I wanna do it!

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Logan Deen // 23 // Henchman // Non-Magical

tw: emotional abuse, drugs, mentions of self harm, violence

Since he was a child, Logan felt useless. He never thought he was worth a dime. it wasn’t his fault. His parents were shit– that was evident. They caused him a lot of emotional stress and it turned into self loathing and depression. He tried his best to fit in at school but he just blended into the background. No one cared enough to notice him. He didn’t have friends and the kids at school didn’t pay enough attention to him. Sometimes he thinks it might have been easier being bullied than feeling invisible.

He was a bright kid, wise beyond his years, and always getting top marks. Not even teachers really praised him though. It was as if he didn’t exist, and sometimes he wished he didn’t.

Logan has always been so angry. A pissed off look became signature for him and he was always breaking things or hurting himself. He hated that he existed because his parents told him he shouldn’t. He would punch walls, kick down doors, and pound his head against walls hoping that maybe he would get hurt enough for his parents to notice and care. They just screamed at him and asked what the fuck was wrong with him and why he couldn’t be normal? How could he be with parents like them?

Instead of being bullied he became one. At least it got other kids to notice him. Sure, they looked at him with fear in their eyes but it was better than not looking at him at all. At least he thought so.

He was constantly in detention and was suspended multiple times. Administration at school asked why a bright kid like him was throwing his chances at college away but he simply told them to get fucked. He knew college was never in the cards for him anyway.

A saving grace came in the form of Sage O’Hara and Barrett Meyers. The two were gorgeous and intense and made Logan feel like he belonged for the first time in his life. He was no longer invisible, he was seen and validated and that’s all the boy ever needed.

Logan still has the hoodie that Sage gave him. It doesn’t fit the best anymore and it’s got holes in it, but it’s in the back of his closet. It’s almost like a safety blanket for him.

He works out a lot. It helps him let out his anger in check and let off some steam.

When he moved in with Sage and Barrett he finally felt at home. It took a lot of time to adjust, fearful things would explode and erupt like they did back at his parents’ but it didn’t.

Working for Oz was scary at first. He never expected his life to go down that route, but deep down he always knew he wasn’t bound for greatness or being a normal person that blended into society.

Logan didn’t want to just ‘blend into society’ though. The thought of it made him feel small again and how he did as a kid.

So, when he was fucking someone up for Oz he made it known that it was him that wasn’t afraid to cross a line. He was careful about it, never really getting in trouble with the law because usually the ‘clients’ Oz had were up to no good anyway.

Drugs were never something he thought he would get into. He’s not as crazy about them as Barrett is, but he doesn’t mind a nice high to help him sleep through the night, calm his nerves, or even wire him up sometimes. Usually only smokes some weed or does lines of coke but has been known to drop acid on occasion.

His relationship(s) with Sage and Barrett are very special to him. Those are his people, his lovers, and above all his best friends and family.

That being said sometimes he still feels out of place. It’s not often, but they both have their own thing going on and all he has is pent up anger and a need to get it all out. No matter how hard he tries though, no matter how much he punches or screams, he still is so angry at the end of the day.

He’s thought of being a personal trainer or something along those lines to give him purpose outside of being Ozzy’s henchman but it doesn’t seem right.

To let off anger he’s tried boxing. It helped for a while, but he would just get far too aggressive and break the rules.

He’s a yeller. If someone pisses him off real bad he doesn’t have an issue with screaming in their face. This is a rare occurrence around Sage and Barrett though. He would feel guilty if he yelled at them.

Has few morals. Not afraid to fuck a bitch up obviously but there is a fine line and he doesn’t cross it.

As far as magic goes he feels if he had it then he would have more purpose in life. He would feel like there’s something special about himself. He has a need for it and though he doesn’t know how he will possess it but once he finds out it’s game over, bitches.

