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[firstactproblems]

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[cal3ris]

is this gonna get me fired you think

[losepierde]

Being a guitarist with adhd and a full time office job is

2 weeks of intense practice and progress

2 weeks of exhaustion and passing out after getting home from work, fuck the guitar

1 week working on gear upgrades (new bridge, calibration, sanding burrs)

???

2 days practicing again and getting frustrated

Switch back to 12 TET. 1 month of constant playing and studying theory

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Switch back to 24 TET to learn new songs

5 days playing bass

Exhaustion

???

Long work hours are incompatible with life

[losepierde]

Never thought that building a microtonal guitar would get me motivated to study music theory again and to practice daily but here we are

my fingers are peeling off, I'm buying a proper metronome

nice

[doctaqueef]

[navigoldie]

Someone needs to hire a better Etsy witch

[iamheavymeta-lll]

[losepierde]

I have an evangelical coworker who's always pressing me about how much alcohol I drink and whether it's "correct" to drink with my medications, in a way that feels invasive and really out of touch

um

1) I drink very little (she saw me having two small drinks during a corporate party)

2) My medications and habits are within the realm of my private life, and we're explicitly not friends

3) You're not morally superior for not drinking a beer with your friends

4) She only knows that I take non-sedating antihistamines and inhaled steroids (asthma can be scandalous during allergy season) so how would a beer destroy my health? jfc

5) You don't cut your hair or wear jewelry for religious reasons and have the audacity to prod into a mostly invisible and almost inexistent part of my life to feel morally superior???

Ignorance is audacious

[losepierde]

if i decided to date again i would only date bisexual people tbh

[byjove]

[losepierde]

Chromatic exercises on a 24 tet guitar are a whole other beast and my adhd brain is seeking that high all day (broke the e string F)

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[losepierde]

I refinished my old strat a few years ago, planning to build a 24-tet neck for it. And now the time has come. Just got the fretting saw in the mail.

Now expecting the cheap maple neck, which was listed as "natural banana head strat guitar neck"...haha microtonal banana

[losepierde]

looking like a man and a woman had a baby

[losepierde]

whenever my mental health spirals and starts interfering with my sleep and overall health i just say I'm going cuckoo again, keep taking my meds, and keep NOT GIVING MYSELF TIME FOR THERAPY COS DEALING WITH INSURANCE MENTAL HEALTH COVERAGE IS A HASSLE

[losepierde]

Needing medication is funny because i forgot my zoloft, fexofenadine, and inhaler yesterday so i want to f*ck, scratch my skin off, and cough my lungs out

30 minutes post meds all the types of itch will stop and I will be at ease...I hope

[losepierde]

Just found my bandcamp

Q: jesus christ what was wrong with me back in 2014

A: depression, anxiety, benzodiazepines, the gender assigned at birth

[losepierde]

My gender dysphoria used to come in waves of overwhelming suffering and mild bother. Lately i feel that it has stabilized to what feels like 50% dysphoria-50% euphoria.

It's like when my nearsightedness settled: not ideal, but much more comfortable and convenient ¯\_(ツ)_/¯