I just want to use my brain

5th yr MD-PhD student, always curious, always tired, always down for a cheese danish 🇺🇸

[thestuffieguardian]

I pray the next book you pick up & begin reading, engulfs you in the best way possible

[arenzalenskaya-deactivated20250]

sentences that send me into a coma that i never recover from

[lookbehindthesky]

2024 was a year of disappointing dates. so am I rereading the locked tomb for the fourth time so I can FEEL something?

yes.

[jamsandsuch]

i've been sending my supervisor (very nice 60 something year old white man, very grandfatherly vibes) my thesis proposal document under the filename "bad draft" and he just sent me my final revisions under the file name "rad draft"

[sunfortune]

the first best thing you could do for your main character is make her a middle aged woman of color. the second best thing you could do for your main character is make her often and consistently horny on main. the third best thing you could do for your main character is introduce a sexy annoying guy for her to manhandle. the fourth best thing you can do for your main character is let her have pirate demon sex. the fifth best thin-

[lookbehindthesky]

My med school classmates matched today!

I'm so so so happy for them, happy and excited and proud!

But also, I'm only halfway through. That'll be me (hopefully) in four. More. Years.

Yo why did i do this

[lookbehindthesky]

When I told my PCP I'm a grad student she made a point to ask about my mental health and how I'm doing. To her surprise I replied that I'm doing great!

Then she saw in my chart a note that I'm an MD/PhD student and she asked how grad school compares to med school.

I told her that that's why I'm doing great, grad school is significantly better than med school. I can have a life in grad school. I have time to work out everyday, I'm eating all my meals and they're healthy food I have time to cook, I can go to a concert on a random weekend, and I'm not nearly as tired/frustrated/defeated as I was in med school.

Yes grad school is hard and the work never stops and you always feel like you don't know anything, but I would take this anyday over med school. (don't get me wrong I adored my time in the hospital, but medical training is so toxic and takes absolutely everything from you physically/mentally)

My PCP was like "wow, all my PhD students are always super down and depressed that's why I check in on them so much. But I don't see many med students so I didn't know how it compared to grad training"

Hmmmmm, I wonder why med students aren't taking time to go see a PCP. Maybe because they literally do not have time to do so. 👀

[insignificant457]

Sevro “major depressive episode” Barca and Cassius “functioning alcoholic” bellona: *two seconds away from tearing each others throats out*

Darrow, on a journey of healing and self-actualization:

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

[lookbehindthesky]

during my first year in grad school I was thrown into the deep end of the lab. that's ok, I learned a lot. but my PI kept reiterating "this isn't our usual workload, I'm sorry you're training under such heavy demands but at least when we get back to normal pacing you'll sail through!"

a year later and I am now *qualified* to science on my own. but the pace never slowed down, and now I'm juggling even more things. I always compared med school to weight lifting, you cram more and more knowledge into your head. but grad school doesn't feel like I'm cramming my head full of random facts, it feels like I'm trying to keep 12 things balanced and someone's screaming at me and there's a random infant tugging on my coat and there's also a countdown but I don't know what it's counting down to?

[lookbehindthesky]

there’s someone in the room

working on a very rough outline for a presentation. this is the first time I’ve had to actually put my ideas/project into words. I don’t quite know what it is yet, I feel like when you close your eyes and you know someone’s in the room with you but you don’t know who, it feels like that. the idea is there, it’s big, I can sense it, but I don’t quite know what it is

[wheresonichedgehogwnt]

TFW your patient is not only a cool human being but also a boards question in disguise

[cranquis]

if you read a @wheresonichedgehogwnt post and you don't read the tags what are you even doing with your life

[lookbehindthesky]

postdoc at 7pm after a day of me on my own with incorrect protocols and no supervision: you know how it goes, some days it’s sink or swim and today you didn’t have any swimming lessons!

[lookbehindthesky]

Rep running FlowJo seminar: and this is how you can close all the open graph windows at the same time

*audible gasp throughout the auditorium*

[academicssay]

[alwaysher]

not to be a hater (but yeah to be a hater) shocker that the show with the black lesbian lead is cancelled and... The Other One gets renewed for two seasons

[quinnfebrey]

these were the numbers of first kill’s initial 3 weeks… for comparison, they were ranking alongside or even above shows like heartstopper, stranger things, the umbrella academy. it simply don’t make sense and i WILL be mad about it!