Living Random Moments

L.R.M. not just my initials but my life. Lived real reckless...now I'm on the path to living real righteous.

[lrmzunderstood]

Regular girl

Now you made me a regular girl

Now I’m not use this bay I was use just the singing stage

Now I see you on the internet every other day

I wish that you would have been that way when we use to lay

I never knew this was the real you

I never knew the things you would do

I was seen as a princess now you making me a villain (like you)

What did I do to you what did I do

Now I feel like a regular girl (x5)

I just want to be a mom

Someone to be looked up to

One that can love and be true

But the disturbance you send to me causes me

To go in defense mode when I just want to be loving

I was expecting to grow into a more loving woman

But you want to continue to pull me (down)

Now I feel like a regular girl (x5)

Wonder if I actually feel like a real black women inside.

Wonder if I would have known this side if I would have laid by your side and let you inside

I wonder if I missed the signs

I wonder if I

I feel like a regular girl

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Winter winter winters

Winter came around you were no where to be found

You were no where to be found

Springtime spring time spring time

Spring came around I watched the rain fall down along with tears for you

Summer time is so shiny and bright but I couldn’t see your beautiful smile

Fall time fall time fall time

Falling leaves on the ground don’t tell me it’s another 365 days and you’re not around.

I guess I’m still healing . I guess this is the new feeling. I guess I’m believing it done this time. I guess I was needing. I guess I was still Feeney i guess I don’t have to guess that I’m not going to see you around .

My love

I thought you knew I love you. I thought you knew you were safe with me. I thought you knew I thought you knew but now I guess I have to do what I have to do. Just love me.

Winter spring summer won’t let myself fall out of love with me no more I promise to myself with the new summer I’m going give myself more love. I will give myself every thing i need and more I will adore myself, my love.

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 all this time you wasted time now you trying to take my time to tell me that you’ll do right this time

You more of my time when I was giving you my time all you wanted to do was play with the time I had specifically for you

How do we take so much time doing nothing but you were still on my mind as soon as I decide to stop taking time out for you now you want me and you 

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Feb 1

I use to run and chase after iggas

Now I know my place with iggas

Ain’t nothing change go figure

That’s what I’m all about is my figures

I’m about my business

I’m about my faith

Im about the ppl that has a special place

In my heart

In my heart

No reply

I don’t want to go back that way

With my heart with my heart it can’t stay

I wish you a bless day

I hope you are brave

To follow your way

That’s what I got to say

Before I erase

The moment that I retraced when I sat to think if I want to stay but I’m

Done with chasing iggas

Now I know my place with iggas

And ain’t nothing going to change that

Go figure

But my heart send you healing

For your day

For your faith

For you to go and be okay

And live the rest of your days

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Dancing with you

I wanna dance with you all night till the sunlight comes up. I wanna dance with you under the moonlight. I want to see the stars shining so bright we see the light off our faces when we look into each other‘s eyesight I wanna dance with you and feel the wind that comes off your body smell your breath, your closeness I wanna fill your fingers up and down my body. I wanna lay my head on your chest. I wanna caress your neck hold the back of your head. I want you to grab my butt and hold it tight. I wanna dance and I want to laugh and see your smile so big that we see our teeth Kiss you deep and say I love you while staring into each others eyes deep, but I wanna dance. I wanna feel my feet off the ground. I wanna dance with you in front of a crowd. I wanna dance with you alone in the room. I wanna dance with you outside on the balcony I wanna dance with you in front of a new place. I wanna dance with you outside in a public place, wanna dance with you in the shower. I wanna dance with you do you wanna dance with me? Bc I Wanna dance with you

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Just know that I will always have love for you inside my heart

And no matter how long it takes and no matter how far you are I will still wait and have love for you

If you decided not to come back it’s alright it’s your birth right

And if you decide to move on and love another it’s alright it’s your birth right

Bc you have fallen in love

Bc you have found a real love(r)

