in light and death

Hold me and tell me we’ll burn like stars...

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2017 vs 2021

fuckin wild...

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what hath my hubris wrought

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You are the piece of me I wish I didn't need Chasing relentlessly... Still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

this song/video is such a vanven mood. like... perfectly captures the energy. i had to stop myself from drawing more scenes.

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placeholder watermerk im gonna try to fucking use watermarks again this year who knows maybe ill commit for real this time

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two quick redesigns down and im already questioning my judgement 

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“headcanon time i guess? when axel and kairi fight together they do a lot of 'stumbling' over one another. since kairi was more of a novice than axel, he got kinda good at working with her and making up the difference. its kinda like swing dancing in my head lmao” 

from twitter

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bonus:

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i forgot how much i enjoy writing dialog lmao

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does anyone else feel like november 5th 2020 happened like 2 years ago...

important addition:

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im still wheezing from this lmao

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oh, i forgot to post the base design for axel in my au... nothin fancy because its not fun living in the world that never was, his nicest clothes are his work clothes. tale as old as time.

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idk just havin fun with colours i guess sorry about axel

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and now for a palette cleanser of happy art....?

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His throat jumped as a single finger hooked on the velvet ribbon that encircled it, thumb caressing the soft material. That sound… it lulled him into a stupor every time.

“Have you forgotten…?” Xemnas asked; his voice was low, a threat lingering in the space between them as he continued. “Your allegiance is to me.”

Axel’s eyelids felt heavy but he kept them open, brow furrowed as Xemnas pulled him closer by the ribbon. When it came to that thin strip of fabric, he always allowed even the lightest touch to move him… Because putting strain on it could break it, and breaking it had consequences. His condition was not only to obey but to be careful, gentle, predictable… to fully disarm himself. He was dangerous when he was upset. Not only to himself, but everyone else, too. He needed discipline, he needed to be receptive to precise, exacting control if he wanted to be useful to anyone.

“I know… I’m sorry.” Axel apologised again. It hurt to breathe… Xemnas had already made up his mind. How long did he plan on making Axel grovel before he told him it wasn’t good enough?

“Fickle thing,” Xemnas finally murmured, tugging on the ribbon, pulling it taut, “Have I been too neglectful, again?”

I really do just look for the worst possible thing to do to this man and then do it, dont i

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Fragments of joy torn apart  A freshly-drained heart that beats Disguise themselves through him He'll say that it's nothing new And swear this is true For you, I'll swallow the ocean

collab with my boyfriend for my 2006 emo/scene-era AU that needs a better name at some point.

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new display pic rly couldnt get the eyes to look right lmao