madison // she/her // 24 // cis/BI // artist&writer todd howard and DelightWorks won’t let me date my favs so i gotta do it myself // cringe culture is dead but my faves aren’t !!! // main f/o's are moriarty/archer of shinjuku, and sherlock holmes (ruler), both from fate/grand order follows/interacts from @hnybnny f/o list (p.s. i'm fine w/ sharing f/os! <3)
hello everyone!!! my name is madison (she/her) and i guess this is my introduction to the self-ship community?
i’ve been self-shipping for a while but only worked up the courage to make a blog for it recently, so here i am! anyways, i’ve got a handful of f/os (i drew myself here with my primary ones! miraak from skyrim, aizawa from BNHA, laken from AQW, magneto from (movie)xmen, and my main bois) though my main is sherlock holmes from fate/grand order- and pretty much i’m looking for people to follow and interact with and... yeah.
even tho i’m Adult, i’m still just a leetol socially anxious creacher new to the self-ship scene, so be gentle ;;
(also i’m totally fine sharing my f/os! they’ve (mostly) got two hands for a reason!!!)
With this man, intimacy isn't just physical; it's an act of profound connection, trust, and mutual solace. It's safe. It's grounding. It's healing.
Joel's warm approach
He is not the kind of man who moves abruptly. He doesn't pounce, doesn't seize, doesn't demand. Instead, he unfolds his affection with a slow, deliberate patience. It begins with presence. The quiet way he positions himself near you, close enough to feel the warmth of him but never crowding, never overstepping. A hand might find its way to your knee while you're sitting together, his palm settling with the gentlest weight. The touch isn't possessive; it's an invitation. When the moment softens, his fingers might brush your cheek. It's a prelude to something more, but he lingers in the in-between. Most telling are his eyes: dark, steady, and endlessly patient. They watch you with an intensity, searching for permission before he dares to close the final distance. There's no assumption in his gaze, no entitlement... just a question, wordless but unmistakable. His hands, his lips, his silence, they all speak the same truth: he will wait. For as long as you need him to.
Joel is all about consent
He'll always check in, even if it's just a soft "You alright, darlin'?" or "You comfortable with this?" whispered against your hair. He's not just asking for a yes or no; he's actively listening to your breath, feeling the tension in your body, and watching your eyes. For him, your comfort is the only map he needs. So if there's even a hint of hesitation; a breath that catches instead of exhales, a minute stiffening he detects in your shoulder, a gaze that wavers for a split second... he will stop everything immediately. He'll gently re-center the moment, creating a sanctuary of pause, and his only question will be a soft, earnest "What do you need?"
Joel knows how to use his hands
His hands are large, broad palms, long fingers, knuckles slightly swollen from old injuries and relentless use. Yet, despite their roughness, there's an unexpected tenderness in the way he uses them. When he reaches for you, his movements are slow, deliberate, almost reverent. He'll trace your jawline with the pad of his thumb, the motion feather-light. His touch glides along the curve of your cheekbone, down the slope of your neck, never demanding, always asking. When he strokes your hair, his fingers move with a quiet patience, untangling not just strands but tension, worry, the invisible weight you didn't realize you were carrying. There's intimacy in the way his palm cradles your face. He knows force. He knows how to break, how to hold, how to dominate when the world leaves him no choice. But with you, that knowledge is set aside. Instead, he applies pressure with precision. Not to control, but to comfort, to ignite. The brush of his fingertips along your spine, the steady warmth of his hand resting at the small of your back, the way his arms pull you close without ever feeling like restraint. Every gesture is weighted with intention. It's not possession; it's presence. Not command, but connection. His touch doesn't seek to take. It seeks to give, to soothe.
Joel takes time in knowing your body
This man is incredibly attuned to your body language. He doesn't just observe; he intuitively interprets the subtle details. A minute flinch, the slight tightening of a muscle under his hands, a subtle hitch or deepening of your breath... no cue escapes his attention. In real-time, he processes these signals and seamlessly adapts his technique, his pressure, or his rhythm. He's not just going through the motions; he's experiencing it with you, his focus entirely on your comfort and enjoyment.
