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THE FUCKING ROBLOX MEME 😭 im currently sitting in the break room at my shitty grocery store job listening to my coworkers sing after a two hour non stop rush so im doing about as well as you think i am
TW!! SEVERE MENTAL ILLNESS, SELF HARM, MENTAL BREAKDOWNS, ALCOHOLISM, HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY ANGST, ANXIETY ATTACKS, PTSD, NIGHTMARES
Kaeya and Diluc's unexpected reconciliation
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Chapter One
He let himself into his dull apartment. The walls were bare and he had the most simple furniture sets. Everything matched and it looked sophisticated, in case of guests. But any personal touches or evidence that the apartment was lived in at all? None. It looked more like a furniture showroom than a house. He preferred it that way though. He hadn’t even planned on being here this long, and he hoped he wouldn’t be for much longer.
I guess I need to prepare for tomorrow morning before I’m too drunk to function
He grabbed the bag he usually brought on missions. First aid, change of clothes, toiletries. He brought everything he normally did. Still, he felt like he was forgetting something. Not that he cared, can’t be that important if he were to be so stupid as to forget it. Besides, he didn’t have time to dwell. He had a birthday to forget- celebrate- at the tavern.
Of course, Kaeya couldn’t even enjoy a few drinks in peace. Because of course, Diluc was bartending.
“Ah, Master Diluc. Hoping to see me tonight? Maybe you picked up this shift to wish me a happy birthday?”
Diluc sighed heavily.
“I’m not in the mood for this tonight, Kaeya. What do you want to drink?”
“Death after noon, please. Extra strong.”
“The drink’s already strong.”
“Aw, is that concern in your voice?”
“No, I just don’t feel like cleaning up your vomit off my floors.”
“Whatever you say, Diluc.”
Diluc sighed and slid the freshly made drink over to Kaeya. He took a large sip of it and grimaced. Diluc definitely listened to his instructions. It burned going down his throat, and he felt a little more relaxed with every sip.
“Oh Diluc, another round, please!”
Kaeya was sloppy drunk. More drunk than he usually let himself get in public.
“Master Di-”
“That’s enough Kaeya. You’re done for tonight. Leave my tavern immediately.”
“Oh, come now, Diluc. Be nice. It’s my birthday, after all.”
His words had lost their usual teasing tone. He was slurring and the only recognizable emotion in his voice was unrequited anger.
“Kaeya Albereich, get the fuck out of my tavern. Now.”
Diluc fired back with the same anger and hatred in his voice, but behind his words laid another emotion that couldn’t be found in Kaeya’s. Hurt.
“Fine. If you want me gone so bad. Reminds me of another time. Might I recall it?”
“Get. Out.”
Kaeya just laughed a humorless laugh and slammed the door of the tavern behind him. Thus began the long trek home.
Home
Where even is that anymore?
He slammed the door behind him. After taking way longer than he should have to find the lock, he stumbled towards the wine cabinet, choosing a particularly large bottle of dandelion wine. He didn’t bother with a glass. Not that he really had any to begin with. Not that he needed any, when he would just drink the entire bottle anyway. Why deal with more dishes? The vessel the alcohol is in doesn’t matter, so long as it reaches his mouth and puts a stop to those horrid nightmares that plague sober sleep.
What a wonderful way to end my birthday.
He didn’t even make it to his bed before passing out on the floor. Truly, a wonderful way to end the night.
not proofread- it's 2:40 AM and i'm tired. maybe i'll edit it tomorrow
Albedo x gn!reader
a/n- self indulgent :)
next chapter of the remains of a life once lived should be coming out soon sorry for the hold up
Thoughts flitted through your head a mile a minute. It felt odd to be at rest after a week of constant work. A ring of treasure hoarders had been causing so much trouble that all units of the Knights Of Favonius had been deployed- including you and Albedo. Albedo had been in Dragonspine making potions and improving them in order to take the treasure hoarder ring out faster.