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{sharpay}

Sharpay rolled her eyes, folding her arms against her chest. Even without stepping inside to their house, she was still being insulted by Logan. “What, you’re not happy to see me?” she asked, flashing her best fake smile. “You know, if you cared about her, maybe you’d give a shit about why I need to talk to her. I’m really convinced you can only care about yourself, though. Not enough space in your small brain to think about anyone else.” She looked up as she felt a drop on her forehead, heaving a sigh as she realized it was beginning to rain. “Still a no when it starts pouring?”

“Why would I be?” he asked blandly. Of course she had to keep talking though. His hands balled up into fists so tight that his knuckles began to grow pale. “You don’t get to say that. I care about her and know than you ever will. Don’t you dare speak to me that way again.” His tone was cruel, laced with venom, and he all but spat on her. His was absolutely livid now and wanted nothing more than to never see her again. “I hope you catch the flu. I wouldn’t let you inside if there was a blizzard and the temperature dropped below zero.”

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{sharpay}

closed starter for @lockcdup​

Sharpay had shown up to Sage, Logan, and Barrett’s place in search of her ex, but found one of her least favorite people on the planet instead. She didn’t come here often, since it was painfully obvious that the two boys didn’t like her, but it was all she could do to try and get Sage’s attention to tell her about Troy after unanswered texts. “I’m looking for her,” she said dryly as the door opened, taking a step back from Logan as he appeared in the doorway. “Is she home? Has she been home? I need to talk to her about…something, and she’s not answering me. It’s kind of urgent. I’d just wait inside until she comes home, but I’m not in the mood for being berated again.”

When Logan heard a knock on the door he was not expecting Sharpay. How the hell did she even know where they lived? His nostrils flared and he sighed in frustration as she stated her case. “Okay, and?” He rose an eyebrow. “As if I would tell you,” he scoffed. “I don’t really care if you need to talk to her or not. You can wait outside. And I don’t really give a fuck if it’s cold. I’m sure that nice coat you got from daddy’s money is real warm. You’ll be fine.”

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slurred words

“Look, Finn’s hot as fuck. No denying that.” He shrugs casually as if it were common knowledge. “I mean look at him! How could someone not want to tap that? We dated for a while but it wasn’t serious. Can’t deny that I don’t miss the sex from time to time. That was some good shit. Almost top tier in my experience. Honestly? I wouldn’t mind hooking up with him from time to time. No strings attached, of course.” He plays with the straw in his drink for a moment before sipping the rest down until only ice remained in his glass. “I don’t know. I think he’s a great guy and I know I’m not. I don’t really know what he ever saw in me, to be honest.”

@ncttaguppy

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slurred words - sharpay (uno reverse card)

“Man, fuck that bitch. She’s so fucking self-centered and thinks she is entitled to the world.” Logan got heated just thinking about Sharpay. “I know that she didn’t technically do anything to Sage, but I still hate her. I don’t like bubbly bitches like her. She’s the type of girl that would, like, go out of their way to be an asshole to someone. She was definitely a bully. I just can sense it.” Logan shrugged and threw back another shot. “I don’t give a shit about what she thinks of me either. I guess I don’t wish anything bad to happen to her like death, but if someone drove by her really fast and drove through a muddy puddle that splashed her and ruined her outfit I think I would die laughing. Like, I would laugh so hard at this fucking pink ass primadonna bitch I might pass out from lack of air going to my lungs. So, I think it’s safe to say I don’t like her.”

@sharpayyevans

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{finn}

With it being late into the night and the blonde already sleeping cozily within his bed, the last thing he wanted was to be waken up by someone knocking against his door. But that was exactly what happened, whoever was knocking making sure to do so loud enough for Finn to hear all the way from his bedroom. Feeling like there was no choice but for him to go see who it is, the blonde slipped off of his bed, grabbed a sweater to keep himself warm from the cold, and made his way towards his front door to answer it. “Hm?” The male tiredly responded once he pulled the door open. His eyes had been glossy and filled with tiredness from sleeping, but once they locked sight on a shivering Logan who didn’t even have anything warm covering him. Finn’s eyes widen. “Logan? Wha?” Before he could even finish what he was about to say, a cold brisk blew past them, causing the smaller male to quickly nod. Taking a hold of Logan’s hands, he pulled the other inside and quickly closed the door behind them. “You’re freezing! What the heck, it’s barely thirty-degrees outside! W-Why aren’t you wearing anything warm—” Cutting himself off as he now smelled alcohol coming from Logan, the blonde blinked. “Were you drinking?”

