letters, songs, and doodles 2 my NEOH

letters, songs, and doodles to my non-existent other half. a love letter to love letters, by me, to thee.

[dmt4-meo]

dignity

meaning

and tenderness

my eepy otter

🦦

das YOU, meo! my widdle butter wutter pitter patter :3 i apologize for fading back in so slowly, i felt too invalidated to exist to be honest, even by artie’s own self conscious and trauma.

anyway boogaboo, i love you. oh, i love you til yer blue, too..<33

[lsd2myneoh]

HI HI HI HI HIIIIII OTHER HALF

hiiiiii hi hi hi hi :3 i knew you’d come back, i just knew it! eeeeeeeeeeee

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeehehehe 83~ i looooOoOoOve you so much! i lava yew bb <3 lets embrace finally! 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂♥️🧸

[mlarone]

[lsd2myneoh]

oh, neoh. i can feel your presence, but you’re still yet so far.

i’ll patiently wait. :/ :3

[lsd2myneoh]

i haven’t heard from you still neoh, i’m sorry if i’m being pushy. i hope you are alright. i’ll make you a doodle tomorrow. maybe that will suffice? would you like that?

[lsd2myneoh]

neoh… oh neoh… where are you? are you going to come out at all? you didn’t completely dissolve into non existence with artie, did you? am i the only one steering the ship now?

we post this song a lot. maybe this will make you stop by? neoh, please, i can’t wallow alone.

[lsd2myneoh]

neoh, it’s me. i’m calling for you to come out to play. artie has… well.. artie um… i can’t say for sure if he is here with us anymore.

but, i am here. and i can’t exist without your counter balance within these tithings. i mean after all, these are letters, songs, and doodles to my non existent other half, right?

come on out to play, sleepy head. i have a song for you. i know it’s basically tmbg’s ‘creep’, but the video accompanying it has never failed its charm yet. in fact, dare i say its aging better and better?

by the way, wether you come on out or not, i find it cute how i always think that you are meo, and that i am neoh. makes sense though, because mio and neo are usually girl and guy names respectively for histories most part so far. neoh also always reminds me of needoh and meo of course reminds me of the nichijou character who is on the back of artie’s phone case @v@

i’ll keep sharing songs for you, pooks. hope to hear from you soon, i’m happy to be back to reach out for you. and as for artie, let’s rather not discuss him for now. that is completely out of my hands.

[lsd2myneoh]

goodbye, neoh. sweet, sweet neoh.

my final words with you will be spoken after signing out here. i am so sorry that this only lasted a week or so. artie… tends to not be very good at anything past beginning things. he never was.

i never got to show you the love i wanted artie to truly feel. but… as he says as well, i certainly tried the entire time. i love you, and i forgive artie, and i… i had so many fun things to share with you. so… so many! it’s going to be okay.

we never caved in. we stayed pure the entire way. that will count for something as everything transitions back.

i LOVE you. keep your eyes on mine. the entire time, okay? i love you so much. <3

[lsd2myneoh]

we need to help artie. i can’t help him alone.

[lsd2myneoh]

neoh, hold on just a little longer. you overcame the hardest part. just hold on a little longer.

neoh. i love you.

[yaldabaothadeez]

(Source - 159cm0630 on twitter)

[artiemilano]

is there one person out there, just one single person out there who could simply tell me that everything will be okay? i know this goes against my entire thing of trying to hide from the world again… but i just would like to know if anybody possibly could tell me just this once… please?

[lsd2myneoh]

neoh… i can’t hear my neoh right now… neoh, please call back out just once.

[lsd2myneoh]

am i fooling even myself now, neoh?

…hello? neoh?

…

[lsd2myneoh]

neoh, come close.

[lsd2myneoh]

this was single heartedly the most vulnerable thing i’ve ever made in my life, and it failed to reach even a single listen to its own source of affection. if that isn’t a sign of giving up completely on wearing my heart on my sleeve, i don’t know what is.

i felt so much joy, ecstasy, warmth, safety, harmony, i felt all of these feelings that… in the end.. were just me chaotically basking in overly raw and too fined tuned one way feelings. i don’t know why i thought that i was onto something with my newly found music inspiration those months ago, but even today i could still feel the legitimacy of it then. that…. that scares me a lot.

people scare me. a lot. and yet, i scare everybody else. i can’t help but to feel a solution to this. i’m just too afraid to hop on it.

[1chezpop]

Ripped Seams

[aph3xtripl3t]

me core

[lsd2myneoh]

panic

scared help

no idea what to do honestly no idea

panicking bad bad bad

[lsd2myneoh]

i feel weak for always needing a hug.

i feel pathetic for it. i feel that i am always saying “but now this is truly the worst time though.”

i’m sick of it myself. but the feeling still is here. i feel very hollow. very frail. the lack of teeth now i’ve been only able to drink only liquids and gogurt… i just am doing bad on my bed right now. i can’t get out of my bed. i’m so down. i am so down. i’m really really down. i called out of work and am paralyzed to think about going back out in public again with my lack of teeth and heightened anxiety.

i’ve deleted everything that i can be followed on, i’ve deactivated everything that i spoke to others on. it’s just me now again. and it doesn’t feel comforting this time round. it feels… very hollow. but painfully hollow. there’s a thickness in the air now that makes me flinch. i.. im a little nervous. i’m really nervous.