You, as a captain, had been even busier. Seeking them out and busting their tiny groups proved to be tiring work. You and your squad had been camped out in the Whispering Woods all week and this was your first night in your bed in a while- and the work was far from over, as well. Even with a vision and having several vision bearers in your squad, the treasure hoarders had thrown you for a loop. Hell, they were throwing everyone for a loop, which is why Jean had called everyone back to Mondstat to reevaluate a better plan- meaning you had no time to rest. You had work in the morning.
So why wasn't sleep making it's rounds? The night was still young- only 10 PM, but you really needed this sleep. But all you could think about was work. How badly you wanted a break. A long vacation. How for the foreseeable future things would only get harder. You hadn't even realized how you had curled in on yourself. You had stray tears falling from your eyes. You felt exhausted, every bone in your body sore and hurting. Wounds you had obtained over the past week making themselves known on your body.
Would it be easier if I just took myself out of the picture?
A wave of anxiety washed over you. There really was only one way out. It felt like ice filled your vanes as you realized just how trapped you were. The silence in the room was loud.
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Albedo knew something was wrong the second he walked in. Why are all the lights off? Surely you aren't sleeping this early?
He was right. You weren't sleeping, and that was abundantly clear from the sobs that wracked your body, your rapid breathing, the way you were completely curled in on yourself. He stood in the doorway for a moment, stunned, before rushing over.
"Y/n, it's me, Albedo."
"...Bedo?"
"Yes, it's me. May I touch you?"
You nodded, and instantly his hand found it's way to your forehead, then two fingers were softly pressed into your neck.
"Elevated temperature... rapid breathing... increased pulse.. shaking.. are you having an anxiety attack?"
Leave it to him to figure out what was wrong based on physical signs alone
You nodded once more, and he took one of your hands in his.
"I have a potion in progress that can calm the individual that takes it down from anxiety, but it's not lab tested just yet. So please, allow me to try my hand at helping you manually?"
"Please.." you mumbled.
"Give me one second, I will be back soon."
You heard noises in the bathroom, the soft hum of a toothbrush, water running, the laundry hamper opening and closing, the rustle of his work clothes being thrown inside. You heard the creak of the door as he left your room, and you heard noise coming from the kitchen. It was comforting just to have Albedo home, considering how often he was gone. The comfort of his presence alone put you at ease.
Albedo returned to your shared bedroom, holding two cups of tea and dressed in his pajamas. He turned on the lamp, which gave the dark room a comforting orange glow.
"Sit up for me, love."
You did as told and he placed the cup of tea in your hands. It's warmth brought you comfort.
He climbed in next to you, holding his own cup of tea to his lips and taking a sip.
"Be careful. It's hot." he said softly. You nodded and took a small sip.
The two of you sat in comfortable silence while you finished your tea. Albedo set his cup down on his nightstand and you followed suit.
"Alright. Now that you've calmed down slightly, may I ask you what's the matter?"
"I- I feel so overworked. We have to go right back tomorrow- we don't even get a day off. I feel like I'm barely hanging on, Albedo. The thoughts in my head aren't pretty at all, and I feel guilty for even thinking them, I-"
"Y/n, hey. You're getting worked up again. Come here."
He pulled you closer to him so you were sitting in his lap. He wrapped one arm around your waist and used the other to pull the blanket all the way around you. You wrapped your arms around him as well, laying your head on his shoulder.
"Focus on me, okay? Take a deep breath for me. It will calm your body down and return it to normal from it's current state of panic. Let's try together okay?"
You nodded, squeezing him tighter.
"Breathe in... hold it... and out.. good, just a couple more times."
Surprisingly, his breathing technique worked and you found yourself calmer, able to breathe easier. The silence that filled the room wasn't loud this time. It was warm and comforting, now that your lover's even breaths filled it and filled you with love and happiness.
Albedo broke the silence. His already soft voice was a whisper.
