ethel cain x half man edits masterlist
.˳˳. inbred .˳˳.
.˳˳. ptolemaea .˳˳.
.˳˳. waco, texas .˳˳.
.˳˳. homecoming .˳˳.
.˳˳. tempest .˳˳.
.˳˳. nettles .˳˳.
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Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her

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let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
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Love Begins
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PR's Tumblrdome
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One Nice Bug Per Day

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ethel cain x half man edits masterlist
.˳˳. inbred .˳˳.
.˳˳. ptolemaea .˳˳.
.˳˳. waco, texas .˳˳.
.˳˳. homecoming .˳˳.
.˳˳. tempest .˳˳.
.˳˳. nettles .˳˳.
SAS: Rogue Heroes | 1.03 | 2.05 |
i do think everyone should be allowed to play toys however they want but sometimes it's just so frustrating to watch people do it wrong
By John Everett Millais
i find it interesting how we never got an adult ruben sex scene
from a writing perspective, it’s understandable: we see what Niall sees, and he obviously isn’t there for these moments.
not directly what the ask is about, but I do wonder if Ruben is actually quite bad at sex. he doesn’t really strike me as a man who cares that much about women’s pleasure, to be honest. obviously I might be completely wrong, and we don’t really have enough information to say either way, but that’s just the impression I get from him. he seems much more interested in sex as something that proves something about himself — that he’s masculine, experienced, in control, whatever — than as something that requires him to pay attention to the other person. it might have been enough when his partners were twentish but come on.
and then there’s his own sexual trauma, which just can’t not affect the way he approaches sex. even if he’s trying to separate himself from what happened to him, it’s still part of the way he understands intimacy and his own body. and then later in life he has fertility issues, which I can only imagine would add another layer of insecurity to all of that. so I can absolutely see him having this very specific idea of himself as a sexually competent, desirable man while the actual reality is… maybe somewhat different.
and then there’s Niall’s “to fuck the way you fuck” — but does he actually know the way Ruben fucks? or does he know the way he imagines Ruben fucks? because those might be two completely different things. Niall spends so much time looking at Ruben and filling in the gaps, and I think he probably has a tendency to turn Ruben into this larger-than-life version of himself in his head.
I actually have an essay sitting in my drafts about exactly that: the way Niall sees Ruben versus the way Ruben actually is. because the more I think about it, the more convinced I am that those are very different things.
(btw Niall doesn’t care about his abilities, it’s still the best sex of his life, because it's, well. it's Ruben)
can't believe i can procrastinate even writing on tumblr and answering asks
sold
it didn’t explode lmao. putting this in the kiln felt like I was tempting the kiln gods to bring disaster, but the firing went great
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Holy mother of lesbians!
I actually need bridgerton season five so badly
OBSESSION (2026) dir. Curry Barker
You wished for this
if I could hold you for a minute
Colin and Kristine Poole — Hot Diggety Dog
You are SO right we absolutely do need to talk more about praise kink 🧐🧐 Niall neeeeeeding Ruben to tell him he’s doing a good job and hanging off every compliment and the way he blushed sooooo hard in the freshman dorm kitchen when Ruben was hyping him up—
I do also think Ruben has something of a praise kink too, in that he really wants to hear that Niall thinks well of him and thinks he’s cool and handsome and Niall likes what Ruben’s doing to him.
YES, I was going to write about Ruben, too! he just wouldn't cry about it, but he'd get this teenage boy cockiness upped to the max. and the truth is, he can be really good to Niall, so it would be more endearing than anything else...
Niall is obvious; he just wants Ruben's approval and everything that Ruben represents - approval of a boy, approval of a brother, and approval of a parental figure. he pushes his boundaries, from boxing to breaking the rules, to bask in Ruben's pride. after a while, he learns to like the teasing, too, because Ruben is unable to be truly mean to Niall. it's a small price to pay when he knows what comes next, if only he allows Ruben to lead. the prize is even sweeter after some effort.
and Ruben just thrives on praise. who else would praise him besides Niall? not the teachers, not his parents. well, Maura was, once - and that was thanks to Niall. that starts a cycle, actually, or a self-feeding loop - Ruben gets praised, so Niall has to be rewarded, too.
It would be something simple at the beginning. A Saturday with their mums out of the house, doing some early-morning shopping to get fresh produce; the boys oversleeping after stumbling in late last night. Ruben gets up first, looks to his right at the lump on the bed - only the tip of Niall's head visible under the covers - and can't help himself but nudge this wee sleeping beauty.
Niall's grumpy but adorably rumpled, with a red mark from the pillow high on his cheek. Ruben doesn't look, but notices anyway, and decides to go make them breakfast before he starts thinking about some shite, like a smudge of tan across Niall's nose. Will he get freckles in the summer?