Joel is patient
He isn't a man who rushes; he waits for you to set the tempo, needing you to take those first, significant strides into the unknown. For him, intimacy is not a race to be won, but a sacred thing to be explored with meticulous care. He moves with a heavy, honey-slow deliberation, savoring the ghost of a touch and the rhythm of your shared breath. He will often pause, anchoring himself in the depth of your gaze to ensure you are as lost in the moment as he is. To this man, the destination is irrelevant. He is far too busy cherishing every inch of the path it takes to get there.
Joel is a giver
He doesn't just seek to please you; he seeks to worship you. His own needs are a distant echo, he' only focused on you. He is a student of your reactions, searching for the softening of your expression that signals true ease. When you sigh (that small, shaky release of breath) it resonates through him more than any touch could. As you relax against him, surrendering your weight to his strength, he experiences a quiet triumph. To Joel, your joy is his masterpiece, and your comfort is his greatest achievement.
Joel is good in quiet affirmations
This man has never been a man of grand speeches or flowery prose; his love is a quiet, steady thing. He prefers the language of low, gravelly murmurs that vibrate against your skin, more felt than heard. In the quietest hours, he'll anchor you to the present with soft, huffed affirmations, like "You're beautiful" pressed into the crook of your neck, or a possessive, tender "My baby" whispered against your temple. When he asks "Feels good, doesn't it?" his voice is a low rumble of honey and grit, a grounding force that pulls you back to earth and reminds you that, in his arms, you are utterly cherished.
Joel is a master in a post-intimacy fortitude
Afterward, he's a fortress of comfort. There's no immediate shift, no impatient pulling away. Instead, he instinctively tightens his embrace, drawing you even closer until you're perfectly aligned against him. Your head finds its natural resting place beneath his chin, nestled into the curve of his neck, and his arm becomes a warm, substantial weight draped gently but firmly across your waist, anchoring you to his side. He's utterly present, ensuring every last detail of your comfort is met. He'll adjust the blankets, pull you tighter into his warmth, and just hold you there until he senses you are perfectly settled... warm, safe, and entirely at peace. His fingers might tenderly trace patterns along your scalp, or softly card through your hair, a silent caress. All the while, he listens to the steady, quiet rhythm of your breathing, attuned to your every subtle shift, simply existing in that profound, peaceful bubble of shared aftermath.
Joel is a safe harbor
Ultimately, being intimate with Joel feels like coming home. It's a place where you are completely seen, respected, and safe. There's an underlying current of reverence, a quiet appreciation for the vulnerability you're sharing, and a steadfast promise in his embrace that he will protect this sacred space you've created together.
boyfriend!Joel Miller who's very anxious about your age gap and often worries you'll find someone better and younger than him but also trusts your words and actions when you assure him you love him and no one else
boyfriend!Joel Miller who doesn't understand exactly why a girl like yourself fell for him, but he's thankful every single day for that blessing
boyfriend!Joel Miller who fixes up anything you want: the leaking faucet, the warped bookshelf or the weird noise your car's been making, he might be tired after work, but he's still gonna do it
boyfriend!Joel Miller who loves going grocery shopping with you even if he doesn't admit it, it's something so simple and mundane but it reminds him he's not alone anymore, and running errands is always good when he's got you by his side
boyfriend!Joel Miller who doesn't really know if he'd like to get married some day, but he certainly knows how gorgeous you'd be all in white and feels his heart racing at the picture of you as a bride
boyfriend!Joel Miller who always complains about the reality shows you watch but the truth is that he's as addicted to it as you are and it's sort of a couple moment, where you both aren't doing anything sexual or romantic, but it still feels good to be that close
boyfriend!Joel Miller who loves laying hid head on your lap and purring at your soft caress, feeling your fingers scratching his scalp and his beard, closing his eyes and relaxing
boyfriend!Joel Miller who acts all rough and tough but melts whenever you prepare him a lunchbox so he won't live off tacos or burgers
boyfriend!Joel Miller who always watched as you sleep next to him, taking in how beautiful you truly are and reflecting on how much he loves you and wants to spend all the time he's got left with you
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who feels sort of embarrassed when you see a picture of him younger, worrying you'd find him more attractive back then but he soon relaxes when you remind him how handsome he truly is
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who thought having a younger girlfriend was just the result of a mid life crisis whenever he saw one of his friends walking around with a hot chick, but couldn't believe how deeply in love he was with you nor why he found true love later in life
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who's embarrassed to say out loud how much his back hurts after a busy day at work but he's so freaking thankful when you give him a good massage before bed