"Y/n.. I am not good with words. Nor am I good at maintaining relationships. Please forgive me if I say something wrong, but I cannot lose you. I think I know what kind of thoughts you are having. I will not claim to understand what you are going through and I will not claim to understand the feelings you have. But what I do understand is that I love you. I do not know if I would ever forgive myself if you removed yourself from this world by your own hand and I was not there to protect you."
He paused to brush your hair out of your face and place a small kiss on your forehead.
"A kind soul like yours doesn't deserve this kind of pain. If there was a potion that could fix it, I would have already made it. But because there is not a potion that can fully take away the pain you feel, I will try my hardest to ease it as much as possible."
His sweet words brought more tears to your eyes, as more soft cries shook your body.
"Shh, I've got you. It's alright. You're okay." he whispered, rubbing your back. He used his thumb to wipe your tears every so often, secretly loving how you melted into his touch.
"Y/n, may I try something that calms Klee down when she's upset?"
You nodded, curious at how he comforts Klee.
He began to sing softly, a beautiful melody in a language you didn't recognize. He gently rocked you back and forth, still rubbing your back. He had a surprisingly gorgeous singing voice, hauntingly beautiful with a hint of sadness and longing for something long gone in it. He reached over and turned off the lamp, still holding you tightly, but shifting your position to be laying down. He made you the little spoon and wrapped one arm around your torso protectively, the other resting on your head, stroking your hair softly.
As his gentle humming delivered you into a comfortable sleep, he couldn't help but feel a sense of accomplishment. He wasn't a man of many words, nor did he like being very emotional in front of others, but for you, he was willing to break out of that shell. Some part of him was even glad that that potion wasn't lab tested just yet. It gave him a chance to comfort you- to be vulnerable with you and connect with you more emotionally.
"Goodnight, my shining star. You will get through this. I promise."
TW!! SEVERE MENTAL ILLNESS, SELF HARM, MENTAL BREAKDOWNS, ALCOHOLISM, HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY ANGST, ANXIETY ATTACKS, PTSD, NIGHTMARES
Kaeya and Diluc's unexpected reconciliation
A/N- this is my first time doing a multi chapter series! please leave any feedback you may have in the comments! i know it's a change from my normal content but i hope you all still enjoy it!
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Prologue
Tired eyes cracked open to sunlight streaming across the room. A headache surged behind his forehead and nausea bubbled in his stomach. He stumbled his way to the bathroom to shower and possibly throw up. So sleeping off the alcohol hadn’t helped as much as he thought it would. He sighed and gripped the sides of the sink, looking in the mirror. He looked sick. Worn down, tired. Barely there. He hung his head and climbed into the shower. He didn’t want to go to work today. He hoped everyone had forgotten what day it was. He hadn't celebrated his birthday since four years ago. A lifetime ago. Before he lost it all.
The hot water from the shower snapped him out of his self pity. It did little to alleviate his headache, and he was 99% sure he was going to vomit.
But, as always, he cleans up nicely. He emerged from his house a different person. Cavalry Captain Kaeya. Sir Kaeya Alberich. He tossed a coin with a thumb as he walked to the Knights of Favonius headquarters, flashing that dazzling smile at everyone, saying his good mornings, trying to ignore the headache that still pounded behind his eyes. The second he got to his office, he closed the door and sat down at his desk, head in hands. A stack of paperwork awaited him, and he got to work. Signing off what he needed to, writing reports, all of the boring work that being the Calvary Captain of the Knights of Favonius entailed. Especially since Varka took all of the calvary.
A gentle knock at the door pulled him from his thoughts.
“Come in.” he called in his usual singsong voice, not bothering to look up from what he was writing.
“Good afternoon, Kaeya! Happy birthday!”
His face darkened momentarily, but he fixed it just as quickly. If Jean noticed, she didn’t say anything.
“Thank you, Master Jean. Now what brings you to my office?”
“Well, we’ve received word from Springvale, I’ll let you read over this,” she placed a report in front of him, “And you can have the rest of your day off to prepare.”