He makes coffee for himself, burns his mouth a little while taking the first sip. Niall drinks tea (with too much milk and two sugars, like a child; Ruben secretly likes it), but it will be a while before he emerges from the bathroom, taming his silly fringe. So Ruben has time, for once; he can actually cook something. Something good and hearty for the growing boy, aye? Niall may still be a scrawny lad, but he's gotten a bit taller and gained some lean muscle thanks to Ruben's relentless nagging to actually use them for their intended purpose. Ruben smiles to himself.
"Didn't know you were so good at this, nothing's burned." Niall's voice comes out lower than usual from his spot at the bottom of the stairs, still colored by sleep and mildly surprised. He's wearing a jumper over his pyjama shirt, clearly too big and clearly not his; feet bare and white.
Ruben stops in his tracks, spatula in one hand, a plate in the other, piling up some pancakes. He grins, because that's what he does, feeling a little lighter than he did just a moment before.
"Come eat before you get pneumonia, Lori's gonnae find a way to blame me for that."
"Well, you did force me to leave the umbrella at home yesterday."
"I protected you from looking like an old cunt, that's what I did."
Niall laughs at it, any and all inhibitors clearly not present in the wan light of the late morning. Ruben turns to make the tea before he says something stupid.
"It really is good, Ruben. Thank you."
Behind his back, Niall sounds young and sincere. Pleased. Warmth spreads through Ruben, something rolling deep in his stomach. He's glad to be facing away from the breakfast table.
"Eat before it gets cold, Bambers."
listen, it was supposed to continue into filthy territory, but SOME PEOPLE were fighting me, and I have to take a breather. but we have something sweet to build upon, right? @cummandercold i'm sorry, i'll deliver once i'm not being prosecuted over my sensitive sense of smell
hi hello told you I’d be back
okay so. this got longer than was reasonable for a comment so reblogging for better yappery 🫡 it ended up more character analysis anyway lol
first of all my brain also went directly to ruben, and I went down a million tangents about why older vs younger ruben would want praise, but I’m gonna stick with younger for now
@saltbambi I love this little domestic slice of life, soft and sleepy and so alsksjd WARM !! it’s so achingly tender ugh (ruben fell first and I’ll die on that hill). ruben would absolutely love praise when it’s about his abilities to provide. making a solid breakfast for niall while niall’s sleepy and safe and wearing his clothes… of course he gets that little happy jolt, be serioussss
so.. the way I think about it is that ruben wants niall’s approval, even if subconsciously (and I think it ties back into the size of niall’s dick in at least some small way… still chewing on that concept but there’s something interesting there). meanwhile basically everything ruben considers good about himself is a performance - his masculinity, virility, his ability to flirt and get girls, etc. he postures and overcompensates, but we actually see ruben show niall some of the softer sides of himself already in episode one. I know we’ve all wondered a million times what sort of things they got up to that gave them such a strong bond in those three years before uni, but I’d imagine there were more of those soft heart-to-heart moments. they surely shared more with each other than anyone else, so niall being someone who’s seen those vulnerable parts of him, and who still looks at him with those wide, delighted eyes and that clamped smile like he’s trying to hold back from grinning, from deepening those dimples even more at something ruben’s said… ruben starts to need that. niall not only accepts ruben - he admires him. he thinks ruben is cool and strong and manly, and he makes ruben feel that way
so of course he wants niall’s praise when they fuck. what better time for niall to stroke ruben’s ego than when ruben’s got him facedown on the bed, working fingers into him? hearing niall gasp “fuck, ruben” and drool soft moans into his own pillow would have ruben talking himself off the edge of orgasm before he even gets his dick in niall
I think ruben likes to make niall talk during sex because niall always delivers on praise… so ruben’ll demand things like “tell me how good I make you feel” and “what was that? louder, I can’t hear you” just to hear niall’s babbled praise. just to test how loud niall will let himself get knowing the house is theirs, and their mums won’t be home for hours. it’d be niall moaning ruben’s name as he comes against the sheets that would push ruben over the edge too
because at the core of it, if niall’s telling him how good he feels, then he must want it. if niall’s moaning his name, then what ruben’s doing to him is okay and he’s not his father
also summoning @make-a-desert-call-it-peace 🤭
Three gay men vs The sudden concept of a woman
for my final act of love, I will let your absence devastate me.
I want my friend back. + Michael Cunningham, The Hours / Frank Bidart, The War of Vaslav Nijinsky / Ocean Vuong, On Earth, We're Briefly Gorgeous / ? / Sophocles, Electra