to be human | masterlist
request: Basically it's a Kylo x reader where the reader is a dark force user under the wing of an opposing Sith Lord that resents the First Order. The reader is as well know and feared throughout the galaxy as Kylo but no one knows her true identify. Because of her hidden appearance most who fear her believe her to not be female including Kylo himself. Somehow they meet and the reader gets captured and Kylo finds out that his equal in darkness is a girl and with time they fall in love. (Smut too?) - @suits-and-smirks
a/n: so this went longer than expected... i had too much fun playing with this concept so enjoy the surprises! p.s. please leave your feedback in the replies or my inbox, it’s much appreciated and drives me to write more! ♡
word count: 6k+
warning: smut ahead
"It seems as if we never learn from the past..." your master spoke with his hands as he overlooked the fiery plane before him. "The Jedi... the Sith. The Republic, the Separatists... The Empire, the Rebellion... and now? The Resistance and the First Order. These fools believe things will change by using the same tactics, yet... they fail."
Standing behind the Zabrak as your figure was hidden beneath dark robes that only exposed half of your face, you took in a small breath. "They believe the Sith to have fallen."
"The Sith will rise once again and take what is ours. Defeat the First Order and the Resistance. With the right ruling, we will have the galaxy once and for all."
Eyeing him, you took a small step forward, "what will the army within the unknown regions do?"
"They will be our main weapon. When the time comes, we shall release them. For now... I have a task for you..." seeing your master slowly turn around, you awaited his words. "It seems as if someone has entered the planets atmosphere and is trying to steal something that does not belong to them... Join my army and make sure the Sith Holocron is not taken in the wrong hands."
"As you wish, Lord Maul." With a bow of your head, you turned away and aimed for the main corridor of the palace that once belonged to the powerful Darth Vader.
Mustafar was far more impressive than what he believed it to be. Kylo Ren found himself with a range of troopers following his lead as they infiltrated the lava planet. They had one task at hand: to retrieve the Sith holocron.
As the Supreme Leader and gaining more knowledge, word had been passed throughout the galaxy that the Sith had risen again. During his time as an apprentice to Snoke, it was never seen as a threat... but as time passed, the rumors grew heavier and heavier.
It was said there was a powerful duo that would raid planets and claim them as their own, growing an army that would be far more powerful than what the First Order—or even the Empire—could imagine. Kylo had dark visions that haunted him nightly. A fiery planet, a pair of threatening eyes, a red artifact... and two figures. It had been endless cycles of Kylo traveling the galaxy, reading, and getting his men to find knowledge on the Sith and the rising opponent.
That's how he eventually found himself on Mustafar. A planet he had dreamt of claiming as his own one day...
Of course, that would be deemed impossible when someone else had.
Igniting his fire blade as an army of men emerged from the blazing forest, Kylo didn't hesitate to make heads roll. He swung and waved his lightsaber and used the Force to lessen the numbers around him. Force pushing and freezing his opponents, dashing to attack them and pulling them toward him to pierce his blade through them, Kylo sensed he was growing closer. What he needed was almost in arms reach.
Swiping his blade and slaughtering his victim before him, the sound of a lightsaber activating caught his attention. Lifting his focus and seeing a figure in black stand before him, a pair of red blades in either hand, caused Kylo to faintly smirk.
Pointing his lightsaber at them, he broke into a dash and went straight for the attack.
Twirling your weapon as you watched the man come at you in full speed, you connected and lifted your blades as his cross guard came crashing down on yours. Clashing blades and gliding across the fiery ground, using the Force to push the white cladded men away from you, you maneuvered your way around as the man had death in his eyes.
Kylo fought tooth and nails against you, realizing just how skilled you were. He recognized the figure, knowing it was one of the two he had seen his dreams. He didn't know who you were, but he had heard enough to know of your power. And to learn that you were, indeed, real.
Fighting effortlessly against one another as your army fought his, the man before you extended his palm out as all your allies went flying back. He was skilled. Very skilled. And you knew this wouldn't be an easy fight. The way he handled his saber was unlike anything you had seen, which made the fight even more difficult.