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who sometimes gets a little bothered to see greys on his hair here and there, or the white patch on his beard, but he relaxes as soon as you kiss all over his salt and pepper jaw and assures him how sexy he looks
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who manages to keep up with new trends and stuff he doesn't quite get the fuss about but still makes an effort just because you are showing it to him; he doesn't get the fuss about tiktok, but he will gladly watch a video you send him
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who won't admit he actually enjoys watching videos on tiktok after you showed it to him because it's entertaining as hell
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who also appreciates when you show interest in the things he likes, the older movies, or references you might not actually get but you still find lovely
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who hates when someone at a bar or restaurant confuses him with your father, even if he doesn't look that old
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who's thankful you didn't listen to people who said he was too old for you or kept making stupid jokes about his age, after all, your love for each other goes beyond details like those
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who knows exactly how to treat you like a princess, because he's had a wife before and it didn't work out, even if it wasn't exactly his fault, as she was the one who walked out of it leaving their daughter behind he makes sure you won't have any reasons to do the same
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who doesn't necessarily want another baby but wouldn't be mad if you showed up pregnant and more than that, sometimes when he's deep inside of you, he can't help but imagine impregnating you
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who definitely needs glasses but won't ever admit he needs one even if you assure him he'll look so sexy with it
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who's a gentleman and takes you on old school dates such as diner dates or drive in movies and melts your heart each time he gives you that shy smile
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who's the best lover you'd ever had always concerned about your pleasure and making sure you are having a good time
older boyfriend!Joel Miller who's the man of your dreams and the man you love the most in the whole world
This collection encompasses domesticity of pregnancy, birth, postpartum, baby stories and series. Lady or GN readers. (If you’re looking for spicy- check links at end of page)
If you’re one of the writers I’ve tagged: thank you for sharing your gift!
Consider all stories fluff to 18+, read author warnings
🝮 = HALL OF FAME selections
ADDING MORE AS I GO ✶ MAIN MASTER LIST
JOEL MILLER
🝮 SHORT DAYS, LONG NIGHTS @frannyzooey
Series. Joel + Lady reader on their own in post outbreak world, settle in a remote cabin… relationship grows… pregnancy
UNFORGIVABLE MISTAKE @lionlena
Series begins with Joel having a one night stand with the reader then rejecting her. She leaves the next day… a few years later Joel arrives in Jackson where he discovers the reader and her son with brown curly hair…
REFLECTIONS OF THE MOON @chloeangelic
Joel arrives in Jackson + teacher start an affair, she gets pregnant…
SLICE OF PARADISE and FROM LOVE AND LIFE @bubbles-for-all-of-us
All fluffy fluff- Joel and reader + Ellie have a farmhouse in Jackson and life is good. Reader is 5 months pregnant. A medical emergency a town over sends the reader on a trip at 8 months pregnant and the trip back does not go as planned…
JOEL’S CHILDREN @absurdthirst
Single story. Joel + reader from Kansas City travel to Jackson with Ellie and on to find the Fireflies. On the way the reader discovers she is pregnant and like Ellie, also in danger of experiments…
AND THEN IT HAPPENED @supernaturalgirl20
You tell Joel you’re pregnant and he doesn’t take it well. Relationship is angsty if not over. With support of others in Jackson life goes on. Until Joel comes around…
THUNDER ROLLS on AO3
Short story- Reader reminisces about life with Joel, comfort during a storm, pregnancy
DARLIN ID WAIT FOR YOU @cowgurrrl
In labor at home and Maria and Ellie are helping you through it while Tommy finds Joel
NEVER FELT SO LOVED @alwaysmicado
Plagued by anxiety and doubt, you’re 6 months pregnant and you and Joel are new to Jackson, it’s safety, his family. You worry about becoming a mother, if Joel will survive and return from patrol duties, etc. Soft, supportive Joel makes something for you…
SAFE AND WARM @alwaysmicado
Single story. Stopping for the night, you need to tell Joel you’re pregnant. He promises to protect and care for you
SHOOTING STARS @randofantfic
Single story. You and Joel have been trying for a baby for 3 years and 2 miscarriages. Your doctor calls and has you come in for test results. Not suspecting anything, you’re shocked to find out you’re 17 weeks pregnant. You tell Joel while decorating for Christmas
STEPS @miller-lookforthe-lite
Series. You’re in a truck headed to Wyoming with Joel and Ellie. You’d been in the Boston QZ and that’s where you met and worked with Joel and Tess, your brother and sister. You’ve had bouts of vomiting and dizziness, your breasts are tender when Joel caresses them, he takes notice of it all, but neither of you speak about what you suspect to be true. Besides, your periods haven’t come because your underfed right?
