The light inside him isn't given by something else.

multifandom, currently fixated on sfth/rfth roland thudberry fan & t4t angeljohn enthusiast

[lliwless]

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lliw (pronounced “clue”), 23, they/he, trans + queer. i write and draw fandom stuff in order to not lose my mind at uni

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this blog is multifandom: i reblog literally whatever. my main current interests are SFTH and RFTH, but i also love OCs :) i will post a lot about sam, t4t angeljohn, and roland thudberry. u Have been warned

im a very old artist and a very new writer. animator on occasion, rambler full-time. my tags for these are on this post! here is some of my favourite stuff:

We'll Be Okay: The Plagueround fanfic, roland-centric, exploring what if would be like if the 4bb were autistic

Caught in the Flow: Lock Stock fanart, a fake poster inspired by ep 1

Lovespoon: SFTH fanart, self-indulgent alan/frankie from the bard with a scar being welsh

Potion re-draw: Ranboo fanart, i dont go here anymore i just think this is where i probably peaked as an artist

outside of art, i study biomedical science at uni and fandompost when i'm procrastinating. i may go inactive sometimes to prioritise studying, but i'm always down to talk about stuff! my askbox is open, i'd love to discuss my interests with people :)

i engage with triggering content, but i try to tag everything as much as possible. please let me know if i've missed tagging something! i also may post/reblog sexual stuff. everything is tagged as #nsfw. this blog is not necessarily minor-friendly

ALSO i typically don't interact with tagging games or large reblog chains. i still appreciate when people include me in these!! it makes me do a little smile :)

cymro dw i hefyd!!!!!!!!! hoffwn i siarad mwy cymraeg (dw i'n dysgu'n araf iawn :'')). plîs sgwrs â fi yn gymraeg!!! and correct me if i say stupid/wrong shit LOL

fans of JKR's works are not welcome and will be blocked on sight

[things-that-are-not-true]

its called a millipede because it has a million legs

[lliwless]

Hello! I actually love asking people this question: what's some strange/funny thing that gives you gender euphoria? :)

hi anon!!!! i had to think about this bc i'm not sure there's much that gives me gender euphoria thats Strange........

i think the biggest and weirdest thing i was happy about on T was the body hair growth, ESPECIALLY on my arms. most of my siblings are sisters, and my only full-blooded sibling is a younger brother who hasn't completed puberty yet, and who isn't super hairy, so body hair wasn't really a thing i saw amongst me and my siblings. i didn't think i'd be able to grow arm hair as visible as it is and it makes me so so happy. probably the biggest gender affirming thing for me rn :D

wait no there's another thing: when ppl use different nicknames for you based on how they perceive u. a cis man in britain would not say "cheers, mate" to someone they perceive as female. or "bud/buddy"??? i get so insanely happy whenever it happens. it's such a tiny nothing-thing but it means the fucking world to me lmfao

[lliwless]

I don’t think it’s always a chihuahua (the sources I’ve found online are often about a Labrador or golden retriever fostering orphaned/ abandoned tiger cubs), but I know when I was at a zoo a couple of years ago, a chihuahua lost her litter when (I can’t quite remember) either a runt was ostracised or lost it’s mum, but they gave the cub to the chihuahua and it was accepted. When I was there it had been a couple of years, but the tiger still listened to its “mum”, and, y’know, didn’t eat it.

this is the cutest fucking thing ive ever read are u kidding. A CHIHUAHUA..... one of the best dog breeds i will not argue on this

[lliwless]

sometimes i hoard anons in my inbox if they make me smile lots so i can go back and reread them and smile more

[touhouweed]

just saw someone call trans unity an "unobtainable fantasy," getting real sick of the doomerisms yall are hooked on these days

[touhouweed]

What pisses me off the most is that y'all don't keep this doomerism to yourself, it would be one thing if you just wrote this shit in a diary, but y'all are putting that out there trying to scare young trans people into being divided. spreading the idea that trans unity is an "unobtainable fantasy" only serves to make trans people feel even more alone and desperate than before, during a time where being united will give us strength.