Slamming his blade down the middle of the two before him, causing the connection to snap, Kylo quickened his attacks as you held both blades in either palm, quickly deflecting and attacking him. Matching his speed and nearly outdoing his movements, the sound of a ship caught your attention. An oh too familiar ship.
Furrowing your eyebrows as you felt something wrong, suddenly becoming distracted, your attacks became sloppy as you backed up and looked at the sky. Seeing your Master's ship fly off as your supposed allies backed away, you were suddenly outnumbered and disarmed.
"It seems as if your men have given up on you and you are left alone. Submit to me," Kylo aimed his crackling saber towards you as you lifted your head and gritted your teeth. "Reveal yourself, Sith Lord."
Biting down, you lifted your hands to your head and removed your hood. The moment you had, you noticed the man's eyes change. It was subtle, and easy to miss, but you noticed. "Amazed that I am not what you believed me to be?"
Eyeing you, your smirk, the lack of Sith eyes... and how you were a woman... Kylo's eye faintly twitched as he tightened his grip around his lightsaber. The man lifted his free hand as a pair of troopers came over and grabbed your hands, binding them behind you as they forced you to your feet. "Your master must have left with what I've wanted and left you to be a distraction. A pity, I have now made you my prisoner." Deactivating his saber and reaching out so that yours would fall into his palm, Kylo turned around and lead the way as you were forced to follow.
You had hoped your master had a plan... You wanted to believe that your sacrifice was part of a bigger scheme... but a piece of you felt you were just being discarded.
Being brought into a shuttle and forced to sit down, your now bound wrists sat behind you as you stayed silent. Your life was constantly spent by Maul's side, being his shadow and doing his dirty work. You should've expected him to abandon you eventually, and what better way than when the First Order had found him? He was always on the run and wreaking chaos.
Eyeing you from his spot, Kylo studied your mannerisms. You were very collective, quiet and didn't show an ounce of anger or betrayal. Kylo saw what happened, and he knew there was disappointment in your veins. You may have been silent, but he was able to look through you. He knew those eyes. An apprentice being used time and time again by their master.
"Your master abandoned you," Kylo pointed the obvious. "He used you as a pawn and kept the Sith holocron."
Taking in a deep breath and looking up at him, you tilted your head, "and you believe I know where he went with it?"
Looking at you, then down at the hilts that belonged to you, Kylo studied them, "I believe you know what he wants to do with it. He is the enemy."
"What about me?" You asked, squinting your eyes for a moment.
"You are one of the most feared entities in the galaxy. You no longer are a mystery. I will admit, I did not expect a woman—"
"How narrow minded of you," you shook your head.
"I am impressed. It's always men being feared."
"Am I supposed to take that as a compliment?" You asked.
"Take it however you'd like." Connecting your blades together, Kylo twirled it in his hand. "I believe he'd want to eventually have you back by his side. You are his student and he's going to need you again."
"Hmm..." you hummed. "And if that were to happen, would you use me as a pawn?"
Lifting his focus and eyeing you, Kylo took a step forward and towered before you, "I'd rather the First Order have more power than let the enemy have an advantage."
"Yet, you have me as your prisoner," you shook your head as you looked up at him.
"You'd have to earn my trust first," at that, Kylo walked away, leaving you with the stormtroopers.
• • •
The shuttle had landed as the turbulence hinted so. You looked up to the troopers before you as they walked over and grabbed your upper arms, guiding you down the ramp as Kylo Ren took the lead. Lifting your focus and eyeing the hangar, all the ships and soldiers about, you realized you were being guided to follow Kylo.
Walking down long, white halls, you were brought into a dark chamber that was filled with all sorts of torturing devices. Shoving you in and walking out, you looked away from the stormtroopers and eyed the technology surrounding you. "I am not going to torture you."
"How kind..." you breathed as you heard Kylo Ren's voice, "this is an awfully dramatic torture chamber." Eyeing the red lights and sharp objects, you looked over to the man who was your host. "Why am I here?"
"You are a prisoner. You need to be treated as such," he casually said, causing you to arch an eyebrow. "No one will know I am not actually torturing you."
"Why?" You shook your head.
"Why, what?" Kylo slightly tilted his own.