AFTER BIRTH @joelslastofus
Joel takes care of you and the baby after you’re home from the hospital fluff
CARING HAND @kkcauseway
Single story. You and Joel are on the road driving to your vacation when you become sick and overheated. Joel takes care of you fluff
Many other stories here!
ONE DAY AT A TIME @sixhours
Series. A drunken night in patrol results in an unplanned pregnancy. Joel and Charlie coming to terms with it and their non relationship
DIN DJARIN
SUNSHINE @zialltops
Post Mandalorian series, Din settles on Navarro and enrolls Grogu in school. And falls for the teacher hard. Reader is a teacher with glasses who loves gardening… secret past. Din has a glorious breeding kink, possessive/protective, pregnancy…DARK LUKE…
BESKAR DOLL @justagalwhowrites
Din + ex Naboo handmaiden who is wanted by the Empire. Cargo to much much more. So prolific and exciting! Slow burn, eventual pregnancy
BEST KEPT SECRET @lincolndjarin
Bodyguard Din + unhappily married princess on Naboo… her husband is to be king, is a monster, but luckily not yet interested in her. She and Din grow closer, rules are put in place, being found out would be deadly…
SECURITY @dindjarindiaries
Prolific series of Din + princess of destroyed planet, marriage, pregnancy, adventures…
KEEPING SECRETS @drewharrisonwriter
Din + lady reader discovers she is pregnant and fears telling Din thinking that he’d leave her. Cara helps talk her through it, adventure forces the truth to come out…
NOTHING IS WRONG and NOTHING IS WRONG: IN ABSENTIA on AO3
Din + lady reader who he discovers injured while collecting a bounty, bring her aboard the Crest so she can heal… quick and fun read through chapters, slowish burn, Mandalorians are all about reproducing, eventual pregnancy…
MY GODS ARE NOT KIND TO LONELY MOTHERS @fanfreakinfiction
Din, during a difficult time, spends a night at a brothel with a virgin woman. Months later he has a dream of her, pregnant and in distress. Grogu helps lead him to her, finding her on a backwater planet climbing up a mountain to give birth…
WRITER SPOTLIGHT! @charnelhouse
YOU BECAME ALL THE THINGS I WISHED FOR, ALL THE THINGS I HOPED Short of Din + Lady reader who discovers she’s pregnant.
YOUR HEART IN MY HANDS Birth of the baby, domestic life with new baby, Din, and Grogu.
THE REST. Twins! And a sprinkling of reality with a house full of babies
LITTLE CLAN @unofficial-writing
Short story of realizing and telling Din you’re pregnant
PAZ VIZSLA
PAZ + PREGNANT RIDUUR @sprout-fics
Just a short and sweet snapshot of Paz as an adoring father and his pregnant wife.
JAVIER PEÑA
COMATOSE @absurdthirst
Javi + DEA partner reader have a fling but break it off, reader is shot in action, placed into a coma, and Javi learns she is pregnant… Series
PERFECTLY INTOXICATING @gracieispunk
Reader arrives in Columbia for a 12 month job assisting the DEA agents in handling mountains of paperwork after Escobar. Steve and Connie are already friends with a past, reader meets Javi and “casual” relationship begins… unplanned, but wanted pregnancy… Steve is her best friend, Texas, Miami, job stresses… Javi grows leaps and bounds
STUFFING @palioom
Javi settled in Lerado coming home to his pregnant wife. He does the thing where he stands behind her and lifts her belly to hold the weight for her…
AGENT WHISKEY
UNWILLINGLY BONDED @absurdthirst
Agent Whiskey is on a mission to recover a hard drive when he stumbles upon an Omega in heat… A/B/O dynamics, breeding, pregnancy, birth, dumbass Jack.