Don’t be ashame how you are

If it’s meant than we’ll never be apart

Just know I’ve loved you from the start

Just know my love won’t stop

You have every right to live your life it’s your birth right

Just know When you cry at night I would wipes eyes and hug you tight

 whispering in your ear, letting you know everything will be alright

And if you feel like you’re the only one here in your life, I’ll show you that I’m right by your side

 but if you decide this is not the life that you rather live your life with someone else or be by yourself it’s OK cause it’s your birth right that won’t change anything

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It's my 13 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[lrmzunderstood]

I know that you been tripping lately

You wondering if I still care like I did in the beginning

Ain’t nothing changing that

My heart is for you that’s fact

You’re just tripping baby

Relax

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Lay your body down right here

Let me rub yourscalp and your back baby

I know all your spots don’t you fear nothing

I’ll take you to the places that will change you here

Don’t worry about nothing I’m going to be fair

Fair

Everything is fair it’s going to be fair

Fair

everything fair its going to be fair.

You won’t have to worry you won’t have to beg

I can read body language and I can hear what’s in your head

Don’t worry everything will be fair.

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Message

I had to cut you off bc you were so close with my enemy.

I can’t hang with hateful jealous envious energies.

I’m praying tho for I would want to be forgiven for any imperfections so I can’t hold onto anyone else’s imperfections.

But I’m on my own doing me.

Building up me

I apologize for my silence if it sliced your heart

I can’t stop

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Playing Hard

I do whatever you want me to do

You’ll do whatever I want you to

So why you playing hard with me boo?

Why you playing love when I love you too

This use to be our habit now I see how it happen arguing and a screaming match we were matching in our bad habit bad bad habit

Now I’m in this zone where I can see my.self and I almost didn’t recognize you’re in love with me . Well shouldn’t I love myself ? Be if not more equally in love with me ? so …

[lrmzunderstood]

An earth angle

Maybe it’s me maybe I be tripping

Maybe it me maybe I still need some healing

Baby it’s me I guess I can’t believe I’m in front of an earth angel

An earth angel

It’s me I be choosing I be acting I be being absurd with and about you

Saying why did you choose me when I can’t even believe it’s meant for us to be

But I believe in you I believe im falling for and earth angel

An earth angel

Now I’m begging you not to lose faith in us because I played so much I doubt I don’t want to trust in us all for me to end up deep in I believe in in love with an earth angel

And earth angel

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I’m not missing out on anything God is keeping me from. I’m actually being protected.

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Learn

 I have to learn to love again and the best ways is to love yourself.

The best way to love yourself. It’s to understand yourself the best way you can.

Can you find the one thing that you know about yourself that is real you love it and you work on it.

Time progress you will see something else you will learn about yourself and you will love it and you’ll work on it.

 The point is to be so busy on yourself that you don’t even worry about no one else and learn yourself and love yourself and your vibration so high that you attract you.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to love you love yourself not for someone else love yourself for yourself cause the worst thing you can do is hate or hate you.

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Return what has been lost restore where I have been broken I am emotionally tired I am mentally exhausted

I seek no more for flesh.

I seek no more for his.

Protect me

Remove me from the binding of that situation my mind, my body, my thoughts, my emotions.

Protect me forgive me keep me safe keep me focused. I want to see something else other than this heartbreak. I want freedom from it desire I know your love is real. It’s taking me a while, but I am here right now. Thank you. Save me.

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Him to her

Take me slowly

Kissing me feels amazing

How you do how you know

I can’t fight no more get on top ride me

Stare me down don’t leave my eyes

Hear me roar hear me scream out with joy

It’s your turn I will take you in with no returns

I’m going to escape inside you baby you deserve

To hold all of me and keep me until a baby is born

I love every little thing about you that it burns without you next to me I feel like a turd

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God

U revealed me to me

You healed me

You give to me

You understand me deep down inside