"Why are you not torturing me?" You asked, eyeing him, not understanding his motives quite yet.
"There is no need. Your master took what I needed. I know he did. You clearly don't know where he went," Kylo said as you bit down. He was right, you didn't know... and that agitated you. "Your expression, your eyes, it says it all. You were abandoned..." the sound of his tone almost made it seem as if he was proven right.
"What is your fear?" You suddenly asked, causing Kylo to narrow his eyes for a moment. "Is my master terrifying you?"
"It's not him," Kylo growled. "It's his power. He has the Sith holocron. He will destroy us all."
"Us?" You arched an eyebrow.
"The First Order."
"And what about the rest of the galaxy?" You asked.
"The Resistance as well. Independent planets. All will be under his reign," he said. "I've had visions. I've seen his army. He wants chaos. He wants the galaxy to bleed."
"And what makes you better?" You tilted your head.
"I want order. That's what makes us different. He wants destruction," Kylo explained.
Eyeing him as you took in a small breath, you could see how Kylo looked at you with intent. He searched you, he looked deeply into your eyes. Almost as if he could hear your thoughts without prying.
"You know I'm right... you fear his abilities, too..." he softly spoke. "Have you ever wondered why you were kept such a mystery? Why you were so feared?" Kylo took a step forward. "The Sith were supposed to be extinct. They were supposed to be dead, my grandfather being the last. But your master has proven that wrong. Which means there are others. There are loyalists."
"You are just as feared, Ren. You are the Supreme Leader of the First Order. What makes you think you are not a threat to him?" You squinted your eyes. "You both are a menace to the galaxy."
Biting down as he stared at you, Kylo spoke up "one of us doesn't wish to destroy countless worlds for no reason other than to gain satisfaction in others demise."
"What do you want from me?" Taking a step forward and looking up at him, you continued, "what do you expect out of keeping me a prisoner? Besides wanting me to gain your trust, as if I have any interest in that—"
"I can give you your freedom," Kylo interrupted. "I can give you power and all that you desire."
"You don't know anything about me," you snapped.
"You want to be your own person. You don't want to be this phantom, an unknown identity. You don't want to be just a feared being."
"How do you know what I want?" You hissed.
"Because, I am looking into eyes I once looked into every day in the mirror."
At Kylo's words, you quietly swallowed and felt yourself wanting to step back. "You want me to gain your trust... but why not gain mine? Trust goes both ways, Ren."
Studying you as he stayed silent, tightening his fists at the thought of your words, Kylo sucked in a deep breath. "Will you betray your master?"
"It seems as if he's already betrayed me."
Walking around you as you stood there, you felt the metal around your wrists suddenly open before the weight was lifted. Kylo held the binders in his hand before circling back before you. "Together, you and I will bring down the Sith."
"Don't think I am sticking by you once this is over," you warned. "I will handle Maul when the time comes. I am not joining the First Order."
"That will make you an enemy once again," Kylo said as he stood hunched before you to be near eye level.
"I have no interest in this war. All I have ever known is being Maul's shadow." Rubbing your wrists, you then extended your hand. "My weapons?"
Smirking, Kylo turned around, "you will get them once I know I can fully trust you. For now, you stay here." At that, he walked away, leaving you to roll your eyes.
• • •
Kylo's visions wouldn't cease, every night following your capture became more vivid. His sleep was sporadic and all he wanted to do was find the Sith holocron. He did everything he could with the help of his men, sending troopers on missions, having the Knights join them... yet, nothing. He was exhausted, not knowing what a full nights rest was anymore.
And it had been weeks since his trip to Mustafar.
"You need to rest," you said with your arms crossed, standing behind Kylo as he eyed star maps. "A good leader does not miss his sleep."
"Is that so?" Kylo spoke over his shoulder, wearing his refurbished helmet. "Tell me, did you get any rest while you were under Maul's guidance?" He asked. During the weeks that had passed, you slowly opened up to Kylo, knowing the only way to gain each other's trust was to be (somewhat) transparent.
"A decent amount," you answered. "Enough for me to know what day it was. Do you know what day it is?"
