LovelyBlackThoughts

just random little thoughts from yours truly | ig:lovelyblacksweater

[lovelyblackthoughts]

I just want one person to like me. That’s all I ask.

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it’s okay to lie sometimes

tell them it’s alright sometimes

allow the pain to seep in

drown yourself in the deep-end

it’s okay you don’t have to pretend

they don’t love you they never did

you could disappear tonight

stop trying to say goodbye

you’ve lived a full life

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Who would care?

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Friendly reminder to myself: No one fucking likes you.

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Eventually,this disappointment will disappear and I will be content.

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I want to be ok more than anything.

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I ruin everything. I deserve nothing. I’m done with everything.

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Everything I’ve worked for.

Erased.

Ruined by me.

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I am weak.

You dislike me.

I envy you.

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Some things are just better in my head.

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What if I never came back? Would you still be my friend?

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Again, I’m left beat. In my own deadbeat mind.

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I am the happiest when I am asleep.

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The more I convince myself I matter, the more people convince me I don’t.

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I understand my lack of importance in this universe.

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Yes, I’m ok.

Stop asking me.

No, I’m not okay.

Stop asking me.

[lovelyblackthoughts]

Trying to accept myself and my experiences.