Logan was quickly beginning to think that it was a mistake to go to Finn’s place. Maybe he should have went to Barrett instead. Or just kept things bottled up as usual. Logan had a bad habit of not knowing how to deal with things though and the result was usually a fit of rage or seeing the bottom of a bottle. Logan simply shrugged at Finn’s first question though. Sure, he was cold but he wasn’t going to make a big deal out of it. “Maybe. A little bit,” he said in response to his second question. Being inside of Finn’s place gave him a familiar feeling but more importantly it was warm. And a little warmth was exactly what Logan needed in that moment. Not necessarily in temperature, but from a person. “Sorry for waking you up, or whatever,” he grumbled. 

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{sharpay}

“You know what your real problem is? Your life is so sad that you need to make fun of everyone else to feel better about yourself,” she spat. “That’s why you’re standing here being a dick to me, you don’t know any better than to be a little bitch to make yourself feel great.” Mimicking his eye roll, Sharpay whipped out her phone, knowing just what would put the cherry on top of her quest to set Logan over the edge. “I’m calling Sage to come pick me up. You need a ride home, too? Scared of the dark?”

Drop dead, you stupid bitch, is what he wanted to say. He wanted to say it so bad that he could taste the words on his lips. He knew he’d never hear the end of it from Sage though and he feared Sage more than any other consequence in life.  “Oh, no! I’m so scared! What’s next? Gonna call my mommy?” He rolled his eyes. He hadn’t talked to his parents in years but that was besides the point. “No, but you probably are. Most princess-y types like you are scared of their own shadow. I’ll walk home, thank you very much.”

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@ncttaguppy​

It wasn’t difficult to piss Logan off. When the man was angry he tended to take it out on someone’s face or the closest wall near him. But, he didn’t really have a reason to be angry. He was always angry. Sometimes he was able to control and it and sometimes he wasn’t. Despite it all he was still pissed off. Mostly at the world, partly at himself. He couldn’t sleep and his mind wandered and wandered until it ended up somewhere dark. His default reaction to anything negative was always anger. He couldn’t help it. So, after tossing and turning he got up, had a few drinks, then tried to get back to bed. Alcohol just fueled the anger and he ended up so pissed off he stormed out of the apartment and into the cold without so much as thinking to grab his jacket. He didn’t know where he was headed but somewhere in his half drunk mind he ended up at Finn’s. He was shaking, partly from the anger but mostly from the cold. He didn’t hesitate before knocking and when the other boy opened up the door he was quick to ask, “can I come in?”

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{sage}

Sage’s eyes glanced at the bag he had set in front of her and smiled a little bit. It was cute, her style for sure, and she was sure he had gotten for her on purpose. Part of her hoped he didn’t pay for it, but with Logan she never knew. He was always surprising her, as stupid as he was. “I like it,” she said finally, looking over at him. “And I would like it if you got off your ass and started cleaning too.” She wasn’t joking. She wanted to see him do it because if she didn’t she was sure it would never happen. “I’ll show you how appreciative I am about it after you finish, okay?”

Logan wasn’t sure the reaction he was expecting from Sage but it definitely wasn’t a positive one. “Oh,” was all he said before she continued. “Yes, ma’am.” Almost as quickly as he had sat down he was standing back up. Maybe he was a pushover, but Sage was scary when she was angry. There was no denying that. “Will you now? Well, I better get started then.”