MARCUS MORENO
YOURS @radiowallet
Reader tells Marcus she is pregnant and he is thrilled…
CAPTAIN JOHN PRICE
BRIEF INTERRUPTION @ghostheartfelt
Price and wife struggling with infertility find out she’s pregnant while he’s in a meeting. Just happy fluff
BABY TALK @the-froschamethyst4
Price has the baby all to himself for the weekend while mom is away with friends. He tries to teach her to say dada, 141 friends come over
NEWBORN SON @ghostlywhiskey
Price holding his newborn son for the first time
I’M HERE NOW @unreliablesnake
You find out you’re pregnant but John is deployed. You send him an image of the ultrasound to see when he can and you wait for a reply
KÖNIG
KÖNIG HEAD-CANON @bimbodoggie
König as an expectant father
SIMON GHOST RILEY
SLEEP @lethalchiralium
How Simon sleeps best
SURPRISING GHOST WITH A PREGNANCY @nsharks
Ghost arrives back from a long deployment and you’ve been together 5 years. You meet him in the shadows outside the base and tell him the news…
WRITER SPOTLIGHT @babygirl-riley
SMALL TRADITIONS Simon passing on traditions and memories of his beloved mother with your 3 daughters. Fluff
IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH Really hard pregnancy and delivery and Simon is there every step of the way
GHOST AND PREMIE DAUGHTER @stargirlrchive
The baby comes early and he’s there every minute for his girls
WRITER SPOTLIGHT @midnightcrw
PREGNANCY RISK After hearing news from the doctor that it would be dangerous for you to have a baby, Simon is terrified to even try
MOOD SWINGS, CRAVINGS, AND MELTDOWNS Being Simon’s hormonal pregnant wife
SIMON AND YOUR BELLY @sunsetsimon
And your cravings
SIMON LOVES MILFS @simonrillleyyysss
Home from deployment, Simon wakes to you breast feeding the baby. Once the baby is asleep he has his way with you
FAMILY @albanskikoks
Simon arrives home and is so moved to see his family fluff
GROWING PAINS @oceantornadoo
Going out for the first time as a family is stressful and he helps you through it
UNEXPECTED, PART 2 @dammn-dean
You’re in a relationship with Simon, but he’s acting distant and short with you… but you have news to tell him. It doesn’t get told until you’re in labor
BABYS FIRST FEVER @certifiedcodbabygirl
Your daughter has a fever and Simon knows just what to do
ONE NIGHT STAND @cmncisspnandmore
Series. Having just moved to London, knowing no one, you head to a bar. Overwhelmed by your past you take a moment behind the bar to breathe and meet Simon who you go home with…
Let’s spice things up!
🌶️ BREEDING, LACTATION, AND PREGNANCY KINKS REC LISTS:
there's just something about older! joel miller who doesn't see how attractive he is. he thinks his wrinkles and graying hairs are things people don't like, the softening of his middle is telling he doesn't or can't keep up with daily exercise or that he indulges too much in his favorite foods- that they silently judge him on. but really, his broad shoulders, his capable hands, the soft and thick curls of his hair, the cut of his chin and the slope of his nose, the way he holds his hands to his waist and stands when he's thinking, the barely there outline of what he hides behind worn denim, the southern twang that gets thicker when he's just woken up or the low pitch of his voice- he doesn't see it, can't see it- the way it pulls people into his orbit
he thinks he's just an old man. but he's a gorgeous older man, whose lived his life and can help you with anything you might need
They’re making Joel Miller so fucking gray in the second season of this show…my coochie is not behaving y’all. IM GETTING OVERWHELMED! I need to be snowed in with that man in a cabin a bit ways off from Jackson on patrol and fucked STEWPID for a couple of days until the storm passes. NEED DAT OLD MAN SO FUCKING BAD YOU GUYS DON’T FUCKING GET IT!!
