dorohedoritos

hey there im sad like 100% of the time sorry about that please dont follow this blog unless i know you in some way ok thanks

[lordoflimbo]

Kinda wanna die just cause it's the easiest option at this point in my life lmao 👏

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i just wish my friends would at least try to understand but it doesnt seem like anyone really ever does/??? or they try for five seconds and then forget 

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and i always feel so JEALOUS of ppl and friends who are in happy relationships because im like wowwee!!! happy for u but also hey ill never get to experience that whoopee :''-)

and i feel so fucking guilty asking ppl to tag their pda because they should jus b free to be affectionate but im too much of a baby to deal with it 

[lordoflimbo]

i really just wanna cry on someones shoulder rn i fuckign hate being aromantic and like i always tack the "gray" in front of it w/ some hope that maybe ill find someone ill actually b able to love but the chances of that happening are so slim because im just a heartless little hell beast i fucking guess 

[lordoflimbo]

pda to the left of me

pda to the right

stuck in the middle with discomfort on multiple levels

[lordoflimbo]

#death mention #suicide mention kinda

i

am so afraid of the thought that i might die young and not by my own hand but by the faailure of my cheap bootleg version of a human body im so scared im so scared i am terrified

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very important

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i have sat down at the table outside my room. considerably easier to breathe, considerably closer to working, considerably unhappier 

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its really stuffy and hard to breathe in my room again and i still gotta do my hw but i am so dreading even touching the charcoal that i've put it off All Day. i mean its not due until saturday but ugh i wanna get it done cause just thinking about it is a pain in the ass

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i have no idea how i still have friends when im the worst friend in the world 

im just thinking about how upset ive made the ppl closest to me before and im just like... how could i have let that happen how could i be such an ENORMOUS sack of SHIT holy mother of god i hate mmyself so much #negative

[lordoflimbo]

trying to explain Why Exactly pda makes me so uncomfortable :'')

one of the main reasons is that like. i feel like i am not supposed to b seeing it?? like its some invasion of privacy that ur just kinda throwin out there and i cant avoid it no matter how hard i try. like im happy ur happy with someone but at the same time pls., pls be mindful..,..

and then theres the Main reason which is just primarily jealousy i guess and its not rly jealousy like "wow i want to be with that person and not you" its more like "i wish i could feel those emotions why do you have to keep rubbing it in my face that ill never EVER have that"

i feel like such an asshole every time i try to explain this but god its gotten to a point where seseing pda becomes a flight situation for me and i HAVE to get away from it or else im going to start crying and everyones gonna think its just for no reason or for attention but i cant., i cant do fucking anything about it

like i have no control over what emotions i DO have im just

so jealous 

why cant i feel the same things as everyone else why cant i just be NORMAL and HAPPY for myself and for others without feeling that jealousy every time i see someone showing affection

im trying really hard but im never gonna survive in this world 

[lordoflimbo]

some of my fav results from this fursona generator

floral bull. it wishes it were a cloud. it has only one large eye.

spotted pigeon. it is a professional wrestler. it is the most beautiful thing you have ever seen.

pink and blue cobra. it does not have organs- instead it is full of flowers. it is always blushing.

sparkling purple civet. it cries all the time and can't really do much about it. it constantly drips with a tar-like black substance.

candy dolphin. it has a tattoo that says 'yolo'. it only wears hawaiian shirts.

aquatic iguana. it uses reddit but won't admit it. it loves trash.

alien dachshund. it speaks a forgotten and ancient language both disturbing and enchanting to mortal ears. it is a ghost.

divine wolf. it is shaking. it works at an adorable tiny bakery.

tiny white deer. it calls everybody comrade. it has an unknowable amount of eyes.

robotic tiger. it is a garden spirit. it is a witch.

sparkling purple cat. in place of a head it has a floating cube that glows and pulses softly. it has antlers.

glittering blue fennec fox. its face is actually an electronic screen. it has a very large tattoo of the 'blockbuster' logo.

hairy coyote. its back is covered in candles which flicker ominously. it wears a surgical mask.

[lordoflimbo]

feeling very not hella rn. still gotta make this skeptical page somehow tho

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just got woken up by my parents and my brother having a screaming battle, fucking Nice

[lordoflimbo]

me every time cramps start happening: its THE BIG ONE

[lordoflimbo]

ntm i started my #period today so my emotions r ever more outta whack than usual. please tag ur stuff

[lordoflimbo]

tfw pda is everywhere u look but none of it is tagged or its somewhere where u cant avoid it