Standing in silence, Kylo took in a deep breath. He couldn't quite recall... His days had blended into a very long one filled with sporadic naps. He lost count of how many times he had fallen asleep on the throne. Hearing footsteps followed by the hologram disappearing before him, Kylo looked over to you as you leaned one hand on the table. "You know my answer."
"I'd like to hear you say it," you smirked as you could hear a faint sigh come from his modulator.
"Maul's army will grow in numbers and he will—"
"Normally, I wouldn't care... I really shouldn't care about anyone's well being beside my own, but you are the leader here and you need to rest. Your men can't look up to someone who doesn't sleep, they will do the same and that will bring chaos and disorder."
Eyeing you through his visor, Kylo stood straight from leaning and turned his body to face you. "It almost seems as if you do care."
"Don't flatter yourself," you crossed your arms. "After all, you still have my blades and I have to earn you trust."
Feeling the urge to smile under his helmet, Kylo only turned and walked away. "I better not awaken to the sound of you ruling my men."
"Eh, their lack of style is a turn off anyway... I wouldn't rule people who can't even dress the part," you teased, earning a small sound from Kylo you assumed to be a chuckle. You watched him walk away with a loud mind. You knew something was wrong, he wasn't all that open as you tended to be, but you could tell... he was struggling. And you were curious, you wanted to know exactly what it was. Of course, the Sith has a part... but there was something more.
You took it in yourself to get rest, seeing as it was quite late... but, you'd be lying if you said you weren't struggling with sleep, yourself. Something was lingering on the back of your mind... but you didn't know what.
• • •
"There will be no peace! The galaxy will be cleansed and reborn! All that bow to me will know a better life! A better ruling! Alas, my time has come... Alas, I will have what I have always wanted and nothing can stop me!" Waking up to the sound of your masters voice, you sat up and took in deep breaths. You had seen destruction, destroyed planets and burning cities. It was ruins, and at the epicenter: Maul. There was a heavy feeling in your chest, and for some reason, you needed to see Kylo.
Leaving the chambers Kylo had given you a day after your capture, you walked the halls and stood before a door. You felt Kylo's energy from your side, the anxiety and anger. You pressed your hand against the metal surface and shut your eyes. That was no ordinary dream you had, no... it was a vision. Kylo's vision... and you had somehow seen it.
Lowering your hand as your eyebrows narrowed, you turned your head away, only to hear the blast door open as Kylo stood before you in nothing but his sleeping pants. "You felt it."
"You have trouble sleeping because of your visions," you said as Kylo looked down at you. "Come," walking past him, into his chambers, Kylo turned to look at you. "Come on," you waved your hand, pointing to his bed.
"What do you have in mind?" He asked.
"Get in bed," you said as Kylo arched an eyebrow. "Ren."
Eyeing you, Kylo did as told and got under his sheets, resting there for a moment before he felt his bed shift. "What are you—"
Resting beside him, you brought the sheets over the both of you, "sometimes knowing you have someone besides you makes you sleep better."
"How so?" Kylo mumbled.
"As a child I would always slept better when I had my mother with me..." you confessed. "Before you ask, my mother passed when I was young. She was the only family I had."
Feeling you scoot closer to him, enough for Kylo to feel your body heat, the man sucked in a sharp breath. "You better be right."
"I am," you said, turning to your side as your back faced him. "Sleep well, Ren."
• • •
Kylo found himself startled by the sight that he had been clinging onto you. It wasn't like him to search for comfort in others, but seeing how he wrapped himself around your body was enough to tell him what he subconsciously wanted. Pulling away and rolling onto his back as he rubbed his face, Kylo took in a deep breath, noticing he hadn't had a vision and actually slept the night.
Maybe you were right... and maybe holding onto you wasn't so bad.
Resting on his back and shutting his eyes, Kylo couldn't help but fall back asleep. The lack of hours he had gotten was catching up to him and he couldn't help but take advantage now.
Eventually, Kylo's body felt it had a sufficient amount of rest. Reaching his hands up to his face and rubbing it, Kylo opened his eyes and furrowed his eyebrows. Looking to the left of him and seeing you were no longer there, a sudden frown grew on his lips. He hated how disappointed he suddenly felt.
