[lmaonade]

help with June living expenses

hello!! i am looking for some aid making it through the month once again, im a disabled trans artist who works limited part time hours due to my inability to stand for long, im doing all i can to make ends meet, but i need a little help for june with my portion of our mortgage payment as well as help with my medication expenses. im thankfully able to cover my car payment and our phone and internet expenses but our utilities and other things are going to be difficult. im trying to take on more hours at work by covering shifts when i can, but theres only so much im capable of without harming my body.

commissions will be opening again soon, but as of right now, things are looking very tight and anything would be greatly appreciated. please share, thank you for the support

$0 / $800

paypal

venmo: @radioaky

[lmaonade]

$260 / 800

thank you!! please continue to share if you can

[lmaonade]

hi this has suddenly become urgent. please share thank you 🫩 😵‍💫

[lowpolyfrog]

once again feeling nostalgic for porter robinson’s vr secret sky festival and just all the other virtual concerts of 2020-2021 they were soooo fun and silly

[lowpolyfrog]

i’ve been playing ffxiv since 2019 i think and i still dont know anything about it honestly. i feel like the most fake fan there is. i just like doing the little job quests… maybe someday i’ll lock in and learn something and feel like a real part of the community but not today… i’m busy fishing :)

[lowpolyfrog]

grief posting sorrryyy

about two and a half years ago my cat boots passed away. a few months later, my other cat mittens passed as well. losing boots was absolutely devastating but then to lose mittens shortly after and not have any remaining pets was just, a different pain. the day after she passed, my partner drove 6 hours to pick me up and took me to stay with them for a couple weeks so i didn’t have to grieve alone. i’m extremely grateful for that.

however.. when i was gone, my dad took it upon himself to pack up every single cat related item in the house, put it in a garbage bag, and throw it into storage. maybe he thought he was taking some of the burden off of me or something, idk. i dont hold it against him. but anyways. before i knew he did this, i was planning to go through it when i got home, pick out the stuff i wanted to keep and then part with the rest. but the fact that he just gathered it all up and stored it away has made it like… nearly impossible to do. its just an absolutely massive task to me now. like how do i push myself to now go out of my way to do an already heartbreaking thing. i just can’t. but at the same time its also heartbreaking knowing all their stuff is just sitting in a garbage bag like its meaningless.

idk. it’s been 2 years. i still havent done it. its in my mind nearly every day and i dont even know if i could realistically part with any of it but idk what else to do with it either. none of it is garbage to me. i just hate that i need to do it at all

anyways sorry to post like this place is my diary again. i’m trying to get a therapist but i haven’t heard back from anyone yet and its been like 3 weeks… -_-

[lowpolyfrog]

wwhen does it get better does anyone know. does anyone know if anything is going to be okay. just wondering if that’s real

[lockssteps]

im a fake fan of everything i like because i cant remember anything

[sweatermuppet]

i hate that inactivity decays things. just stay the same until i get back!!!!!!!!!

[kosmogrl]

it takes time but it can happen

[interdimentional]

[rozzwellie]

I really hate to do this but my therapist office is making me pay part of my balance, it's a reduced cost clinic but they are now requiring me to pay my balance they've previously ignored.

The part I need to pay so I can get seen and get my meds refilled is $500, I just plumb don't have anywhere near that.

If you're able to help at all it would mean the world to me, I don't have much to offer in return. There's more context in the tags but this is the gist of things.

My partner's venmo

Anything, even a reblog helps 💖

[rozzwellie]

I still need help ;-;

[lowpolyfrog]

bad day today folks its just all going wrong for me all the time!!!!!

[holespoles]

koki tsubomoto

坪本幸樹

[fairycosmos]

i really don’t have the time to be the way i am

[visorforavisor]

I think disability justice would be easier if abled people understood that being disabled is a mixture of all three of

I can’t do that without negative consequences

I can’t do that unless I have support for it

I can’t do that

and that trying to treat one of these as if it’s another one will get you nowhere.

[hymnism]

btw house flipper is currently free (to keep!) on steam until april 6th

this is my reonvation of the starting shack ^_^ (ignore the paint bucket on the bed)

[lamignonette]

[batcatyurimoved]

it really does feel like a lot of autistic people on tumblr are looking for any possible opportunity to make fun of other autistic people & especially autistic people worse off than them

[batcatyurimoved]

condescending reading comprehension questions & making fun of people who only read fanfiction and watch cartoons & making fun of picky eaters & "you people can't do anything" & "you can't even ask for ketchup" & "guys gullible is written on the ceiling" and i see these posts reblogged by people i otherwise consider good and kind people and people i consider my friends and it makes it extremely scary to talk about my own experiences for fear of being made fun of by people who should like... understand

[batcatyurimoved]

like yeah you guys respect me and treat me like the adult that i am NOW but will you continue to do so if i say that my parents or girlfriend have to order food for me in restaurants. if i tell you that i have ARFID so severe my safe food list is less than twenty items long (and that i have no interest in exposure therapy to change that). if i ask for clarification when you make a joke you think should be obvious. if i tell you i only read comics & watch tv marketed for children. if i can't cook. if i play pokemon games over & over. if i can't work. if i can't clean. if i can't live alone. how autistic am i allowed to be before my friends start treating me differently. how autistic am i allowed to be before i become the target of ridicule

[batcatyurimoved]

& not to mention that being capable of hiding those things is a privilege not every autistic person has

[slopgirlier]

The absolute disdain for people who can't drive from people supposedly advocating for public transport