Massive crime ring in Springvale.
Citizens cannot leave their houses, it is not safe.
Treasure hoarders poaching all the boars in the area, not allowing them to reproduce and taking away hunter income, killing the economy.
Cart robberies
Many citizens had critical injuries
Expedition length- November 31- December 8
“Ah, how generous of you to give me the rest of the day off on the day of my birth. Let me clean my office up a little and I’ll get out of your hair for the rest of the day.”
“Alright. Be here at 6 AM, your team will be waiting for you. This is a large safety threat, so your team will consist of more people than it normally does. I will brief all of you further more tomorrow morning. Be sure to get some rest tonight, okay?”
“Why, of course. I’ll see you in the morning then, Master Jean."
hello!!! i wanted to know if y'all would be interested if i started a multiple chapter heavy angst story about a diluc and kaeya reconciliation? pls lmk because i have an outline already i just dont wanna write it if it's not what people want 🫶🫶💕💕💕
also i would still be writing my normal genshin x reader comfort stories in between chapters so dw !!
in your arms I feel sane. [ diluc x gn! reader hcs ]
⁺˳ ༚ ‘ 🎐 — word count. 425 words
⁺˳ ༚ ‘ 🌱 — before you read. # diluc x stressed/anxious reader # requested ! # diluc headcanons
⁺˳ ༚ ‘ 🌬 — synopsis. when stress imerges within you, in a corner you sit, waiting for diluc to wrap you into his arms and give you just what you needed to hear.
⁺˳ ༚ ‘ 📝 — notes. idk why but I went from listening to taylor swift while writing this to genshin osts… BUT BUNNY I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKE THIS <33
• [☁️] requested by @lotus-flowerz !
with the sight of you hugging your knees as you started at the wooden floor, diluc kneeled next to you, making slow and gentle movements to avoid startling you. once you turned around and realized he had been there for a bit, you look away — hugging your knees tighter.
he would caress your cheeks and fully sit next to you, slowly cupping your face to face him. in a low and soft tone he would ask, “what’s wrong?”
if you began to speak, he would simply listen to your frustrations and the cause of your stress, and once you were done, he would plant a kiss to your forehead. he would began to spew any advice he had as he held you close, letting you wrap your arms around him as he started speaking again, voicing how proud he was of you for speaking up.
his advice would help you 100%, although there may be a few occasions where he doesn’t have a clue what to tell you — and in those moments he suggests you talk to another person in mondstadt or even goes out of his way to try to figure out a logical yet sensible solution to your problems.
if you had decided to not want to voice anything at that moment, diluc would undoubtedly understand and he would stay there, seated next to you, until you felt comfortable enough to open up to him. he wouldn’t move, touch you, or say a word. eventually, you grew tired of the silence and decided to go to him instead, he welcomed you with open arms, a warm smile only you would be able to see was planted on his face.
in case your stress had you at your limit and your anxiousness nearly got out of control, he would remember what would help you most in those moments, a stuffed animal, a trinket, a dessert, your favorite food, anything of the sort — he would get it for you without question.
if a hug or kiss was all you needed, he would happily oblige. a kiss to your lips filled with love and a sweet sensation to keep your mind at ease, with strong arms wrapped around you to keep you comfortable and calmed, and his low voice to keep your nerves away.
“my love,” occasionally slipped from his tongue, and the warmth in your chest grew with each time he called you so. he never noticed the slip-up until he saw your growing red cheeks, leading to a sense of embarrassment in diluc ragnivindr.
Diluc comforts a depressed reader after they overhear something they shouldn't have
Diluc x gn!reader
TW!! FEELINGS OF ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION, SELF DEPRICATING THOUGHTS
a/n- you guessed it! based off true events
i hate my writing in this im so tired omfg unedited bc its 1:30 and i want sleep
its 9 am now i just reread it and i literally hate it so much i had a certain idea in my head but for the life of me could not make it work in writing this post is not what i wanted at all 😭😭
"For real, they're just always so... down. Gloomy, I guess."