Going through his usually routine of embracing the day ahead as the Supreme Leader, he made his way to the command room. Stomping through the halls with his helmet on, seeing a pair of stormtroopers guard the blast doors, he walked in. The moment he had, he almost hesitated in his steps, spotting you with your back facing him as you spoke to an officer.
Most of the higher ranking officers knew who you were—and much like Kylo—they were amazed that you were a female... let alone, now working alongside Kylo. They weren't sure what surprised them more... the way in which you got along with Kylo after being taken in prisoner or the fact that you hadn't murdered a single soul. Then again... most feared you anyway.
Turning your head to look over your shoulder, you and Kylo made eye contact as he stood there for a moment. "Your men have worked endlessly and have good news."
"Is that so?" Kylo asked as he walked over, joining your side.
"Maul has been seen," you informed.
"Where?"
"Corellia."
Clenching his fists at the name of the planet, knowing it was once under First Order rule up until a rebellion was lead, Kylo took in a sharp breath. "Y/N and I will pay that miserable planet a visit."
"Of course, sir," the officer spoke. "My men and I will keep an eye out in case of any updates."
Eyeing the officer, Kylo nodded his head as the woman returned to her station. You, on the other hand, eyed him. Just as he was able to read you, you were able to read him. "What is it?"
"Nothing," he lied before turning around and walking off.
You followed, knowing that's what he wanted. "I am not one to be annoying and remind you of trust, but, you need to tell me what it is."
"I don't understand why you seem to care when you are only taking my side to find Maul and end him," Kylo harshly spoke, causing you to roll your eyes.
"Kylo," you sighed. "You just had the best rest of your life, don't start acting like an immature child."
Stopping in his tracks and gritting his teeth, Kylo turned to look at you, "I am no immature child, Y/N."
"Is this because I left before you woke up?" You tilted your head, and just by the way Kylo dropped his shoulders, you knew that was it. "I did it because I didn't want anyone seeing me leaving the Supreme Leader's quarters in my sleepwear."
"That— I am not angry at you leaving my bed..." Kylo's words were forced and it was obvious. The sight of you grinning at him made his face heat up. He hated your smugness.
"Are we not about to go on a mission together? Alone?"
"What are you trying to hint at, Y/N?" Kylo snarled as your smile grew.
"Oh, nothing... just that you seem to enjoy alone time with me..." You shrugged as Kylo's heart fluttered. The sudden rush of blood and the way his breathing grew heavy. He was more thankful for his helmet.
• • •
The flight to Corellia was rather swift, taking one of the unmarked shuttles as a way to go unnoticed once entering the planets atmosphere. For the most part, Kylo didn't care if anyone recognized him, he just didn't want Maul finding out if and when word spread.
Landing and embarking on your mission toward the city in which Maul was last seen, Kylo decided to leave his helmet behind on the shuttle, wanting to be less obvious. The two of you received odd looks, but no one seemed to bother. Of course, that is until you had sensed something off.
Following your instincts as you walked through narrow paths, seeing a hooded figure basically trying to escape you, you instantly rushed after. Furrowing your eyebrows as you quickened your pace, you reached your palm out as the figure froze. "Who are you?" You asked as the persons back faced you.
Receiving no response, Kylo walked over as you held them in place, removing their hood and snarling. "A distraction. He must have known we were coming."
Lowering your hand and walking over, seeing a man stand there, he grinned. "You won't find him!"
Seeing Kylo's hand twitched, you placed your hand on his before getting in between the two. "Where is he?"
"I ain't telling you!"
Glaring, Kylo reached for his lightsaber, but you stopped him again. "How much did he pay you?"
"Enough to get me off this damn planet and enough to stop the Supreme Leader and his bit—" before he could finish, you slammed your fist into his nose, watching the credits in his pocket of his coat fly out the moment he fell back. "Dammit!"
"Not enough credits will fix what I did to your nose, now, where did he go?" You asked as you stood before him.
"I don't know! He just said to set a diversion!" The man spat, your attention suddenly shooting behind you as you ran off.
"Y/N?!" Kylo shouted.
"You are both—" before the man could finish, Kylo snatched his lightsaber and decapitated the man with a swift motion.
