hi

[liveforlustandintrigue]

well hello my tumblr friend

It always comes back to you..

When I’ve ignored all my friends, essentially pushing them away.. 

This is the only place I can come to and just... vent freely. 

So due to quarantine and being stuck at home with mom, I haven’t picked up a new cartridge for my pen meaning I haven’t got a good high in days.. that’s tough for me. 

I haven’t had a good drink in some days.. 

all to say that I’ve felt miserable, irritated, depressed, frustrated, self-loathing, all the negatives you can think of. 

I finally decided to order some wine for delivery. and it’s great

but i can’t help to still feel kind of pathetic for blowing my friends off due to a depressive episode... they probably don’t care about me now or are irritated.

it’s fine, i understand i can’t just make things on my own time.. although i never complain when other people change plans. 

but they tried to reach me all morning. and i knew they would.. but i still went MIA. that doesn’t seem so nice.

I texted one friend “apologizing” but it was probably more just talking about me. and i haven’t heard back so it’s likely she doesn’t care about my shit, or maybe she knows i’m fine now so she doesn’t need to worry longer and doesn’t see a need to reply now. 

Sigh. 

Well, I have some wine in me and can tolerate life a little better now??  

[just-shower-thoughts]

“Social distancing” is probably going to be a Cards Against Humanity card.

[marst-n]

Stuck at home? Here’s an isolation survival post:

(Everything here is free to use! Feel free to add on. Links were purposefully broken to avoid Tumblr’s spam prevention.)

Social:

discordapp.com/ - Like Skype but better, more accessible, smoother, and with more features. Call, play games, and chat with friends.

twitch.tv/ - Watch and chat with people doing everything from gaming to cooking to teaching.

Reading:

whichbook.net/ - helps you find what book to read

overdrive.com/ - Free audiobooks through your public library

standardebooks.org/ebooks/ - Free ebooks

rbdigital.com/ - Free audiobooks and ebooks through your public library

Movies:

www.kanopy.com/ - Free movies through your public library

www.ted.com/ - Watch lots of educational and inspiring talks

Hobbies:

join.skillshare.com/ - Learn how to do virtually anything with 2 free months of premium

scratch.mit.edu/ - Make a game or movie, super easy to use, good introductory programming “language”

gimp.org/downloads/ - Free photoshop-like program.

twinery.org/ - Make a text-based game

pixologic.com/sculptris/ - make 3D models

unity.com/ - Make a 3D game

yoyogames.com/gamemaker - make a 2D game

spotify.com/us/ - Listen to music

travelandleisure.com/attractions/museums-galleries/museums-with-virtual-tours - Museums with virtual tours

Dungeons and Dragons: (play over Discord!) (DM me if you want PDFs of the Handbooks)

probablybadrpgideas.tumblr.com/post/612459866001391616/basic-rules-for-dungeons-dragons-dungeons - The Basics

entertainment.howstuffworks.com/leisure/brain-games/beginners-guide-dungeons-and-dragons.htm - Learn to play

roll20.net/ - Make maps/play online

Video Games:

itch.io/ - play hundreds of games

freegameplanet.com/ - Even more free games!

dolphin-emu.org/ - Play Gamecube and Wii games

Phone Apps:

sourceforge.net/projects/gameboid/ - Play gameboy games

smartphones.gadgethacks.com/how-to/10-must-play-free-puzzle-games-for-iphone-android-0178848/ - list of puzzle games

Cooking:

fridgetotable.com/ - Input ingredients you have and get recipes you can make.

youtube.com/user/DepressionCooking - Learn how to cook with limited ingredients from a lovely old woman who lived during the Great Depression

butterwithasideofbread.com/homemade-bread/ - Make bread with yeast

letsdishrecipes.com/traditional-irish-soda-bread/ - Make bread without yeast

Other tips:

Take care of yourself (eat well, shower often, wear clean clothes, exercise, clean your space)

Talk with people

Do what makes you happy

Take time away from screens

Play – with your pets, your kids, your friends. Keep yourself active and busy and happy.

[preschooldr0pout]

[liveforlustandintrigue]

note to self..

[josiahkelevra]

[thingsiwanttheworldtoknow]

You are not wasting your therapist’s time.

You are not faking it for attention.

You are not using up services that other people need more.

You deserve help.

[theseinfeldshow]

[artistformerlyknownasbutttrumpet]

us government be like

[mattrnurdock]

[the1920sinpictures]

1920′s Diamond, pearl and aquamarine choker which converts to a brooch. From Art Deco, Avant Garde and Modernism, FB.

[catchymemes]

[kristenbouchard]

bitches will bring a million things to do on a train ride or long car trip and then spend the entire time looking out the window and daydreaming. i’m bitches

[thisac]

[mockingbirdie]

do you ever just sit around and think I’m in my twenties.

[liveforlustandintrigue]

deadass

bottle n all

[ojalla]

[scundered]

some kid just skateboarded down my street crying

[isnt]

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