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{sharpay}

Raising a brow, Sharpay could see he was getting annoyed. She knew that there wasn’t much that bothered the trio, but this seemed to be on the list. “You doubt it? Were you ever in a secret relationship with her because you’re concealing that you’re dating from the whole town? No? Didn’t think so,” she retorted with a grin. It was the only thing she had the upper hand on, and Sharpay was about to drill it into the ground. “No, I shouldn’t care, but it always pissed me off that you didn’t seem to like me, and I just want to know why.”

“Am I supposed to be impressed or something?” he asked with raised brows. “I mean, OMG a secret relationship! Aaah! That is, like, so cool!” He rolls his eyes and inhales the cigarette. “Not everyone is going to like you. That’s just part of life. If you can’t grasp that concept then I doubt you’ll get very far.” Was he going to get far? Likely not, but he had to throw it in her face. “I don’t need a reason why to not like you. And if I do have one I’ll never tell you. I’ll die before I tell you because I know it would just piss you off even more.”

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{sharpay}

“You’ll never know her the way I do, either,” she retorted with a smirk. “I don’t think you’re cruel because you know Sage. I think you’re cruel because you’re an asshole who’s never, ever been nice to me, no matter what I was to her, even after you were the only one to know what was going on.” Even though she knew Logan would never betray Sage by telling the truth about them, it still scared her that he had the power to leak it. “I don’t know why you can’t ever be nice to anyone but the two of them.”

The girl was really getting under his skin now. No one knew Sage better than Barrett or himself. Barrett even more than Logan, in fact. “I highly doubt that’s true.” Logan shrugged then pulled out a pack of cigarettes. “You don’t know so don’t pretend to. Stop trying to read me like I’m an open book.” He grabs his lighter, puts a cigarette between his lips, and lights it. He didn’t really crave one in the moment, but he knew the smell and smoke would likely piss her off. That was reason enough to smoke one in his opinion. “Why does it matter? You shouldn’t care if I’m an asshole or not. I’m nothing to you.”

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{sage}

@lockcdup​ location: their apartment

sage had been cleaning up after the boys like normal. she swore she lived with a bunch of slobs the way they left their clothes everywhere and she was grumbling to herself the entire time she started laundry. once that was finished she started going through the fridge, throwing away leftover after leftover. she was surprised that any of what she saw could still be considered food with the way that they were rotting away in there and after she finished that she had decided she had enough with the cleaning and needed to unwind. so she was on the couch, watching some show she didn’t care for, when she heard the door close from a distance. she didn’t know which boy it was and honestly she didn’t care, all she knew was that she was going to lose her head if she found one more abandoned slice of pizza. “hey! can you like…clean up? the living room looks fucking awful and I already did laundry AND the kitchen. fucking rats.”

Logan had had a decently long day. He did some work for Ozzy then had gone around the shops around town to see what he could snag for presents for Sage and Barrett. Sure, they didn’t really celebrate holidays but he never really had any sentiment in getting gifts as a child so he wanted to show them he appreciated them. He might not say it out loud, but actions spoke louder than words. Logan was also a master at not getting caught. He came close that day, but managed to snag Sage a cute studded, black, mini backpack. He thought she might like it. If not there was no damage done since he didn’t pay for it anyway. “Hello to you too,” he said when he walked into the now clean apartment. “Did you at least fold and put my laundry away?” he asked half joking. He walked over to the couch and sat next to her. “Here. Merry Christmas or something like that. I don’t know. Saw this and thought you might like it.” He set the bag in front of her. He would never let her know he deliberately went out to find her something. “Came across it in my travels today. If you don’t like it then just toss it.” He shrugged, trying to act as nonchalant as possible. 