Slowing your pace as you bit down, you eyed the now burning vessel. "That bastard..." you breathed, eyeing Kylo's now destroyed shuttle.
"This was his plan. Get us here to keep us here," Kylo growled.
"You can't expect anything less from Maul. He is conniving. Uses others to get what he wants." Turning away, you looked around, "As he always does..."
"A waste of my time," Kylo hissed.
Hearing his words, you looked at him and crossed your arms, "I wouldn't say so. You got to murder someone."
Eyeing you, Kylo took in a deep breath. "I rather be tossed into a ring with a bunch of rathtars than be on this planet."
"Don't be so grumpy," you shook your head before walking over, "you've got to spend some quality time with me."
"As if sleeping with you wasn't enough," Kylo grumbled, looking away.
"I don't think it was," you tilted your head, walking over to him. "Do you?"
"Y/N..." Kylo spoke in a warning tone as you grinned.
"Come, we need to find somewhere to lay low. Who knows what Maul has in mind—"
"I am not about—"
"Who knows Maul best?" Seeing Kylo stay silent, you nodded. "Exactly, let's go."
• • •
You were able to find somewhere to hideout, after using your abilities to convince someone to let them have their home for the night, you ended up laying low. Kylo didn't like it, staying in some apartment while doing nothing about Maul. He was restless, paced before the windows that overlooked the city. He rather steal a ship and return to base... or possibly destroy the whole planet if that meant ending Maul.
Yet... there you two were, eyeing the home of the man as if you were some casual visitor and not an invader. "This is pointless, Y/N! We can not just stay up here and wait! For all we know, he left the planet and is one step closer to building his army," Kylo huffed.
"Maul won't build his army that fast," you said as you approached him.
"He has the holocron, it could help him get exactly what he needs," Kylo said as he clenched his fists. "Why do you think I was after it? And why do you think he used you as a pawn to distract me?"
"Well, for one, if he hadn't... you wouldn't be here right now," you shrugged as Kylo narrowed his eyes. "You would have been lonely, struggling with your sleep and probably pulling your hairs out trying to figure out his next steps. If it wasn't for me helping your officers, stars knows where you'd be at this point."
"Do you want a thank you, Y/N?" Kylo squinted his eyes. "A bow? My undying loyalty?"
"You are overly dramatic," you sighed. "You see too much of the bad."
"And I am supposed to listen to your wise words? You were trained under a sith, you were a puppet—"
"Just like you," you calmly said as Kylo sealed his lips. "Don't think I don't know about you. It may have been only a couple of weeks, but you and I are a lot alike. You know it, you've said it."
Eyeing you, Kylo took in a deep breath. "I am not going to be ruled or destroyed by someone else who thinks they can take it all."
"You won't," you said, looking into his eyes. "We will find him. You will get the holocron and I will have his head. Then, you will rule the galaxy and I will be free."
"What if I wish for you to stay by my side?" Kylo asked, voice becoming oddly low.
"Then it will be heartbreaking the moment you see me leave," you answered.
"And if I don't want you to leave?" He said as the two of you grew closer.
"You won't be able to stop me..."
Feeling his breathing quicken, Kylo reached for you and held the back of your head with one hand, tugging you into a deep kiss. You didn't hesitate to part your lips as his tongue slid past them and met your tongue. His hand tugged at your hair as his other made its way down your back and to your ass, bringing you closer to him.
Reaching into his hair, feeling the smooth texture as you ran your fingers through it before tugging, your bodies pressed together as you eagerly kissed one another. You can feel how eager Kylo was by the way his teeth crashed into yours and how he seemed far too frustrated to properly kiss you. You, however, enjoyed the fire. You hadn't felt such passion in a long time, knowing nothing but being Maul's shadow.
Finding your hands on his cape as you removed it from him, the two of you undressed one another, leaving a trail of clothing behind. Removing your bra as he tugged down your underwear, Kylo fell back on to the sofa and brought you to straddle him, your naked bodies coming into contact as you held his face and brought his lips back to yours.