Trans people should be encouraged to find safety and community in one another, and not just with trans people that are "like them."

[wordfather]

its always that deep, except when it isn't, and then sometimes when it isn't; it is. you understand.

[lliwless]

feeling sad and hopeless about being trans and then imagining t4t angeljohn comforting each other and . maybe its ok. maybe we'll be ok

[dogposts]

[lliwless]

Y’know those chihuahuas who are foster parents to tigers, so a tiny dog comes into a tiger enclosure and everyone freezes, but then the tigers fawn and lick the dog who apparently has the highest status of them all?

That’s hare!Roland and Wolf!monty, I think

I HAVE NOT HEARD ABOUT THIS BEFORE. anon im so serious do u have any links i can look into this more with..im trying to look it up but nothing much is coming up. i love dogs i love dog videos if u have any to share i am holding out my hands pleeeeeaseplsplsplsplspls

anyway YES YOU'RE RIGHT. 100%. i like them being friends :3333 thats cute as hell.. montyroland is real in every universe i fear /lh

[lliwless]

Kevin finally managing to fall asleep in a lake (because his sleep deprived- induced paranoia makes it hard to fall asleep around others, in a vicious cycle) and for once he sleeps for *longer* than intended, having gone too sleep early evening (sun) and waking up at night. He realises Roland’s going to be worried sick looking for him and rushes up out of the water, knocking right into Monty and Edgar who have taken a break from the overbearing and culty ravenquills (I hc Edgar is aware of his family’s strangeness due to his bookishness (to parallel him knowing they’re kind of odd in canon) and is sort of relived to have a friend who isn’t a part of his family who is his age, even if Monty is an odd fellow) and gone for a walk. Maybe this lake is even what unofficially breaks the Ravenquill and Sunset dawns hunting grounds/ turfs

i showed this to the rah server like an excited dog wiht a stick and then forgot to actually reply im so sorry anon

i genuinely really really really like the lake idea, like both the lake AND kevin himself being a potential for peace and mediation?? HUGE. but also the image of kevin sleeping, entirely alone in this big lake, where everyone else refuses to go because they're so caught up in their own dislike towards one another........... heartbreaking in so many different ways ahhhhhhhhhhhh :((

[lliwless]

question: what time period and like universe do you think the vampire au takes place if that makes sense. i’ve been assuming modern day and setting plus all the supernatural shit ofc but i’m realising it’s probably more some historical fantastical world

HI ANON, IT MAKES SENSE DW!!! i personally think it is much funnier if its literally just the regular modern world except certain vampire covens hate keeping up with the times. just for the aesthetic. the branding, you know

on a real note: while that's fairly self-explanatory for the ravenquills, i think it also makes sense if the sunsetdawns were a bit technophobic to further control their followers. god knows what hell would be raised if their newly-gaslit vampires got ahold of tiktok and started sharing what was happening..........

it also makes it funny considering kevin's like the only non-vampire one here (tho we havent discussed monty's past very much lol). kevin once again doomed to a life without his nintendo switch someone save this boy <////3

[lliwless]

ok so what do we think about a horror/angst fic from kevin’s pov regarding roland + cursed amulet trope

[greelin]

[DAZED FROM BLOOD LOSS] hey not to kill the vibe completely but i think i am in love with you

[lliwless]

wwhat do you fucking mean harley poe is coming out with new music and its about vampires and its in collaboration with an entire comic about vampires and and andan and and and and

[archival-canine]

Brindle and White Boxer

Verhoef-Verhallen, Esther J.J. The Dog Encyclopedia, by Esther J.J. Verhoef-Verhallen, Firefly Books Ltd., 1997, p. 71.

[space-sweetheart]

I love people who have specific characters that are their "no one understands this character like me. not even the writers." because they're genuinely not joking. the way they understand those specific characters is so profound that it'll change your entire veiw.