"Quick to irritation, as well! I don't know, they're just not the way they used to be."
"Quieter too. They seem so angry all the time. I can't say they're very enjoyable to be around anymore."
You listened to three of your "friends" agree on how you acted. You felt sick to your stomach. They had you completely mischaracterized.
Am I mean?
Angry?
Gloomy?
You'd been through some rough shit in your life. It had left you depressed, anxious, weary, and tired. You'd been like this for years now though. You sighed, feeling like someone had just kicked you. You began the trudge back to the Dawn Winery, trying not to let tears cloud your vision. For once, you hoped Diluc was working late at the tavern so he didn't have to see you like this.
Maybe he thinks of me the same way they do?
The thought made your blood run cold. You picked up the pace in your walking, just wanting to go home.
You practically ran through the door and slammed it behind you, rushing to you and Diluc's bedroom to try and calm down.
You closed the door behind you and leaned your back on it, sliding onto the floor.
You don't know how long you sat there, staring at the floor, trying to run through every possible solution in your head to fix this.
How can I make myself not seem so angry or gloomy?
You felt something shove against your back, making you gasp.
"What the- Y/n, what are you doing on the floor?"
"Nothing. I'm sorry."
You got up and moved to the bed, grabbing a book off your bedside table and pretending to read it.
"Nope. Not going to work. What is it, Y/n? What happened?"
He spoke softly, concern seeping into his normally monotone voice.
"I heard something I shouldn't have. And I fear it's true."
He sat on the bed beside you as you shakily recounted what had been said about you.
"Y/n, they don't know you well enough to make such... childish claims against you."
"I didn't mean to make them think I was angry. What if other people think the same thing?"
"Because you're quiet? I doubt it, love."
"N-no, apparently I seem gloomy."
"And you have every right to be gloomy."
"Huh?"
You looked up at him, unsure of what he meant. You lived a lavish life and had a wonderful boyfriend. What right to be gloomy is he talking about?
"People have said the same things about me. I'm rude, gloomy, no fun, in my own world. Maybe in some sense, they're right."
"Diluc, no, after what happened to you.. you don't have to be cheerful all the time."
"You explained my point, love. People like to talk, but they have no idea what things have torn you apart in the past. You're still picking up the pieces from your past. You don't need to recover instantly just because your circumstances have improved."
He paused for a moment, blinking back tears of his own. He took a deep breath and smiled at you, taking one of your hands in both of his.
"You also don't need to recover because lots of time has passed. If there's one thing I've learned best is that recovery is a cruel and winding road that can go on for ages. All you need to do right now is breathe. You don't owe anyone recovery, and you don't owe then an explanation, either."
The stray tears on your cheeks had turned into quiet sobs as Diluc pulled you into him, hugging you close.
"You don't always have to be strong, darling. Don't rush recovery for the sake of others, and certainly don't let those harsh words effect the way you act."
"Only if you promise to do the same thing." you said in a small voice.
He nodded, kissing the top of your head.
"Of course. As long as we have each other, the lingering words of bitter people won't get in our way."
hello love!! i'm doing alright, i havent been posting because i've been tied up with work, working late and stuff (understaffed grocery store job ☠️) i just saw your post and i hope that you're doing okay! please DM me if you need it, i would love to at least provide some words of comfort your way :) please don't overwork yourself and make sure you take good care of yourself! you deserve to rest, and you deserve to be happy. you're a very sweet person and i'm happy that we met :))
“I Fell in Love From the Moment we Kissed” (G/N Reader)
Character: Kaeya
Genre: Hurt/Comfort (my fav<3)
Warning for harmful(?) thoughts, bad mental health, feelings of not being loved or being enough.
a/n: very much a sort of vent. if u know the song lyrics I quoted gimme a kiss rn🫶. wish I could have someone comfort me like this fictional character I write for does fr fr. not sure if there’s any errors, its two am as I’m writing this
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