Kylo's fingers trailed the inside of your thighs, not hesitating to work them against your clit and massaging circles as you were tongue deep in his mouth. Moving your hips against his hand, Kylo wrapped his free arm around you as his other trailed his fingers before plunging them within your heat.
Biting his bottom lip as you felt his thick fingers pump within you, furrowing your eyebrows as you pulled at his hair, Kylo felt you clench around him. Pulling them out as you let out a defeated sound, you couldn't help but rub yourself against his length, wanting friction as a moan vibrated against his lips.
Lifting your hips and aligning you with his hardened cock, you whined the moment you felt the tip. Lowering you onto him as your breath go caught against his lips, your heart fluttered as Kylo's breathing quickened the moment your hips sunk into him. Breathing against one another as you adjusted to his thickness, you began to move your hips as Kylo dug his fingers into your flesh.
Pressing your foreheads together as you rocked yourself at sporadic pace, your moans and Kylo's grunts echoed throughout the home. His hands trailed up your back as he pulled you against him, bringing his lips along the side of your neck and to your shoulder. Biting on the skin and leaving behind red marks, Kylo grabbed onto your ass and spread you further, lifting his own hips to meet yours in greediness.
Lifting your head and clawing at his shoulder blades, you bit on his earlobe before marking his neck. You felt yourself soon reaching your high as Kylo brought his hand in between the two of you. Using his free hand to grope and fondle your breasts, Kylo's other hand worked at your sensitive bud.
Panting and feeling the heat burn throughout your body, you shut your eyes as you came, soon milking Kylo of his own climax. Neither of you could move, staying there for a moment as you slumped against him. Your sweaty bodies fell limp as you caught your breaths. "I don't think this was pointless, hmm..." you hummed into his neck as Kylo took a deep breath.
"No..." he quietly spoke, causing you to grin.
"Can't say this was inevitable," you teased as Kylo trailed his hands up your thighs and to your hips.
"You are my equal..." he said with a quiet voice, causing you to lift your head and look at him. "It's of no surprise, Y/N. I am not a likable man. I am lonely for a reason."
Eyeing him, you took in a deep breath, "yet, here we are."
"You will leave... eventually..."
"Are you afraid of that?" You asked, studying him... but Kylo stayed silent. Pressing your lips against his, you could feel the sadness overcome him... and something else, a feeling he wouldn't dare confess to. Something much stronger but hard to grasp. Feeling him kiss you back, you muttered against his lips, "I'm still here."
• • •
There were flames burning high into the night sky as a figure stood before it. Kylo could make it out to be a woman as she stood there with wobbly knees and trembling shoulders. Her cries filled the dense air as she clutched her face. Kylo couldn't tell who it was, but the moment he saw Maul standing behind her and place a hand on her shoulder, Kylo knew.
Trying to reach out, the scene around him suddenly changed. You stood amongst dead bodies as rain poured down. Maul stood beside you and spoke, inaudible words as Kylo furrowed his eyebrows. He tried to approach you, but everything before him suddenly faded away as he found himself being tossed around through visions.
Your emotions were raw. You were crying and yelling, thrashing your lightsaber around and using all of your energy through the Force. It was battle after battle, you at the forefront as Maul always stood closely behind. He could tell... Kylo knew you were his puppet. It was clear to him that he was using you, taking advantage.
Then he was suddenly stilled, the images coming to a stop as he watched you hold the Sith holocron. You were standing at the bridge of a vessel, over looking an army of star destroyers.
Forcing himself awake as he had been resting on the sofa, Kylo instantly sat up and scanned the room. "Y/N?" He called out, but there was no response. "Y/N?!" Standing to his feet and seeing your clothes were no longer there, Kylo quickly redressed himself and rushed out towards the balcony. Searching below, he only lifted his focus and spotted a ship. "No—" rushing out of the apartment and towards the roof, Kylo ran and yelled, "Y/N! NO!"
Feeling your chest cave in, you looked out the window of the ship you were now in, spotting Kylo far below. Your heart sank as your face dropped, a frown permanent on your lips. You could feel his heartbreak. You could feel his anger.
"All went according to plan..." Maul spoke up as he watched his men pilot his ship. "Soon... the galaxy will be mine."
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a/n: that ending... oops...