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{sharpay}

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Sharpay always hated how Sage’s friends talked to her like she was stupid, even if their interactions were infrequent. She couldn’t let go of how they made her feel, and maybe that contributed to their downfall: she could never be with someone whose friends didn’t like her. “I don’t know, maybe I thought you’d see me as a person, not as Sage’s girlfriend,” she spat, feeling herself grow taller in her shoes in attempt to feel stronger. It wasn’t fair that her ex’s friends were so fucking tall. “I know she doesn’t do that. I know that just as well as you do. But there’s no reason for you to be cruel to me because it didn’t work out.”

“Ex-girlfriend,” he corrected. Logan was going to make it very clear that Sharpay was something of the past. He didn’t like Sharpay as a person nor did he like her attitude. “Oh, so you know something other than ‘I need an iced latte with oat milk!’ Or ‘I need a new purse, daddy!’” He said the words in a mocking tone to mirror hers. “You don’t know that as well as I do. You’ll never know her the way we do so don’t pretend to.” Logan shook his head. “You think I’m cruel simply because you’re an old flame of Sage. You’re mistaken. That doesn’t make you special.”

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But you keep my old scarf from that very first week ‘cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me - sage

Logan glances over at Sage nervously. “What scarf?” he asks. All he could think about was that stupid fucking hoodie he kept after all this time. It was well hidden, or so he thought. “My innocence is long gone. Some of us weren’t blessed with a childhood.” He didn’t mean that cruelly. The three of them all had fucked up lives, but Logan always felt robbed of any innocence he could have held onto with having such shitty parents. “Smells like you? God, that scarf is going to have to go through the wash at least three times then.” He slightly smirks. “Only teasing, of course.”

@sageohara

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All I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame - sharpay

Logan scoffed. “Good. Serves you right for ever trying to be anything to Sage.” He crossed his arms and rolled his eyes. “I don’t really care if your heart is broken or whatever. Sage doesn’t do feelings. You should have known that from the start. Sage does what and who she wants in her own way. Nothing is ever going to change that. Did you think I would comfort you? Did you think I cared?”

@sharpayyevans

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{anna}

Humming Christmas songs to herself she made her way downtown. Anna couldn’t help but get excited about the holiday, it was one that you got to decorate a lot for, and all the baked goods, and gifts. Truly she was trying to beat the rush this time around and get gifts ahead of time. Shivering a little to herself she held her cup of cocoa a little closer. Looking up with a sip she nearly spit her cocoa out. it was him. The most rudest crudest person she’d come across. “Oh wow, the Grinch is making early sightings this year. Still stealing candy?” || @lockcdup

Logan had been bumming around downtown, looking in various shops to see what he would snag without anyone noticing. He wasn’t really in the Christmas spirit, he never was, but he still wanted to get Barrett and Sage something even if it wasn’t something they really ever talked about. It was chilly and his exposed kneecaps from his ripped jeans turned a light shade of pink from the blowing wind. He had been taking a smoke break. His hood was up but still he seemed to be recognized. “Newsflash, princess, the Grinch doesn’t arrive until December. Which it’s not.” He shrugged. “Only from babies. I’m doing them a favor, really. Preventing cavities. Would the Grinch do that? I think not.”

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@sageohara​

Halloween was when Logan thrived. For some reason Oz had a fixation on it and the holiday had, over time, grew on Logan as well. Sage and Barrett seemed to be as equally, if not more, interested in it as well so that only pushed him more. Logan had been running through the corn maze, jumping out at unsuspecting victims despite the fact he wasn’t even hired to be one of the scary folks that volunteered to do so. He got a laugh out of it and had even successfully pickpocketed a few people that were too scared to notice. He could hear someone coming around the corner from the noise of crunching leaves and when he jumped out he was the one scared. He yelled out and fell backwards. “God dammit, Sage!” The second he had realized it was her he got frightened. “And to think, I was having so much fun without you.” He pulled himself up from the ground and ran his hands through his hair to get any hay out of it. Logan knew better than to try and actually scare Sage, which is why he had gotten scared in the process. “Did you lose Barrett in here or are you wandering around alone?”