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29.

I am turning 29 when all there is is space.

We leave each other a radius if we encounter each other at all. For the second time in our years together I am confined to the space within these walls and some days there is more than enough and some days it is too small, even for little me.

I am getting used to space in calendar squares, space to breathe. I am making space in my heart for a new…

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Two years ago today I was coming home from the hospital. Crutching my way from the car and up 16 steps to my apartment was the hardest and most exhausting thing I’ve ever done.

One year ago today I randomly decided to try OkCupid after not having any luck with it for the past four years. I sent a message to this kid named Alex who liked burritos and loved Jesus.

Today I’m flying to…

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2020: Simplicity

I loved having a word rather than a resolution for 2019.

Ok full disclosure: I had a word and half of a resolution. The word was hope. The half of a resolution was that I deleted the calendar app from my phone.

I call it half a resolution because there wasn’t a goal. I just wanted to see what would happen. Here is what happened:

I spent too much money on paper planners because I didn’t…

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a thrill of hope (2019)

A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices…

My word for 2019 was “hope”.

I didn’t really celebrate New Year’s Eve last year. In theory, it should be a day to celebrate a fresh start and good things to come. For me, as I ate Chinese food on my couch in the glow of my Christmas lights, it was a night to pack 2018 up in my closet and shut the door. Tight.

Four days into the year I listened…

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on God revealing his faithfulness through WordPress

I’ll be honest with you, internet: it is the day before a long weekend and I cannot focus on anything.

Every so often I look at my old blog. Just for fun. Just to remember the things I was thinking and feeling.

Today was the day for that.

I was blogging mostly during the most transitional, wild year of my life. I was surprised every day with things that God gave to me and…

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the audacity.

Apparently I only want to blog when I’ve been listening to podcasts, based on the inspiration for my last post.

I was listening to some Christian podcasters today talking about dating and singleness, and they said a phrase that resonated so much that I wrote it on a sticky note to put above my computer:

the audacity to hope and to be content.

There is not a better way to sum up what I’ve…

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here's to hope.

here’s to hope.

I ~literally~ could not write a 2018 year-end post. (read this as Chris Traeger).

I tried. I tried for about a month. I wanted to sum up the year, but why? What would the point be? Every iteration of a 2018 year-end post was either honest (2018 was unforseeably and almost unbearably difficult) or dishonest (2018 wasn’t super but look at all these cool things that happened and how much…

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where the heart is

We got our first big snow in Syracuse last night. I woke up to sounds of the maintenance people scraping the sidewalks with their shovels.

I’ve moved around a lot ever since I went to college in the fall of 2009. I haven’t stayed in one place for more than a year. I moved to 4 years of college housing and then couldn’t ever settle for long enough after that.

Until now.

This is a post of…

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the end of the season

“Can I tell you about the first time I wore them?”

Abel says yes as he puts my duck boots on the table because I think he would’ve said yes to anything I asked him in that moment just to keep me calm.

The first time I wore my duck boots was on Easter weekend 2016. I had gotten them on clearance at the end of the season because I was becoming a pro at Syracuse winters. They arrived in the mail on…

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miraculous. It's November. It's starting to get cold out, and we're all doing that thing where we bundle up now but the same temperatures in March will have us in T-shirts and shorts.

back to life, back to sense

It’s probably due to the fact that finally living alone meant that I could finally actually relax in the mornings on my own schedule, but as soon as I moved into my first place I was never happier than when I was sitting on my couch with a cup of coffee or tea, watching Netflix or talking on the phone with a friend. Especially on weekend mornings, when I would have a little time before rehearsal…

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the triumphant return.

I haven’t blogged in….a hot second. (almost two years)

Quick recap of the past two years: got really involved in theatre. got a new job. left new job to go back to old job. made a bunch of really awesome friends and a handful of the kind of lifelong, best friends I didn’t think I needed to make anymore. moved. got a dog.

Fell and broke my leg in January and time stood still for awhile.

The past…

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