Married Demisexual

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Family Pets

Near Solitude I had need of a horse, and was told I could purchase one from a local farm. There I met a young stable boy, an orphan after his parents died fighting for the Empire. The farm’s owners were kind enough to feed him in exchange for work but simply didn’t have the room to provide the type of home he needed. I, on the other hand, had a home in Whiterun all to myself. Without a second thought I offered to take him home. I would be gone long hours (even days) at a time, but he would have shelter from the cold rain, a soft bed, and food always. He accepted, so I gave him a key and saw him on a carriage before continuing my journey on horseback.

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I kept dreaming that I got up to take my medication, and then getting frustrated that it wouldn't kick in. Finally got up for real.

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Buying your OTC meds three bottles at a time, one for your desk, one for your purse, and one for your night stand.

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Relax If You Dare

The last two weeks for my body have been bad. BAD bad. I spent at least a month's worth of spoons in 5 days on a project with a deadline. Then I did more stuff almost every since. As a consequence my ability to sleep, and for how long, has been all over the place.

Today wasn't too bad as far as holidays go since it was only me, my mom, my little sister, and my husband. But I still had to be "on" to a certain extent from an introvert's perspective. Being around my husband is often considered as alone time in terms of energy consumption. My mom and little sister are great, and not nearly as draining as most others, but being around them does still take some extra energy.

I feel like I'm rambling.

Back to the point. I came into my bedroom and began to decompress. I took my night meds, I changed into pajamas, I felt like an alien sheading her human skin at the end of the day. Ahhh.

Oh no, my body can't have that. You think you are going to relax? You think you are going peacefully drift off to sleep? I don't think so. On goes the switch for the one symptom lying down makes worse. Ugh.

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Your Face Or Mine

My husband and I are watching a British game show called Your Face Or Mine. The premise is a real life couple comes on and judges the attractiveness of themselves and others. The audience is also polled, and if the couple agrees with them they win money.

It is hilarious how bad I am at this show! I thought I could "fake it" but apparently not lol. I've gotten a couple right, but those are ones where 80-95% of the audience voted the same way. Some of the winners are super confusing to me. Don't tell anyone, but I also don't get what the big deal is about Idris Elba. 🙊

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Rare Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Movie Poster With Pixie & Neville | eBay

Rare Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Movie Poster With Pixie & Neville | Entertainment Memorabilia, Movie Memorabilia, Posters | eBay!

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A Cry for Help

I am not suicidal, I am not a drug addict, but it would be so easy to overdose. "God doesn't give you more than you can handle" is nothing but fiction, whether you're religious or not. There is only so much pain a person can take. It has only been 3 hours since my last dose and I can't concentrate on anything but the pain. Surely taking one early couldn't hurt? I'm only supposed to take one but I hurt so freaking much, maybe two will allow me to function. Sometimes when you're in that much pain, you can't think straight. I have this bottle in my hand, did I already take it or was I about to? 10 minutes goes by and the pain continues so I decide I must not have taken yet. But what if I did? All I want is for the pain to go away. I don't want to die. But the safe daily dose isn't sufficient.

(I am on a medication to dissolve bone spurs which is a painful process. I have decided to pause treatment and give myself a break. These were the thoughts that led to that decision.)

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The description of this pair of hair cutting shears give me life! 🤣🤣🤣

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Why do antibiotics have to be so huge? You'd think they'd just tell you to take two smaller ones. I am a pro at pill taking so how do novices even do it? Of course they are tablets as well, rather than capsules. So they can start dissolving in your throat while you choke on them. The disgusting taste just lingers there what seems like forever, or at least until your next dose.

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I. Hate. Restless. Leg. Syndrome!

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Chronic illness is starting to do laundry about 6pm and still doing it at 4am. It is having to take a break after sorting the clothes into their two loads, because all the bending and standing back up made you light headed. It is having to take a nap in between loads one and two. It is wearing the same clothes for three days so you don't have to do laundry as often. It is making every little thing so hard you just want to cry.

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Just threw up. Why? Who knows. Didn't even feel nauseous until about 30 seconds before. Couldn't have been something I ate because the only thing I've had is a bottle of ensure. Still made it to the toilet though!

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I don’t know how, but I completely forgot to take all of my meds last night.

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So glad today is over! I've felt kinda dizzy and lightheaded since this morning and just all around off. And I've gotten the hiccups like four times? I don't know if that is related to missing my meds but it's super annoying.

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I don't know how, but I completely forgot to take all of my meds last night.

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hi! my name is lauren. over the past two years i have developed seizures that are triggered by stress and by my panic disorder. i have lived two years without any support for my seizures, and i have been looking into training my own seizure alert dog. however, i do not make the funds to get a dog whatsoever besides monthly costs such as food and toys. the $2000 will go towards adoption fees, initial basic needs for the dog, vaccinations, and spay/neuter if needed. if you can help, please do. even a share will help.

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My dogs are not trained service dogs but they are so important to my health! Please help if you can.

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If going to bed crying wasn't bad enough, now I've got snot all over my pillow.

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I Did A Thing

We are hoping to move across the county in the late spring/early summer. Due to finances we are bringing hardly anything with us, so we've started the process of selling what we can and donating/throwing away what we can't. In our bedroom we've got a shelf from one end of a wall to the other filled with mostly Harry Potter memorabilia. Then there are two more shelves staggered on the wall, each about a third of the length of the room. Some HP stuff, some I Love Lucy stuff, picture frames, nicknacks.

Today I went through the lowest shelf and sorted it into keep, toss, sell/donate. It took about an hour and a half. I wasn't able to get anything else done because that used up all my spoons. I'm probably going to take a spoon penalty tomorrow.

I've got about 15 things on my hashtag boss babe to do list between my YouTube channel, Spreadshirt shop, and leggings affiliation. There are not enough hours in the day, let alone spoons, when you sleep for 10-20 of then.

At least my sister has agreed to take the stuff down from the other two shelves so all I have to do is sort.