You wanna know what it feels like to not feel anything? It’s not caring about anything. Not that I don’t, I just can’t. About myself, grades, my future. It’s not knowing anything, how to respond, so I avoid the situation. My brain feels like static, a low hum that eventually hurts if I think about it too much. It’s feeling something then pushing it down and saying no because what else am I supposed to do. It’s all I can do. I’m aware that this is probably the reason everyone runs away from me and that hurts, but nothing hurts more than when it’s taken from you and there’s nothing you can do about it.
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